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There you go you said it yourself it cant be changed? For any of this to be fixed I need at least 10 years of the life I should have had. If that cant be fixed then theres really no point in carrying on.
Ok, your stuff is very common, you are not in a special case scenario where you are hard done by. Life is hard on a lot of people. Not everyone, but a lot of people.
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When I say bad luck, I mean I've lost tens of thousands of dollars, I've been robbed by my "best friends", I've had girls break up with me 2 weeks after they told me they loved me and that no man had ever made them feel like I did, I've been in 4 fucked up car accidents over the past 6 years, I almost die on a monthly basis, the most important person in my life died 2 years ago at the age of 31 for absolutely no reason, just died in his sleep. I could go on and tell you about guys I know that were in deep with serious gangs, dealt drugs, guys that are tens of thousands of dollars in debt, there's guys with serious dissabilities that they struggle with every day and yet they're still living as best they can and trying to be the best they can be for as long as they're here.
This is what I told you about myself before and I think my life is easily worse than yours, because I left a lot out, like how when I dropped out of college to "see the real world" I ended up completely broke cause I couldn't get a job in a convenience store, let alone one in my field, so I ended up working as a porn star. Oooooh sounds awesome right? No, it sucked, I was treated like a whore, I was paid $50 for hours of work, which is less than a whore makes and I was practically dissowned by my family.
My best friends had me evicted from my house at one point, because they didn't like the fact that I wasn't going to school and hadn't gotten a job yet, so they felt like I was sucking the energy out of them and threatened to beat the shit out of me if they ever saw me again.
I struggled with alcoholism and drug addiction due to depression from all these things, but managed to overcome both without any outside help.
I wasted a month of my life in an attempt to work on an oil rig and was laid off the first day I worked there, because the crew foreman had alterior motives and wanted to hire all his buddies, so found any excuse he could to fire all of my crew.
I'm 23 and I have diabetes, a hiatus hernia that causes me to spit up stomach acid if I don't take my medication when it happens randomly, my spine is in the shape of an 'S' and one of my ribs dislocates itself because of sports injuries, I started to go bald at 20 and now I need to shave my head every 3 days or I look like Style before he shave his head
http://theseductionbible.com/images/nei ... after1.jpg, my left knee dislocates itself more and more frequently as I get older, from and injury I got when I was 14, I am legally blind without glasses/contacts.
The roommates I just got rid of, stole everything from batteries, to money when they moved out, they still haven't paid me the money they owe for cleaning/utilities. While they lived here, they were my "friends" but they would stay up all night playing games, quit their jobs and then told me they had other ones, so it wouldn't be a problem and then a week before the end of the month they told me they were moving out and that I needed to find 2 new roommates in 7 days. They didn't follow the majority of rules we had agreed to and they were talking shit about me to their friends behind my back, or sometimes right in front of me.
So, I'm 2 years younger, I've got way worse problems in my life, but I'm doing great now. I haven't gotten rid of a lot of those problems, cause unless they get a cure, I'll always be a diabetic and I'll probably end up losing fingers, toes, kidneys, eyes, etc from tissue damage because of it. But I take control of the things I have control over. I moved from the city with no jobs to a city with more jobs than anywhere else in the country. I broke ties with guys that aren't really my friends. I cared about myself and found ways to be happy with who I am, like shave my head, even though, up until I was 20, my hair was my only vanity and the thing I loved about myself more than anything; now it's gone and I'll never get it back the way it was, but I don't care, that's not who I am, it was just something I liked about me, so I found another way to be happy with myself.
You can do all of these things and more. You probably have a lot less getting in your way, but you are only focusing on the bad. I just poured the majority of my shitty life over the past 5 years (yeah, that's only 5 years and there was much more before that, I was infamous and hated by a lot of people in my school from grade 1-12), so take it seriously. We are trying to help you here, but you need to help yourself too. If you aren't up to that challenge, then there's nothing any of us will be able to say to help you and this thread will be locked as it is just mental masturbation.
P.S. Only took me a year of dedication to trying to be happy with who I am to fix my life, so don't cop out by saying it will take too long and you're too old. Start today and you'll be amazed at where you are a year from now when you look back.
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