Where can i find all the other mistakes?

lol im laughing at myself right now...

i just found out im not only rejecting her... ( i still believe she isn't good relationship material, but that is a preconception based on her actions and words )

i could have easily fucked her even before i had rejected the whole idea of having a relationship with her. i have no idea why i didn't hook up with her multiple times... she qualified and escalated alot... i really liked her.. maybe i have a trust issues since she was the only woman i was really attracted to.. ( i never really cared about previous Girlfriends)

i really didn't realize i could have easily fucked her day2.. i was just looking at her , her qualifying and i kept pushing her away... i have really no clue why lol... maybe i just valued her too much.

for some stupid reason im believing she rejected me... yes i choded out but that was long after i dumped her into friendship zone, at this point i didn't care much anymore anyway. For some unknown stupid reason i want her to reject me...im not only being unavailable or hard to get because of my game - i unconciously reject woman for some particular reason....

actually i have wasted both our time... for some reason i blamed everything on her - yes she was manipulative but I WAS VERY HARD TO GET...and most woman are manipulative so that's isn't something new. She has alot of reason to be pissed.. i still had reason to dump her because i do believe she's emotionally unhealthy.. but hey.. it seems i have issues as well...

somehow i know what im saying is the truth... but it doesn't register.. i fall back to these weird needy thoughts like it isn't true...like im talking or thinking about someone else lol ... weird shit...

well it kinda connects with me growing up as a kid .. never trusted anyone and i always got fucked over by family and other people. I never tell my parents anything , sometimes i tell strangers more than my parents/family/friends because i don't have to trust them. there are some deep issues going on. this woman .. it's not like i didn't share any experiences or emotions with her, actually i did... but why am i sharing emotions with someone who i don't want anyway, i mean i wans't going to sleep with her because i had like 4 chances to fuck close her..

lol... i dig fucking all the time i follow all inner game programs.. like 3 hours everyday for the last 3 years sometimes even more .. i write my own inner game stuff as well .. and i still run into issues i didn't see before...People never run out of issues and if they do they always seem to create new ones.

somehow i feel in control now... like all this external shit doesn't matter anymore - some weight falling off my shoulders.

it's like there are 2 parts of me..

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If you think back, I bet that all your previous girlfriends also had to endure your roller coaster bullshit. You're a lover/hater.
You know why you do this . . . you explain it in full detail here:
And if you know WHY you do this . . . then everything that happens from here and now are only decisions. You can choose to continue to your run in circles with your gerbil exerciser bullshit or you can choose to get out.
What she is and what she is not is not of your concern. You are not her father. You are not her psychiatrist. You are not her husband. Your only concern is your own health and the way you view the World. If you want a friend, go get a friend. If you want a girlfriend, then go get a girlfriend. But don't tell yourself you want a friend, only to run your passive aggressive bullshit on them, just so you can blame the friction on others. This is not nice.

*It seems you already know who is deserving of your negative bullshit. If you must purge your negative bullshit, then why not throw up on those who deserve it? At the very least, leave the innocent bystanders alone.

true... this morning i was thinking exactly the same... spot on i would say.

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Hey Ho

Men and women in my humblest of opinions can never just be friends, there is always at least one that is sexually attracted on some level to the other... obviously im talking about straight people, if the man is gay and the women is a lesbian then thats basically the same as a same sex friendship.... anyway digressing slightly lol.

Im kinda curious why you want just a deep friendship with a women specifically?

Id also like you to introspectively explore this overall sitution with initial sexual attraction, which has evaporated as you found out more and more about her and that you can infact relate to her and get on with her past the purely physical side, as that to me is curious. Almost like a built in mental defense when you arrive at situations were you may have to fully commit with someone emotionally and physically.

My opinion is you should look into overcoming your trust issues along the lines of the usual PUA mantra of self improvement probably with counselling as you seem to realise there is an issue, but it does need healing/fixing/facing.

I say this now as you may find it difficult to ever fully commit trustwise with anyone but if you do finally allow trust, when your let down - (people will on occasion let you down in different degrees of magnitude, thats life) it will exacerbate it even further. The longer you leave it the harder it will be to overcome.

Dont worry about the women for now, its your fault, just fix the problem not the results. Just some food for thought from someone else in that situation earlier in my life matey

good reply .. thanks !

good replies in general

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