Hey guys I need your help ASAP.
I'm 21, and I've been awkward and fat AFC with very little friends till I was 19 and discovered PUA world.
Since than I was totally transformed (physically and mentally) Now I'm 6' 4" tall, blue eyed, tanned, very groomed, ripped guy.
Like most guys, I started reading books for long time, most days reading like 12 hours a day. I've read books from Mystery, Thundercat, Juggler, David D., Ross Jefries etc. Every book I could find, hundreds of them...
I have also watched seminars from David D. (Body Language, Approaching, Advanced Series...), Hypnotica-Ultimate Inner Game, Street Dating Revealed etc.
I need your help on getting my first f-close (don't laugh). I was in position like 1 year ago to get it 3-4 times but I was drunk and had alcholol dick (bad timing lol) But now I'm getting desperate
Even though I'm now extremely good looking, I still don't have confidence in myself. I guess that 19 years of afc behavior and being very very very self conscious messed up my head badly

Girls now wink at me, grab my ass and giving me extreme eye contact everywhere but I'm still very self conscious

Nothing helps me, I've tried NLP, Hypnotica DVDs... Nothing.
And I didn't have a girlfriend for about a year.
My biggest sticking point is whole mid game and dating, I suck at it big time. I don't really want any of that to be honest, and relationships are boring as hell. I just want to be able to quickly f-close.
I'm going out tonight to open some girls for fun and to improve my confidence.
Ask me anything you need to know! This must be one of the weirdest situations you have seen.