Ah man, this has been with me right through my attempts to improve my game. My personality. I'm starting to think I'm weird. Even with my friends, I hear them describe me as weird very often. I think it's also preventing me from closing. By the time I build up enough comfort they discover my secret.

I grew up in a insular family and this setting was filled with lots of eccentric shit and behavior, which evidently rubbed off on me. I'm trying to ask, how do I be normal?

Besides going to the gym, studying and gaming girls, I feel like I am of little value. How do I be 'the man'?

man people call me weird all the time. if you are completely rooted in it and genuinely dont care then its cool. a small example was the other night i went around pretending i was a tudor king. some girl called me weird so i just looked at her and carried on as i was being an idiot (weird) eventually she broke and started joining in. soon she decided that i wasnt 'weird' and that i was 'different' and 'fun'
i do a lot of weird stuff when im in and out of state. some people try and be james bond and stand there being boring. but to be honest i dont wanna hang out with those people. anybody interesting will have some fun.
do whatever the hell you want. redefine weird in your own head. i think its weird seeing people stand around in a fun environment as if theyre bored! THAT is weird.

ahh I used to be right on with this concept. But sometimes the negative feedback from lots of people can dampen my philosophy. I have a very twisted sense of humour also.

Maybe I'm too wrapped up with being an alpha.