I don't know why but I HATE big groups. I try to be social but everything that comes out is just bad during social interactions. If I feel like my opinion no longer matters I become quiet and if there was a girl I was talking to and another guy enters the picture I try and slip out of the picture. Because I know if I try to become assertive or insert my self I will embarrass my self and take things too seriously.

I am filled up with pent up rage so often from stopping my true crazy self from coming out, I just become quiet and slip away from the social setting. I know this is bad, but big groups and social settings are a weak point for me, and have been for the longest. My friend ASKED me if I wanted to try to pick up this girl, ass hole should’ve been honest and said he wanted her. He instead took it upon him self to smooth talk and gets her. Not like she was interested in me anyway, she was hovering near him the whole time lol.

A year and I still suck, awesome. He is a very social guy that gets lots of women, but I seriously hate when he does shit like this. Part of the reason I avoid large social groups is because I hate feeling like I’m being stabbed in the back. People are simply untrustworthy and hurt me too much. Yeah pathetic, just help me assess this, thanks.