So I need to write.

I finially figured out that when a girl says LJBF it just means that they want to trust me more, but I also have to kino escalate a lot. Being the cocky funny touchy friend.

I just don't give a shit anymore. It drains me so much. All these bitches. I'm fighting for them like a fucking boxing chapman. Its a lot of work. I enjoy it. I breath it out my nose. I feel it pulsating through my blood. I love women. But I really love Kate. She is my one true love. Ever since kate told me were just friends I have been wainin. Damn that would have been a stupid decision.

My new plan, which started 6 hours ago- I got a dinner out of Kate. No touching whatsoever. Which doesn't suprise me.

So I need to figure out how to come off as a harmless friend who can touch and grab the girls- uping the kino.

Why can't I just be allowed to love her... WTF. I have to have so much disipline in order to get with her. This girl has a lifetime of proper training.

Yea Yea I already know. Because thats AFC. FUCK ME. So I'm an AFC What do I do now? I got to figure out how to get this girl from friend to lover. That sounds like the farthest possible strech to me. Just typing friend to lover and thinking about Kate seems wrong. Friend to wife seems more right. This girl is no joke. She doesn't talk to anyone. Here I am thinking about her again. Buttering her up like some pastry. She is just a little dumb bitch like all the rest of them, but why can't I fucking stop thinking about her. Well, because I just texted her and asked her if she has class tommorrow. She hasn't responded yet, and it's driving me fucking INSANE.

So why does it cause so much pain when she wont respond to me? I must be emotionally invested in her. Honestly I think she is putting up a front to keep her self safe. She often alters reality to keep it nice and safe.

Tonight I facebook commented on a picture of all of use drinking at a bar for kates birthday. Kates mom is active on facebook and commented on the picture, "well aren't all of you thirsty!" I replied with "Your daughter was wasted! Luckly she has good friends who take care of her. And she even did her homework the next day." To which her mom replied, "Good friends are essential!" Then I replied with "Thanks for the cake mrs p!" Then she replies with "No Problem I hope you enjoyed the root beer too."

Then later Kate gets on and says, " Magnum45! your losing ground with me man!"
To which I replied, "But gaining with your mom!"
Kate says," How wrong you are.. Lets use that thing in between your ears my dear"

Damnit... I was going to reply "Please your mom loves me. Who doesn't like an honest young man, who keeps her daughter safe." But I didn't say nothing. I think its funny as shit. The whole converstaion is histerical. Well now it's bed time because I'm tired. Good night blog readers. Thank you very much for reading.

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