Yesterday, I was a total mess! For some odd reason I let this chick affect me the most. I was heavily thinking about her and I couldn't get my head out of the clouds. It was like I was in a daze.

We use to talk on facebook and she gave me her number. We flirted back and forth and she told me I sounded like a smooth talker and I told her I was a PUA. She didn't know what it was and I explained it to her. She thought it was cool.

So, I told her I had several gf's and she told me that her husband wanted the same thing and she didn't want that...so she couldn't do the same with me. Days later I saw her on facebook and I IM'ed her and she ignored me, so days later I IM'ed her again and she ignored me again. I felt rejected and I wanted her attention even more.

Finally I got her attention when I told her it was my birthday so kiss me and she said, "You think so huh?" then she told me she called me and she couldn't get a hold of me. We talked on and off because she kept on popping online and offline. She asked when she hear my voice and I told her that night. I told her I lived in a group home and was mysterious about it. She kept on prying about wanting to know more about why I lived in a group home, so I kept on keeping it mysterious then I replied in vague response that I attempted suicide in 2001.

Later that night, I called her and talked to her. While talking with her I was using my caring \ passionate voice tone. The conversation sounded like this:

ME: Hey Karissa! It's paul!
KARISSA: Hey, how's it going?
ME: Good! You finally heard my voice!
KARISSA: Yeah!
ME: You're right you do have a phone sex voice.
KARISSA: Oh com'on! *LAUGHS*
ME: I love your laugh it sounded evil!
KARISSA: (LAUGHS)
ME: SO how was your day?
KARISSA: It was productive!
ME: Yeah? That's good!
KARISSA: Can I call you back in a minute, my dad is on the other line!

After that she never called. This is when I was almost waiting by the phone then i decided that I better clean the kitchen to get my mind off her. I later then wrote in my journey and broke down the method and how I felt, now today I feel better. I'm ready to get back in the game with her.

Question is - is she gaming me?

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