Met this girl 2 months ago, we got close after 3 weeks I told her I had told her I did a certain drug the day before, and that's why I was acting 'hungover' the next day, she was interested, but asked me "promise me you'll never do this again"

I said sure, well I ended up doing it again, more than I have other done. We went to her friends house and then to a club. I usually use this drug if I go to the club to have fun, why not with her, she'll never know, she's never done drugs, or been around them.

Well she sure noticed that something was wrong with me, but she just dismissed it as me being piss drunk but now I feel nothing but guilt, I couldn't even pretend to act sober.

I've realized I made a huge mistake, and will never use again as long as she's a part of my life. I wanted to tell her when I was under the influence but it would surely have scared her.

And I don't know if would make the matter worse if I talked about it, or just let her think I was wasted, which I was, but with the drugs on top of that.

i apoligized for the way I acted, we hung out the next day but it was weird, and the next day we just texted, and today we just texted. I just feel like in the back of her mind she has this experience that I lost control, and she was so in love with me before, but now she has this little doubt.

My question is, how do I get rid of that feeling in the back of her head, or am I just imagining things

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Doesn't sound like you are for real. FInd a chick who likes drug users..

Good luck bro.

i had an epiphany.

she fell in love with the real me, someone I feared being for so long, I wanted to see if she'd love me more if I was 'enhanced'

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Dude, just take it is a good opportunity to quit using. It's like fate is calling your name. Go for the chick.

Good luck.

Don't tell her, just don't do it again. It'll be harder on her if you tell her, it'll probably screw whatever you have up and then the whole thing was pointless, so just promise to yourself that you won't do it again and stick to it.