Apologies, large post, This is something that I'd like to just get out of my system and tell somebody but I'd really appreciate it if somebody could at least offer some opinion.
Last year at a couple months before Christmas, I meet a girl in a local club I went to regularly, it was on the dance floor, we kissed closed then number closed. We begin to text each other the next day and we meet up every other weekend in the same club if we were both out, we also meet during the week a few times, going for a drive and went to the pictures once. However she is 3 and a half years older than me, which shouldn't and doesn't really matter but girls don't normally go for the younger guy but I guess she gave me a chance. I'd of loved to taken her home one night but with me staying with family it was difficult, however she did offer one night to go her sisters to stay, I never went and I do kick myself and regret it, I thought we had potential and I didn't want to rush things but in other words I chickened out. Getting told 'goodnight gorgeous' and that really made you sleep well with comfort, at last I thought to myself that I' had found somebody decent, she was average looking but has a wicked personality, funny and down to earth.
At the start of January I went on holiday for two weeks to America, the weekend I came back I went out in town to the club, as I was walking around I walked past her with friends, she seen me first and grabbed it, seemed happy to see me and I was happy to see her, we cuddled, talked briefly and kissed, I was on the way to the toilet to begin with so said "I need to go to the toilet right now, I'll be back soon, I'll find you to hang out"..something along those lines. later on not that long after I found her by herself texting on her phone, I went over but she wasn't very talkative, wouldn't look at me, didn't seem herself and was very off putting. Almost like she didn't know me. I hadn't done anything wrong for it to be my fault but something had to be wrong, I asked had she replied with 'nothing', she was trying to contact her brother or trying to get a life home I can't remember now, she said 'Bye' In a weird tone, I was confused I just walked away and went back to my friends to let her be. I tried again later when she was on the Dance Floor to try and talk at least but she wouldn't look at me. A girl approached me and asked if I was '***' and then asked if I had a nice holiday, even more confused, I asked who she was and she was a friend of the girl. Quite weird as I had never meet her before, she knew my name and knew I was on holiday. (The girl most of been talking about me.) She then said 'don't worry' .. Worry, About what I was thinking, she must of been talking about why the girl wouldn't talk to me.. I spoke very briefly to the friend, wished her goodnight and left the Club. The next day I had enough and wasn't for playing games, I didn't Contact her, If she had anything to say or wanted me she'd contact me, to my surprise she didn't, days had gone past and I couldn't stop thinking about it, after a week or two, still nothing and I wasn't contacting or chasing her. That may of been the wrong idea, maybe both of us were sitting waiting on each other but I gave up and just forgot about it, I stopped going to the club so regularly and at that me and friends had changed scene and was going elsewhere for a change.
6 months later in the summer, I got a text from her, saying 'Hello Stranger'. I replied of course and she followed up saying that she hasn't seen me out. (Either been looking for me, missing me or thinking about me?) .. Anyways well we've been texting again ever since, just friendly keeping in touch and not as often. Nothing has been mentioned about 'that' night however I have forgot about it but wish things could get back to the way they were or even further.
Last month on a week day I was out with friends, I was already texting her just chatting seeing what she was up to, I said 'I may be staying out with friends even though I'm up early'.. she was at her work but had just finished, said she was having an early night but would like to go out. I didn't reply, was just busy chatting with friends and forgot, soon later I got another message saying "Guess I'm going out". Me and friends were in the club having a laugh and drink, I was tired and said cheerio to them, as I got outside around the corner I got a text from her saying 'I was to come back in, she was just about to come talk to me'.. I went back in to y friends and she approached me with a friend, this was the first time we had meet again since 'that' night.. She had got even hotter and looked very nice, even though that night had been forgotten about I still kept a little distance, my friends had moved on so we spoke for a little while, I would of loved to of stayed and had a drink but I was really tired and up early, she was needing a refill drink so I thought it was time to say Bye, I gave her a cuddle and said it was nice seeing her again. However throughout the conversation I managed to challenge for her, asking 'So, What made you come out?' etc which left her pausing and thinking what to say. After I had left she texted saying I was a light weight etc for leaving but she was only having a laugh.
The other day before Christmas we were chatting and I told her she wasn't as daft as she looked, sarcasm of course and she took it as a laugh, I then told her I'd make it up to her by making her breakfast in bed even better breakfast in my bed! ...She said that sounds good to her and what would I make her etc!
The other night I was out clubbing, while putting my jacket in, she was in the line as well, two in front of me but I didn't notice her, as she turned after putting her jacket in she seen me and said something and pinched my cheek, think she said something about my hair, because the last time we meet it was a messy and she kept saying get it cut etc having a laugh! However she didn't hang about and walked away, all I could to do was Smile. She would normally come over if she seen me but last night I was pretty social and had meet loads of people I know, male and female. Later she was walking past, not sure if she noticed me or not but I shouted and put my hand out, made a signal to come here, she grabbed my hand and I pulled her in, while still holding her hand, put my other arm around to cuddle and kiss on the cheek while saying hello. She wasn't really that talkative, I had to make the conversations, she never asked me anything actually, her friend was with her and itching to go so I wished her a Merry Christmas and she gave me another cheek kiss and cuddle.
I've went from 'gorgeous' to 'wee pal' in the text messages, I don't know what to do, I' like her and I'm not too sure that she's still interested in me, She shows IOI's but it won't go anywhere between us unless I turn the heat up and make it happen. She will reply to texts but she doesn't text me as often or as much anymore. I'd like to get on a new track with her and maybe start something such as a relationship or even back to before where we were seeing each other often at least. However I'm not sure what to do, maybe it's probably just best that I forget about it all and move on.
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