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Afraid that they won't accept the new and real me
Any insight into why that would happen? Don't pretend to be someone you are not - whether that assumed identity is more or less attractive in your opinion.
If your friends cannot accept the fact that you are growing and becoming a better person, you may need to make some new friends who will motivate you. But that's just my opinion.
Be whoever you want to be - that is the attractive man. But if you're just pretending, you will at some point come off as fake.