After a few years of studying pickup and making great strides in becoming a better man, I'm realizing that I genuinely love my one-itis and want to pursue a relationship with her. The problem: I currently go to a college 2000 miles away.

We started dating when we were both really young and were each other's first real loves. We dated for about a year until I started pulling some real AFC moves that have plaqued every adolescent male in our journeys toward maturity. The breakup hit me especially hard as I have never had many solid male influences in my life and couldn't understand why she dumped me when I thought we were so deeply in love. Nevertheless, I discovers the pick up community which led to my education in self improvement and becoming a better man.

Since we broke up miss one-itis and I have been on solid terms and have even hooked up intermittently. We ways have fun when we see each other and I still vibe better with her than anyone I've met since we stopped seeing each other. Alas, I entered college this summer at a university 2000 miles away from home and had pretty much given up any prospects of a future relationship with my old flame. But she texted me almost weekly and was anxious to see me when I came back for Christmas break. We've hung out twice since I've been back and it has been amazing. The feeling I get when I'm with her makes the hook ups I had this semester feel like doctors appointments. She's expressed her interest in me and shares all of the same feelings I have but is really sad that I have to go back to school in 3 weeks.

She will be going to school close to our home so there is no way for us to be together without being in a long distance relationship for the next four years. I told her that I was willing to have one and let her take some time to think about it. I will be okay if she doesn't want to pursue it because I know how difficult it would be, more for her than me. I've just come to the realization that I still love her and could honestly see myself spending the rest of my life with her.

Keep in mind that I have learned from a lot of my mistakes and am not in a position where I can't afford to lose her. I genuinely feel like she has a greater interest in me although I know this stems from me moving so far away which makes me something she can't have. But idk, I just really feel strongly about this girl and would like to keep her in my life.

Should I be noble and accept that maybe it was never really meant for us to work out or should I fight for something that might cause a good deal of pain? I feel like she is going to tell me she doesn't want a long distance relationship right now but I know that she will still be mad for me over these next three weeks. I'm kind of at a loss for what to do. Any help is appreciated.

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