Hi there,
Just wanted to know people thoughts on my situation,
I am 19yo I have been with a gorgeous 21yo 8/10 Russian girl for 2 years, she is extremely committed to me, great fun and we have amazing sex . I have grown up always wanting to be master pua and as soon as I was getting reasonably good I ended up getting in a long term relationship. I love the psychology of attracting a woman and still have a strong passion for it.
For those wondering I look much older then I am and began picking up at 16yo.

Whenever I went out to meet new women whilst in my relationship (with the intention of simply attracting a woman getting her number and throwing it out) I have never been the same, the fact that I would hold in the back of my mind that closing the deal on the woman is not an option, or even excessive kino escalation can be close to cheating I lost my way and became a noob. Now I don't even go out and haven't opened a set on over a year.The fact that my girlfriend hates anything to do with picking up (as she has crossed paths with multiple women I have previously attracted) doesn't help either.

Considering i am still so young It has crossed my mind to end the relationship to pursue my passion and enjoy new experiences, however I do not want to live with the regret of leaving behind a relationship that really is incredible.

Would love to know your thoughts on this one guys,
Is there a way I can have both and smash through the thought in the back of my mind so I can be clinical without cheating?
Or is the only way out to end the relationship?

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