Let me start by saying i do have oneitis so fuck you if you think that's a bad thing. There's this girl and she's perfect but i'm emotionally involved. I friend zoned myself years ago. I like her alot and it's hard to read her because i like her so much. If it was any other girl i would have kissed her last night but i care about her and some things she said made me doubt myself.
What would classify an ioi as (in my situation)?
Last night she smoked me out and we did a bunch of drugs. We hung out for a total of about 10 hours yesterday...
Not sure where to start, i came over to her pad and she was all dressed up and beautiful. She was wearing a strapless, short dress. ioi?
When she started getting bitchy i suggested we should go out and have fun after we smoked weed. I suggested we go mini golfing or bowling. She didn't have any money but i wanted to pay anyways. After that the bitchyness stopped.
She set the mood and we went to a park, threw down a blanket or 2 and sat down like it was a picnic while the sun went down. During most of this time she had her legs spread and i could see her sexy fucking panties (ioi? - was this on purpose? was it a test of our friendship or her trying to turn me on?)
While we were at the park she kept doing her makeup while i rolled blunts and trimmed her weed. I think it's worth mentioning that it took her over an hour to finish her make-up and she later decided she didn't wanna go out and she just wanted to hang out. (ioi? was the make-up just to make me think she's beautiful? was it just a shit test to see if i'd wait around while she did it?)
We went back to her pad and ate and watched tv. She kept nudging me and trying to get closer. I didnt nudge her back much. I tryed giving her a massage and she didnt want it (i had to return the touching somehow i guess). She kept on doing makeup while we watched tv, her kept kept on fall, at some point i saw her nipple and didnt say anything. She kept spreading her legs and i pretty much memorized the pattern of her panties, i memorized how she had shaved between her legs and there was 1 little hair sprouting out and i still remember it clearly... ugh she turns me on and i think i may be falling for her - enough said lol.
She kept doing her make-up even after we'd gotten back and she'd decided that she didn't wanna go (ioi?)
I decided to use a little bit of game here just for fun( i do this sort of thing often). At some point while she was doing her make-up at the house we got to drawing and i asked her if she'd let me draw on her leg. I drew on her while i sorta carressed her leg and she let me. The idea of my game trick is you climb the escalation ladder (u can doodle on her hand if you want) while you also set an anchor. I'm sure she's looking at it today, thinking of me
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She went and fetched chocolate cake with 1 fork and asked if i wanted some. I took the invite. I took a bite or 2 and told her i wasn't hungry. She proceeded to make out with the fork and then force feed me small bites of frosting. To be honest she was feeding me more of her saliva than cake. (ioi?)
We shared alot of laughs and we were pretty faded but i was already getting mad at myself for not kissing her. Beating myself up, it made it hard for me to enjoy the moment with her. (unrelated but relevant) There was a few times that she tempted me to just use some kiss routine that i had made up with another girl. It's not a routine really but um: girl says something hurts, the first time i used it this girl had something in her eye and and then i would say: let me make that feel better and kiss her and then ask, does that feel better? Anyways she kept complaining about getting something in her eye, i really should have used it and kissed her! fuck me and my life.
We went and smoked the blunts and i bought cigarettes and candy, i read some poetry she'd written and we just talked about nothing and i'm pretty sure that was a turn on for her. I dont remember most of the rest of the night. I know i didnt get home til about 3am and she didnt wanna go home with me and stay the night. I know i'm still missing some things she did but i'll come back and add them in later. Anyways are these ioi's. Is she into me. Thinking about last night sorta has me depressed. This always happens when i get close to female friends. I start developing feelings for her or vise versa and then i get emotionally involved and become too much of a coward to make a move and cross the boundary between just friends and more than that... I'm such a pussy...
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