it looks like you are suffering from some psihological conditions.
My bet is on bipolar.It's the thing when somethimes you feel very energetic and full of life,have alot of ideas an feel good abotu yourself,and the times when you are depressed,lost and don't see the meaning of everything in this world.

Your lack of social normes could be anomie.It's quite a complex thing but i'l to put it simple.
You where told by your mother what to do,you where told by society what to do,religion,father,friends,school and so on.Know whit your superior inteligence and experience you see how the world really works,and you fee lost,you don't know what to do with your life,because you understand that in the long run,everything is meaningless!

Been going out again, this time with friends, as opposed to myself.

...It was good times. No women approaching, but I was there, and having fun, while my friends had fun. One guy was talking and going up to girls, but he's an asshole (and my best friend). He doesn't give a rats ass about anyone's well being. He's usually the one I frame as the type of guy who gets women.

My friend = Guy who would stab a guy for profit, yet has no problem approaching women. A genuine piece of shit, yet leans to me for support. Manipulative, and freeloading.

The other guys were strong types, but they rode with the moment. Most times they didn't even bother with girls, but they were chill, and pretty nice. They were also tough types; mess with them and they'll demolish you instantly.

...I can't talk to women. I see them, and I stay away. I view them as unfriendly vicious sluts. Yet, one girl even shook my hand, and smiled at me while introducing herself. I was reciprocative, yet...I dont know.

I have a really negative perception of women. I feel that they're a victim to their own emotions, and that it is impossible for any woman to be faithful to a man without being emotionally influenced by some other dude.




I can't seem to give women a chance, and get to know them intimately. I feel if I approach them, they would shoot me down, and make fun of me. Forget the guys; it's the women I perceive as vicious little sluts, and I can't accept that.

I don't want one-night stands. God knows what dicks that girl's been sucking or fucking on. I want to be able to find a good, decent girl, but then, that slut factor kicks in.

I guess I'm scared. I'm scared if I do start seeing a girl, she'll cheat on me with another guy within days of meeting me.


I view myself as a good person, and everyone else is a morally bankrupt degenerate. I have a hard time believing otherwise, even IF the person turns out to be a cool person.

...I sound like an AFC, but I just feel it's hard for me to take that step. It would mean me turning into a cruel piece of shit just like everyone else. I pride myself on my kindness, and I believe no one has the heart I do for people. Why waste my time?

I've watched you post here off and on, but really just repeating the same things over and over. You have been given sound advice, what do you feel you have to gain by continuing to indulge in these public ruminations on your struggles? I'll tell you what you're not doing when you're writing these types of posts, getting the help you need. It's not my intention to denigrate you by saying this, I'm giving you my honest opinion, the problems you face will not be solved by discussion and reflection within this or other communities alone.

In fact, by obsessing about these issues rather than seeking their resolution through proper help, you're fortifying their position in your mind, making them a larger and larger part of your reality.
You don't sound like an AFC at all, sure some frustrated guys can harbor misogynistic views but your posts indicate that you are unable to form any meaningful human relationships, sexual or otherwise. Your train of though is littered with cognitive dissonance, and as someone who has himself tried to hold contradictory ideas (in your case: women are worth pursuing, and simultaneously 'vicious little sluts') I have sympathy for you man, it certainly caused me a lot of stress to grapple with entrenched opposite beliefs everyday.

Seek professional help, it really does make a difference.

Good luck man,

Rune

At least you say what you feel.
It makes me die how so many people on here are so quick to brand you a angry young man who needs help etc.

I find your thoughts quite refreshing.
Your fact based experiances are most enjoyable.
I don't think you are mad or in need of help.

Remember life is quite strange for everybody nowerdays.

My Father said to me some time ago.

Son "I grew up in a world where things were tough and everybody had nothing.

I said Dad You grew up in a hard world.
I have grown up in a sick one.

Also i don't think you are alone on here, with your thoughts etc.

Therapy. Total bollocks.

Believe me years from now you will just wake up one day and say FUCK IT.
PUA Its all a load of pony.......!

Its normal when you are young to want to change the world.
Be judge mental etc.
Actually give a shit about things.
You are wearing yourself out on your own sense of moral highground.

When you are older that changes.

You are more likely to say fuck it.
Let them get on with it.

Furthermore.

It seems you don't think highly of your fellow human beings.

I always think of Ripleys statement in the film ALIENS.

"Burke, i don't know what species is worse,you don't see them fucking each other over for a GOD DAMN PERCENTAGE.

LOL

_________________
Its getting Hot out there.

Its all to easy.

I want to be a tree!

If you want a girl who will not cheat on you,and will be nice to you it's not hard to find one.Just look out for the girls who are religious,or where mindfucked by society to be super nice.Just like an AFC.
Of course there is a price for this,maybe you will have to sacrifice a goat for Cthulhu but those girls will be different.Chances are they wont cheat on you,and if you "educate" them,they will be really understandind and nice people,the normal PUA dinamycs don't work with these girls.
Choose this only if you are ready to pay the price.

PHEW.

1)Apologies for the negativity.
2)I'm not the problem.


...It was my (former) best friend.

He was the one who's made my life miserable, stole the girls I would talk to, and pull all kinds of sneaky bullshit to win ahead (or, he's the person I described in previous posts).

I started hanging out with guys much more "alpha" (I don't like that word) than he was, and those guys were NICE, and COOL, and NOT NEGATIVE. I fit in like a glove, and these guys pull girls like no one's business.

My former best friend was with us...he tried to be slick. He almost (or I think he did) gave the guy who got us into the club for free a bad name.


It was my ONE (FORMER) FRIEND who I got angry about, not my own inadequacies. I framed everyone elses attitude...on HIS...because prior to me breaking out of my shell, he was the only person who would latch onto me and abuse for his own self-esteem boost, and I wasn't even aware.


...I still haven't made any attempts to game girls (I still think they're all sluts), but "AMOG" wise, there are some pretty nice "assholes" (good guys) out there, and all they have is self-confidence.





Now to narrow my issue with women primarily...

I have no confidence in my ability to keep them. I feel that...man, I don't even know the first thing about a woman. I just think they're all sluts, even ones in relationships.

I guess, women, to me, are sluts by nature.


I would really love to change my viewpoint on this. I'd love to see that women can actually be...GASP...faithful to a man they meet. I'd love to meet a woman who isn't a feminist/whiny princess bitch.



50% of the battle is done. I have accepted myself, and other guys at face value. Now women.

...After all these "field outings", even with guys who get girls, I still can't understand how they do it. I noticed all of them aren't scared of anything, and unlike me, they'll walk with confidence, swagger, and assuredness that they'll get the girl.



I can't get it man. I have no confidence in getting women. I think women make fun of me for trying to approach them. After all, all women do is talk talk talk blah blah blah...



Yeah, I'm not good with women. Never was.

My mom is also very overprotective, annoying, and treats me like a kid. I tell her to fuck off (literally, get away from me), and she still persists.


Improvement, but still bumps.