Maybe my english isn´t good enough,and i cant explain what i´m thinking,i totally agree in what Chief said.

Allow me to reframe the origional phrasing. Disillusionment can be a very positive thing. The removal of the sociatial lie might not feel good initially, but it gives you an insight into how things really are. You're learning how people really act, as opposed to how you'd like them to act. This is a powerful process, and not always fun.

People are sexual beings. Fact. This part of our make up does not switch off when we are not in the company of our chosen companion. We know that about our selves, but when we think of others, often we prefer a lie to the truth. That said, there are people who pair bond pretty hard and are more naturally exclusive, making it less likely they'd ever "cheat". These people usually have a good sense of self and a strong self esteem.

Take time to understand - really understand - your own drives and desires, both conscious and subconscious. Then realize that all people have similar wants/needs. Most folks are not in touch with themselves in that way. They are the ones who struggle with their own behavior. When you know yourself, always refer to my sig.

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Indulgence not compulsion.

This is some eye-opening shit. Props to you, my friend.