Hi guys.

I'm fighter, and I mainly registered on this forum to keep this journal. I got inspired by AFC Daniel(keep up good work:))

About me.

18 years old. International student in U.S. college. Sophomore. I'm lived first 17 years of my life in my home-country with my parents. my home-country is Muslim-majority country so no wonder I had no gf there. (all my friends that I know off lost their virginities with prostitutes-not my thing)

First learned about PU when was 16, went out made 1 approach during day time, got completely ignored, shut down, blaming myself for about 2 years.

Then In August(about 1 month after I turned 18), I decided to get into this game, because I started getting worried by the fact that I had 0 dates, 0 kisses, 0 gfs o everything. Started gaming, got my first couple kisses, bunch of numbers(bunch of flaky ones) about 5 dates and 2 oneitis which completely destroyed me. Still a virgin.

So here I am, recovering from them and to force my lazy ass to go and do approaches I decided to keep a journal.

I don't get an AA (some excitement which I simply ignore), get numbers easily, but often get flakes(I'm working on my phone and text game)

Anyways...

Since I'm under 21 in US, I am forced to concentrate on daygame.

So considering that I've started in the beginning of August, I've been around...for about 8.5 months.

I've read a lot of posts here, and a lot of different material

here are some of programs I went trough(carefully)

Venusian arts,
Blueprint Decoded,
Way of the natural

List of programs I've skimmed through or I'm in process of reading:

Magic Bullets
David Shade Give her screaming orgasms
Love systems, phone game manual
Zen of Meeting women
Gunwitch method.

+ bunch of newsletters, videos, blogs, articles etc.

The method that mostly charazterizes my style is probably Tyler Durden's "Blueprint Decoded"

The type of girl that I want(qualities in no particular order):

1)Cute
2)Intelligent(so that can kick the shit out of me in argument, but chooses to have a genuine conversation instead of trying to satisfy her ego)
3) Good taste
4) Fun
5)Good energy...

But all these don't really matter. AT ALL!

What really matters for me is:

...I don't how to name this quality-not sabotage her own happiness? IDK. I can only see for myself.

I think it was one of kasabi's posts where he said that successful relationship is the one where when your partner puts a lot of effort into your relationship, you're trying to do more for each other, and this type of healthy competition lol. I want a girl who can live like that. Simply, without all the superficial BS.

Since I'm in US, its really easy for me to get a girl from my country, just because I've been educated abroad and have a good family. I don't want a girl who thinks about man's money. I guess I want a girl who can see the true essence of things.

What I want from PU

1) Be generally good with women
2) Not miss the next time I come across the type of girl I'd like to be in relationship with.

I'm not here to become a MPUA or sleep with a lot of girls. That's not my goal. I just want to learn how to attract my woman, and how to keep her happy.

I'm perfectly aware that to be good with one woman you have to be good with all women. So I'm here. I'd love to hear your comments and corrections. Hope for your support. Thanks in advance.

P.S. I chose this nick name "Fighter-for real" because my real name's meaning is fighter or warrior call it whatever you want.

You are young, you have no AA, I guess you have a foreigner vibe... you are going to hit the stars

Thanks Znak!

Before I go to description of my Day 1,I would like to write couple of things, to prevent further misunderstandings.

Instead of HB, I'll use M(for miss) and I'll give girls some names, without numbers(using numbers to describe girls isn't my thing)

During the last few months my PU activity went down...I still did some approaches, but far less frequently. I missed a lot of opportunities. Hopefully this will add some motivation for me.

Anyways, here we go:

Day 1

I woke up early today and moved my bag out of my hotel, and went to the bus stop to take a bus to my dorm. It was raining. I was alone without umbrella and then I saw one Asian girl approaching. She asked if this was the right bus stop and invited to come under her umbrella. I started convo. Later we found out, that busses were not going today untill later, so we decided to walk back. Had a nice conversation and I got her number. She was Japanese,(but fortunately everybody from her family and friends was ok) so let's call her M.Lucky. She told me to add her on fb, which I did couple hours later. I texted her my name and asked her last name to add her on fb. She responded immediately, I sent another message a bit later(10-15 min) where I said that her last name is actually a male first name in russia and added a smile. No response.

So later I went to the foodcourt in my dorm to get some food, and saw a girl sitting on one of the tables.

I joined her table, had a nice conversation, while we ate, got her number, she told me that I should add her on fb(after giving the number) Couple hours later I sent her my first and last name, and immediately she added me on fb. I found out that she was half Indian(but she looked just like a typical Midwest girl and that really surprised me) so let's call her M. Surprise.

Then I did laundry, went to get a haircut, but when I entered, the door was open, but it was completely empty inside. Windows were pretty small and there were blinders on them, so it was quite dark in the room(how do they cut peoples' hair in this darkness?)That was creepy. I went back to my dorm without getting a haircut. .

Later tonight, I went to gym. After working out for a while, I saw a cute girl in the gym. I couldn't find anything to say, but went anyways. I just pointed her out a minor mistake that she did in the exercise. Tried to do it without looking like a smartass, with a smile. Said what's wrong and went back. I have no idea how to take this further into conversation. I'd love to know what could I have done here. Now I'm really tired.

Haven't been to the gym in a while. I'll go take a shower and then get some sleep. I got an early class tomorrow.

Meanwhile I'm on fb now, looking at my one-etis' potos...I still like her. I haven't talked to her in a while, so I'll send her some original/funny message in couple of days, we'll see if I can take it anywhere....

Day 2

Not the best day.

Ok here we go.

I woke up early in the morning, had my breakfast and went to class, then I see this girl from my class come in. Class is starting, she's on the other side of the room. I've seen her before, but always found a reason not to approach. This time my reason was because class started already, no point in standing up and going all the way there. Luckily, I had to go to the rest-room, so I got out of the room anyways. When I came back, I decided not to let chance slip and sat by her side. We talked a bit. I didnt nclose since I usually tap into common interests, but I couldn't find any. It wasn't untill after I was outside, I remembered that I could've just went wwith something like, "Hey you seem pretty cool, we should hang out sometime. Here, write down your number." she also mentioned she liked shopping, so I could've suggested that. I'll see her in Wednesday anyways. BTW since her name sounds similar to "princes" We'll call her M.Princess.

Later today I was in the library and saw one girl I knew (she is kind of a player) talked for a bit. I'll call her tomorrow, see if I can get a date.

Then I started calling girls, I met yesterday.

me and M.Lucky:

Me:Hey wassup?
Her:(she doesn't recognize the number) Who is it?
Me: Its (my name) remember yesterday at bus stop(yes-this was moment of chodeness)
Her: Oh yeah, I didn't recognize the number!
Me: What are you doing day after tomorrow?
Her: Day aafter tomorrow is-
Me:Wednesday
Her I got classes till 9 p.m.
Me: What about Thursday?
Her: I got classes till 8p.m. and then I'll go get a dinner.
Me: cool, we should go and grab a dinner dogether on thursday
Her: Oh, (probably trying to think of an excuse) Then, I'll look at my schedule, because I might have things to do bla,bla,bla. I'll text u wether I have time or not
Me ok. Have fun
Her: You too.

Now I'd like to point out that I usually don't have problem getting the number, but these numbers are flaky very often. That's a sticking point for me. Any advise would be greatly appreciated

Then I called M.Surprise, but got a voicemail. Will text her tmrw.

One problem I had today was when I was in the library. I could see pretty girls on computers, but there are usually no places to sit by, and even if you do they're usually busy doing homework+often have headphones.

How can I approach in this situation? I usually spend a lot of time in the library, and there are often plenty of pretty girls there, so an advise on this one would be very useful for me.

If there's no place to sit by just stand next to her
Tape on her shoulder so she takes her headphone off.
You "Man, I am sooo bored with maths (or whatever)"
You "It's kind of weird in the US people don't speak to unknown people, back home blablabla here it's more like X and I liked Y at home but it's more Z etc...)

Opening is EASY, they'll open with anything. You seem to have good conversational skills so follow your instinct.

Regarding flaky numbers, it seems to be a number game anyway and I don't have the skills and knowledge to help you there. Maybe they are not attracted enough?

Day 3

today I had plenty of homework to do, so I went to me classes, then to the library.

When in the library I saw

1) the girl from the gym (the one I just approached, said how to do the exercise correctly, but couldn't think of a way to take it further)
2) the girl I saw yesterday in the library and couldn't approach. I couldn't do it today either.

It feels really awkward, My library: Large open space with bunch of computers arranged in random lines. Girls usually sit in groups. Usually in headphones. Coming up and standing in the middle of the library(and I'm not even talking about quiet ares) is really difficult for me to do. I have approached girls in this setting before, but I usually sat down on the nearby computer, and usually started talking with something observational and took the conversation further. hmm...I guess this might be form of an advanced AA, and I'll need to get out of my comfort zone and try a different way of approaching since I spend a lot of time in the library and its actually a target-rich environment.

I was on fb and saw M.Lucky online

here is how the convo went:
(as far as I remember)

Me:I'll meet you at 8:30 on Thursday. link(with location) at (name of the restaurant)
Her: Hi. Thanks for the link. I don't think I can go with you on Thursday. The thing is that I have a boyfriend and he is not happy about me going with you for a dinner!
Me: he can come too) but he'll have to pay)
Her: hahaha. I'll ask

(about 15-20 min later)

Her: ok
Me: (i didn't know how to ask whether she's gonna come alone or bring a guy so the only thing I could think of was)- Shall I depend on your bf paying for me, or bring my own money?
Her: Bring your own money! lol
Me: ok

here is some additional info. When I just added her on fb-she had no relationship status. Now after she said she had a bf, I was like "Yeah right" went on her page and she had"In a relationship" status. History of changing the relationship status was deleted) Now I don't even know if she's gonna bring some dude along or not(because if she is, I can bring a girl along-DHV)

Also...there is one girl...I had one-itis for. She is average-looking, but with great personality, and we had tonn of common interests. I had 2 dates with her few months ago. That was amazing. Everything was going perfect, till I fucked up a little, with K-close...and fucked up some more after it. At first she ignored my messages and calls. then after couple months I texted her, she replied, we had some conversation. Then replies got a bit weaker. I haven't talked to her in couple weeks, so I sent her message I learnt from "Alex"(the guy on Mystery's show-2nd season)

here goes the message:

"The weirdest thing just happened...I got this knock on the door @12 o'clock last nigh, this girl, who looks exactly like you, but she spoke thai...she made a mistake, she was delivering thai food. I didn't know you can speak thai..."

That was it for today.

Goal for tomorrow:

I have class with M.Princess, although she might end up sitting with her friend right in between two other people(she's usually a bit late to class and has 0 sitting pattern) Well, if she doesn't I'll try to n-close her. may be try to set up a date right there. We'll see how it goes.

I supposed you were in a public library.

If you are in your school library, then you should be more careful because being obviously rejected will harm your reputation. Except if you hang out with the cool kids and they already know you like to pick up girls... then it's game over, you'll have the reputation and skills.

now that's the way to motivate a person to do more approaches lol.

Day 4

lol today was like my anti-PU day.

M.Princess

I'm in class. See M.Princess, we talk a bit, then her friend joins us.

I talked for a bit in beetween pauses in lecture, then I'm like, "Hey you seem pretty cool, we should go hang out some time."=she smiles, now I already took out the cell phone and saying, : "Give..."-lecturer started some new topic, and she starts writing, while butting me in the middle of the sentence...

When I'm trrying to squeeze in this "write down your number part" but it just doesn't fit in any context. Now lecture is over, I'm like, "ok, now is the time" Go like " Write..." and her friend simultaneously feels urgent verbal diarrhea and unstoppable need to explain her how to solve this problem(remember lecture is over) They keep sitting there(she usually leaves very late idk maybe she got class in the same classroom or smth), people are leaving...her friend doesn't stop talking...I stand up go and throw "Have fun" They both go like, "see you" and this was it....what a wack beginning of the day...

Later I went to practice playing on my saxophone...I got the message from some dude who was saying that a girl(i know she likes me but she isn't my type) gave him my number. Basically invited me to some event they're both part of(she tried to ask me out couple times before). but i had a break-dance practice at that time anyways...

Then I'm in the next class...there is one girl, I just noticed that she is taking 2 classes with me. Very hot. The hottest I've seen in both of these classes(each had like 100 people in it) already thought of opening...and what do you think I see by the end of the class? Another girl, who is way prettier...since I'd rather trust seeing her closer to actually make sure (she was all the way across the room and room was pretty big). So I go outside, (there are 2 exits) stand there to see, if there is really such a beauty in my class...she disappeared...lol

Anyways, I'm in the library now...I notice one Indonesian girl (so damn hot)-I know her. Here is the short version of how I met her:

I was in Starbucks...saw her and a guy sitting on the table, opened them, turned out he was her bf, made friends with bf, had a fun convo, got the number and left.

Thenwhat I did is wasted couple hours of my life doing nothing on the Internet, and then got pretty tired, went to another building(with nice leather couches) simultaneously analyzing my current situation...

M.Surprise, was good looking, had great breasts, but seemed kinda low-esteem/ boring, a loner if you wish.

M. Princess, was very hot (I got hard simply when she got in the class-lol) Great taste when it comes to clothes. But I really couldn't see anything except for a pretty package. (I'll still give her a chance to change my opinion.)

M.Lucky(the one I have a date with tomorrow) is a really nice girl...and there isn't really anything bad about her. But there isn't anything special about her either...

These thoughts were depressing...I remembered my last one-itis...had a temptation to ask her out...then I remembered my previous one-itis and the way, I fucked things up with her...I've read this thread by kasabi about inner book recomendation...they talk about book there and in one part of it it talks about sending a letter/(or calling) people you have something to ask forgiveness for...this really reminded me about that...fuck.

Couple KJs in PUA lounge keep playing their mind-control games and try to piss me off...lol, I've become way more patient and calm not so long ago. Their BS provocations are nothing more than an effect of a delusional mind, rejecting the reality. Because reality hurts. They're KJs. And they get pissed at people for reminding them about that...anyways this is my journal and its gonna be about me.

So far I really don't know what to do... last I had 60-70 n-closes, God knows how many "friendly" dates, to find at least a girl who'll be a "relationship material". I found 3 possible candidates, but they all had bfs...(checked and confirmed)

For now...I have no clue what to do. I hope M.Lucky amazes me with some quality tomorrow.(wise, educated, good taste, optimism-any of these qualities strongly expressed in a woman is a turn on for me)

Plans on nearest future:

I'll probably do couple approaches in food court/bus/bus stop...probably check out that book on inner game.

Its so damn hard to find a "high quality girl." I don't want to settle for anything less than that though...

Quick update:

My cell phone was off for a few hours and I just turned it on and guess what? A message from

M.Lucky: "Hi sorry! I don't think I can make it to dinner tomorrow..."-what a wack way to end a day.

Alright...today is gonna be short.

Day 5

Did nothing PU related. I've got a quiz tmrw. so I was preparing for it. After I got tired(around 1 a.m.) I started playing tetris battle on fb, and just on the game to get to rank 20, I felt someone tapping on my shoulder saying "hi". That was one girl I know(kind of a player) She gets financial benefits, rides and now came to ask me to help her to do her math hmw. I was so unreactive because this tetris game was important and I was owning everybody, but she distracted me and I lost... So, I after I finally looked at her(while playing I was a definition of what you might call ureactive- I was responding, but made it clear that she'll have to wait) Then talked for a bit(I've her number already) said that I was in a bad mood a because girl I was supposed to have a date with called it off.(true) She usually throws away tonn of IOIs often initiates kino, but this is more of playing with a guy by making him feel good around her(some end up paying for her shit). Just ended up on a note that we should hang-out(looking back, I probably should've scheduled a date right away because she seems quite flaky to do it ober the phone, but compliant enough agree if I do it in person+my phone game isn't my strongest part of PU)

That was it for today.