Hi guys

This is the first post in what I'm sure will soon be a long journal full of great anecdotes. I am writing this journal because I believe reflection and feedback will help me improve and I would welcome input from anybody who is reading.

A little background... I am a 28 year old AFC from Edmonton, Alberta, Canada (CHAMP CITY REPRESENT!) About a year ago - big shocker coming here - I picked up a copy of "The Game" and was just fascinated. I started looking girls in the eye and ended up in a relationship that prevented me from actually even starting to go out sarging. I have always had limited success with women, but in 2006 I got married and rapidly divorced after I had an affair. It was the biggest mistake of my entire life and it tore down a promising life I had been building for myself. It also caused me to start hating myself and that ruined whatever good things I was doing with women. Over the next few years I became a total AFC and completely forgot the pride and power I used to carry myself with.

So now here I am. Single and not loving it. I am self employed so there are no women there. My social life has dwindled and I'm not meeting a lot of new people. the game is my only option for improving my situation. I must learn how to interact with strangers and be comfortable.

I want to be the kind of man who could attract and ultimately marry the caliber of woman my ex wife is once again. So I have been reading up on body language and following guys like AFCDaniel and I think it's time to put my toe in the water.

Tonight, my twin brothers best friend was having her 25th birthday and her fiance organized a surprise party for her. I showed up at the dinner early as I wanted to establish some rapport with the group before we went to the bar. My twin was not going to be at the dinner and I'm only casual friends with the people I was partying with, whereas they all know each other for years. When I got there I was the only one there but I do know her fiance as we go to MMA events here in town together and I enjoy his company. We made small talk about the venue and local events until this girl i've nicknamed Wild Thing and her boyfriend show up. I introduce myself to them and we start conversating fairly naturally. I am trying to DHV by mentioning some career success I have had recently as well as telling stories from when I used to own a fast food franchise. Both Wild Thing and her boyfriend seemed really cool and easy to talk with.

More people showed up including some that I am actually closer friends with and this gave me an opportunity to establish some social proof with Wild Thing and also gave me options as far as other people to talk to during the party. An old friend of mine, a total HB9 with gorgeous brunette hair and these awesome eyes who I have always tried hitting on even finger fed me a raspberry and let me suck it off her finger tip. Pretty cool, I love it when she flirts back.

Now at this point the birthday girl shows up with her friend, another extremely hot girl. I really don't know what to rate her. she's gotta be way up there. They are both dressed like hookers (their words not mine.) The friend, who I will call Joey's Girl (Joey's is an "upscale" restaurant here in town that hires HB8+ to work as servers) is wearing a see through shirt, short black skirt and tights with heels. Short red hair in a sexy bob cut. Nice girl, classy, educated, carries herself well.

This hurts to type now that I look back on it.

She plops down next to me at one point. She immediately involves herself in the convo I am having with Wild Thing and her BF (I dont even remember what the hell we were talking about) Now from reading poeticlyskuac's body language thread I remember crossed legs facing towards me is a good sign. She is seated on my side of the booth, legs crossed towards me, eye contact whenever she speaks to me and she even starts applying kino on me.

So you would think that would be looking good. But it didn't even register to me at the time she might be open to my approach. I thought for sure for some reason, i guess deep down, that she is out of my league. She is very hot. I mean I know I can get hot girls, I have before, but still. I shot myself down here guys.

From there we order, eat, and pay. There are now about six of us left in the group who are going dancing. Wild Thing ditches her BF and comes with us. We have Wild Thing, Birthday Girl and her fiance, my buddy who i will call Token, Joey's Girl and Me. Wild Thing by now has started letting me know she is into me. Our conversation went great at the pub and we have become flirty. On the walk over to the club I am THE MAN. I am making everybody laugh and feel great. They are all talking about how much they enjoy me being there. I feel like my old self for a second.

It goes up and down from here. inside the club, Birthday Girl's fiance had a bunch of his boys there. These are good guys but I am an outsider to them and it was hard to break in. Their group is well established and very alpha. I have gone from being the most desirable guy in the set to being just another face and I was intimidated.

Wild Thing has incredible energy and starts getting sexual the second we show up. She hits the dance floor and does some pretty decent grinding with Joey's Girl. I don't go on the dance floor, lord only knows why, but Wild Thing eventually comes over to me anyway, over by our booth, and starts dancing with me, lap dancing, lots of good shit. I am hesitating on taking it further because SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND AND I JUST MET THE DUDE. I feel it would be an international incident in this group if I kiss her so I just sit there and smile a lot.

This escalates over the course of the night. We were grinding fairly often all night and she simulated sucking me off for a laugh as well as asking me to call her bitch and force her up against the window about A MILLION TIMES. sadly however the two single targets at the damn bar were sliding out of my reach. A girl I know from another party who I call Nurse Hottie shows up but there is a guy she made out with at the same party last time here tonight. She is into him first and me second so I basically pay her zero attention. My twin shows up, my ultimate wing. His GF is with him. He starts selling me to the girls and later pulls a slick move for me that gets me a kiss from Nurse Hottie,

She was taking photos of everybody at the party and she goes to get one of her and myself. She gives me a tight hug and puts her face right on mine. Chris goes "I am going to take the most beautiful photo ever taken" and then aims at us but at the last second he flips it and shoots a shot of his own smiling mug. Nurse Hottie eats this up and then she barks he has to take one of us. he tells her she has to kiss me on the cheek for it. She licks my cheek instead. He pretends to take a photo and then says it was terrible. She kisses me this time. he fakes the photo again and gives her the camera. she realizes he never took the pic and asks him to try again. Same pose, finally we have a photo together.

This post is way too long so I'm cutting it off here. My biggest regret is that Joey's Girl ended up kind of attaching to Token, who has zero game and was basically a wallflower the whole night. It makes me realize she was DEFINITELY there for me to take home tonight and I blew it. I think I have a lot going for me in the game but I can't put it all together. I also regret not opening a single stranger tonight, because there were some great opportunities and one that practically begged me to dance with her.

I did get great IOIs from Wild Thing who I am certain I could have fucked were she single and I could have gotten away with it in front of all those witnesses. I had her ass in my face and on my junk for pretty much four hours and she even grabbed a hold of it once before she left. Trouble is I knew she was only flirting for the sake of flirting, her man and her are established for six years. I took that action from her though instead of pursuing an available girl and that for now is my challenge. I am getting a lot of semi-interest from semi-passable girls and I am tired of feeling satisfied by that. I want it on my terms and from the kind of woman I think I belong with.

Thanks for reading this terribly long post. I am a little impaired and I promise the next one will be much shorter and better.