Alright, idk if this is where chief wanted me to post my scare shit journals at, but this is the place i'm putting them for now.

I think today the most relevant fear of my is going to the club. This is the first time that i've ever went out to night game. Never before have I been out to a club. I'm not used to the sexual SPAM. The old me is scared of it, because the old me believes that sex is bad. Religious stuff right?? Anyways, I intend to go out, have fun, and see what the club is all about.

This next one has to deal with my fear of being spotted out for sexual things by my parents. Today my parents caught me buying condoms. It was quite frustrating actually, and caused a sevre lock down. I think things will get better though.

I know it sounds stupid, but i've feared these two things, because i used to closely associate them with my father's fanatical work ethic. He was all work and no play. It seemed as though worked consumed him, when I was younger I was trying to run away from him. Now I am trying to simply understand him. I will from now on adopt this good part of my father, and further my quest for self understanding .

I think you're still misunderstanding this mission.

This is how it's supposed to go:
1. You have a fear of being spotted out for sexual things by your parents
2. Tell your parents that you're going to buy condoms or show your parents a condom and say "Hey look I bought condoms. Aren't you proud that I'm being responsible?"
3. Come back to this journal and write, "I fear being spotted out for sexual things by my parents, so I told them that I was going to go buy condoms. I was so scared that I actually crapped my pants. My parents got distracted by the stench of the shit in my pants and promptly forgot about the condom thing and told me to go wash my ass. This mission is so scary!"

The idea is to intentionally do shit that scares you by actively facing your fears. "I got caught" is not the idea behind this mission.
So, unless the actual act of trying to understand your father is something you feared, you're still doing this wrong.

You are supposed to use this journal to log things that you've actually done that demonstrate you facing your fears.

Though I fucking hate that chief still has this post up here like this, for the first time ever, I am forced to deal with an imperfection in my work. For the first time ever i made a mistake on one of my notes, and I didn't completely trash the paper and throw it out. I"m still not like this.....

So there was this like hb 8 around abunch of ghetto pricks. I decided it was time to release my fear of this bull shit, and approach. I have never approached a woman surrounded by so many men. So I decided to approach her on the bus. The set ended up going horrible, but at least I did. The set was a bust, but it was fun to fuck up .

FUCK YEAH

So i've never approached with a shitty wing ever, until like 3 hours ago. Me and my wing approached a 2set and it went horrible . My wing was trying to be all subtle about the fact he was interested. I tried the new presence thing that warped told me, man I think it made me look kinda intimidating. Oh well :-/. But anyhow, I also figured out that I approached one of my buddy's gf's as well . Today was not a great day indeed .

So today I was the first time ever that I touched a girls boob. I've never done it before, blantantly touched her boob, and she was cool about it. The girl was kinda lose, touched her ear, and she was kinda freaking out about it, saying she couldn't get horny in school, lol. All in all, touched a boob, nothing bad happened .

I was always afraid of touching women sexually, so today I touched this really loose girl's boobs. She's a friend of my friend dro. He's a cool guy, so I was talking and stuff, and she starts talking about her boobs. I then touched her boobs and nothing bad happened .

Never cold approach with another guy at the same time. Wings are supposed to come in later after you've already approached the set in order to assist in isolation.

Isolation logistics is the ONLY reason to use a wing.

Had nothing better to do, so I forced my self for the first time in 3 years to hug my father .

I tried to talk to a milf 2day, went HORRIBLE . I'm starting to realize what chief said about scare limits, man, I'm so ashamed of my self, today, i heard this 17 year old kid say he's fucked 4 times already. I lied and said that I did it once like two weeks ago. How pathetic, I need to own up and be honest. My old me who masks my fears through comedy is coming out. I think I need to reevauluate who I am. I just realized that the person whose been ungaming me the most is me. I won't cry about it, or complain how it hurts, I'll just swallow, be a man about it, and move on. It's time to game harder then I've ever fucking gamed, and have fun, time to break my fucking comfort zone .

Gonna throw out the shit that doesn't work and make new shit, adopt a new behavior, a new style, a new way of life and thinking.

So for the first time I actually tried to seduce a girl with a bf, I stared her in her eyes and shit, she was getting nervous. I was holding her hards and staring into her eyes with a sexual gaze. She was nervous trying to make it back into a social environment instead of a seductive one. I she did return back a lot of kino, so that might be a good sign, have to test some more. I'm not too sure about this whole aggressive kino thing, but i'll continue to use it, tommorrow will be the first chance to use it on a random chick though. This girl is sort of young, and she constantly pokes me. So I kinda have a feeling she is into me, not too worried about that though. Trying out this new shit tommorrow, hope I don't get slapped the fuck out of.