| So, I"m looking at the dates from this FR, to now. And, I have been actively studying "game" for over a year now.
Started in about Sept 2012, made this previous post Nov 2012 w/ my first "lay" report. And am now writing this current post w/ what I've learned since.
This is kind of a culmination of the past year for me. I am getting ready to move next week, and in this past year I feel like I have had a lot of Big Ups, and Big Downs... both in pick up and in life. When I wrote my last post, it was obvious a Big Up for me as far as pick up.
However, that girl (in my previous post) never amounted to anything. Tried to get together w/ her a bit, it went alright, but got kind of flaky. And, I don't think it was my 'game' from the night that we were out. I killed it, I remember I killed it.
However, if you watch a program like "RSD Transformations", you will see that my past year is a natural process to ones path in pick up. I was really hard into "pick up" and outer game. And I honestly knew more a year ago about outer game, then I do now sitting here today. But, I feel like my game and life is in such a better place right now.
You see, I just recently started going out a bunch again w/ my old wingmen and sarging crew (like 2 weeks ago). And my results (while no lays, nor even a Real kiss), have been absolutely amazing.
I took a long time off from pick up because I couldn't sustain women in my life. I had really good nights in the clubs/bars and I even got 4 really solid F-closes. I mean, a 26 y/o bartender, a 21 y/o hairdresser dime piece that I fucked for a week on the regular, a Milf w/ fake tits, and a classy sassie I fucked in her Van outside the bar.
^Oh 5, I forgot about the x-stripper that I worked w/. And yea, I took a job as a waiter and had a lot of sexual energy between me and my coworkers and love triangles. Fun stuff on the weekends, hated the job and quit.
But, even thought I had those successes, I was unhappy and miserable in life. And, I really liked some of the girls I met, but could not keep them in my life. So, I just sorta stopped trying and/or going out. I have had a lot of depression and mental issues, and just wanted to get that stuff figured out before I continued trying to pursue girls. I remember when I was 'dating' the stripper, going over to her house and just sitting on her couch unable to change my state because I was fatigue and depressed.
PRESENT: My old sarging buddy told me he was taking a trip. I invited myself along w/ another sarging buddy, and we had an Awesome Time on the trip. I didn't hook up w/ one single girl. I hadn't read or studied any sarging stuff really, for at least a few months. But during that trip, I saw what Value I brought as a person. We hung w/ my wingmens RL friends (mostly guys), and I made some amazing friendships over the course of one weekend.
I brought fun, I brought stories, and I brought value by just being me. I talked to a bunch of girls, and had a lot of good interactions w/ a couple number closes. But, we just walked around the mall, ran errands, got a costume, went to the bar. Everywhere We went, we had adventures w/ people. We talked to everyone, we brought good energy and laughter. We made a girl literally freeze and pose for us while my buddy and I eye fucked the shit out of her. (You may think this was a bad thing, trust me, it was a very very good thing. She could feel our sexuality for us and how unshameful we were for it. And she literally stopped walking, stopped talking on the phone, and froze and posed for us while her pussy got wet)
Anyway, we brought fun, value, and adventures everywhere we went, and with every person we encountered. We weren't doing pick up, we were just being natural alphas and looking at the world like it was our playground and we owned it instead of the other way around.
I really came into myself that weekend. And on one of the last days, of being in constant social state, I finally understood what it meant to be a man of values. A man of values is not overly emotional, he does not get flustered easily or fall into other people's frames. If some girl is throwing a fit, James Bond just sits there, looks at her inquisitively and stays calm. The beta male tries to make it better, or fights back w/ her. James Bond keeps his own frame and calmness, while at the same time, suttly warning her that this is unacceptable behavior.
Well, some guy was being rude as shit to us at the grocery store while my Natural alpha male buddy was asking him for cups.
Natural Buddy: Asking for cups
Clerk: Being a dick. Grilling him on what the cups for
Natural: lying, being nice
Clerk: Being a dick, grilling
Natural: "Oh, these clear cups won't work"
Clerk: *thinks he has him now* "OH, Well why won't the clear cups work for you guys?!" *in a bit tone, being a complete dickhead
ME: *thinking, ok, you've gone to far, you've tooled my buddy and I too much here* "Because, the cups are for Alcohol" "So, they won't work" *in a breaking rapport, loud, challenging tone*
Everyone was thinking this about the cups, and the dude thought he could be a dick head for no reason. And he kept pushing us. I was fine w/ it, like oh this guys is a dick head whatever. I"m sitting there, and he keeps badgering my buddy. I'm thinking ok....little much bro. He badgers again, and I am not standing for that. So I put him in his place. And, I literally, put him in his place, I challenged him w/ my tone, I challenged him my body language, and I challenged w/ my eye contact and affinity to social pressure because I am used to it. And he backed down, and I won.
Why is this important? It's not really, but it was one of those moments where everything came together for me. I was on vacation, we were going to drink alcohol openly in public, hence what we were getting the cups for. Society and people try to tell you how bad this is... But to me, as an alpha, I am ok w/ it. I don't do this all the time, I was on vacation, we were celebrating and we were having a good time. We weren't drinking out of a place to forget how shitty our lives were, No. We were drinking out of a place to celebrate good times and good company.
I went over this in my head, and I found everything to be perfectly acceptable to me. Society tried to challenge me, and I remained calm and in control. Society or said person pushed our boundaries after receiving warning signs, and I stood up for my friends and myself. As an alpha, there are lines of values that people should never cross w/ you. It's the same w/ females, if they can push you around and take advantage of you, they will and they won't respect you. If they test you, and you stay congruent, they will know you are a man of value and that behavior is unacceptable around you. And they will respect and be attracted to you for it.
So, there is Lines/Values.
There is also Congruencey. When I came back from that trip, I watched a speech given by Zan Perrion on what it means to be a real Man.
His main point was: It is ok to love women. And men who love women, are loved by women. Society has supressed our innate sexualness of being a man and drawn to female. They try to make us like the betas on TV commercials and in our shows that get walked all over by females, and are always asking for permission from them. I will try not to rant here, but the big point I came across was Congruency.
Congruency- I was congruent when I stood up for my drinking, because it was acceptable in my eyes, period. I had almost fully internalized that "I like women, and it's ok". After I watched Zan Perrion's speech, I have fully internalized that. And I apologize no more for that fact. What has it allowed me to do in the past week since I have been back from the trip:
IN ONE WEEK:
-I picked up a girl in front of her parents at the bar. Told the Dad that I thought her daughter was beautiful, and disarmed both the mom and Dad w/ my congruency to this fact and not being awkward about it. She was biting my neck, she was the most lovely red head ever. However, I did think it would be rude to openly sloppy make out w/ her in front of her parents, so I stood to my values and didn't do that. I could have though, easily. But, it was about being respectful, and I want to be a tasteful, respectful person.
-I asked a girl for her number after a great interaction. She turned out to be a 17yr old in hs, she thought it was awkward, and I didn't fall into that frame at all. I trust my wiring and emotions, and everything about her turned me on. I did not apologize for it when she told me that, and I did not think it was awkward. I stuck to my frame, and I turned it around. I acknowledged the age difference, I noted in my head that it would probably be a lot of work to get anywhere w/ a hs girl, so I let it go. By telling her to stay a lil cutie and keep in school, no big deal.
-I had two hot ass lezbiones possibly break up over me. One of them number closing me as I left a party. The other I seeing out the next night, and she is hugging me while I own her on what seemed like "a revenge date" from a fight they had over me last night. No joke, pretty sure all of my intuitions are rright here. Either way, they were both sexually attracted to me, make no mistake.
-Number closed a bartender I've been working on since a year ago.
-Took intimate pictures w/ another super cute bar tender.
-We were all completely out of state low energy, walked into a bar, and by the end of One beer. Was in state, and owned the rest of the night.... Meaning, I know the steps to change my state around.
-Even when I am strung out from a night of partying, or super tired, or whatever. In a low emotional state, I still act like a man of high value. Even when James Bond is tired, he knows that he is James Bond and acts like James Bond. Even if he isn't in the best mood or the most outgoing. And, I have been doing that.
-Number closed, and halfway kiss closed my first legitamite hot ass "Miami Dime piece", after hitting her pretty hard w/ a door in the bar. Yet, I didn't fall into her bitchy frame and apologize. Instead, I was polite and apologized, but challenged every bit of her bitchyness w/ my own like...."naw, I don't allow women to treat me like that attitude" She was like: "Yea, well my back got slammed and is really hurt now" Me: "I know, my butt is really hurt from pushing the door out soo fast" In a joking but challenging way. She tried about one more time w/ bitchness challenging me, and I challenged her back. Anyway, I went from slamming a door into her, to kiss closing her and her texting me a couple pics of her. She seems pretty nice actually. Just maybe to drunk or bitchy in the club, or just mad she got slammed w/ a door. Which is fine, but I'm not going to grovel at your feet because of an accident. I was sincere and apologized, and I was. But I was also sincere when she kept being a bitch about it, that I didn't appreciate or accept that.
CONGRUENCY and VALUES
I feel that I know more who I am now. I feel that I am acting more inline w/ who I am and how I see the world. When I look at the world or people, I see if they fall in congruence to My reality. Instead of blindly accepting someone else's or societies reality. No, never again. I am my own man, and I trust my instincts and my opinions. I don't need other people's permissions or opinions first. Everything goes through me now, and I act accordingly once I've reached a decision. I know, like the president, whom is surrounded by advisers, that I also need help sometimes. But in the end, I make my own decision. My life, is mine to own.
I am now at a point, where I want to start revisiting and working on outer game. I feel like I have become really social, really socially attune, and just feel like I have worked out a lot in my inner game. And, while I will continue that path, I also want to see if I can start pushing some interactions further. Seeing if I can't learn some more outer game techniques, that will go hand in hand w/ my new inner game beliefs.
CONCLUSION:
All in all, I feel the most congruent and confident w/ myself that I ever have in my life. Even when I was at the top of my game in highschool w/ sports and grades, I was oblivious to social programming and whom I really was. I am redefining myself as a person w/out any of that, and really learning who I am. And, I will continue to behave in ways that are more congruent to who I am as an Alpha Male w/ Values.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I am finally on My path. And I truly can't wait to see where I go from here.
-PrymaL
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