Yo guys i decided to make my own journal since recently i decided to dramatically improve my game.

My story: I am now 23 been a nice guy most of my life and had my ups and down with girls (depends if i met manipulative bitch or a nice girl). So from that you can imagine how they treated me. Like year ago i decided to make a change so i read some PUA stuff and tried to put them in action. I started with some gambits but they mostly didn't work... i guess it was because i just felt awkward using them. After months of failure i change a plan and i sticked to a natural game which suites me more. I been doing good but didn't have any significant progress until recently. I am about to leave to USA for summer 2013 and i want my game to be great before i go there. This might be the reason why in the recent time i feel more relaxed when interacting with random chicks.

Mostly i use this journal to keep records on what i have done and if i have improved but any criticism or help is appreciated.

My recent activity:
I started with this last week when i picked a girl at a club first time in a while i had lots of energy me and three buddies of mine were pretty much owning the whole club. We spoke almost to every girl in there. My friend even fingered one of the girls he talked to on a dance-floor. I made few great interactions. Got one number close (been mad on myself since i didn't k-closed the girl even i had a feeling i should go for it). But fuck it its been a first number close in a while so i was in a good mood. I even befriended some foreign students guys who i introduced to some two HB8 and they said we should get out sometime to pick-up girls.

So the next day i spoke with a girl HB8 i met online we did chat for a while and since i was in a great mood i decided do try some PUA stuff on her and see how its gonna be. Well the good thing is she liked it and we agreed to have a date. (first goal.... always include PUA stuff in interaction with girls) i been using it only on girls i wanted to go on date with but from reading this forum i can see that PUA should become part of my everyday life.

The first girl i met in a club: i did text her the next day (the day before valentine)
ME: hey its me XY from (the club we met). Did you get home safe? What about your friend? does she has trauma from the last night? (she got picked up by few morons which ruined her night i saved her from the last one but she was so pissed of that she left and took my girl with her.)
HER: Hey XY from the club (thanks for specification ) yea we arrived well and the friend is surely fine .
ME: Thats great listen if you are coming home during weekend we can hang out for something if you like. (she lives same in city as me and we met in the city where we both study)
HER: You wanna explain me (some school stuff)? i am going home but i will probably go to ma grand mom, she is sick, so better during next week or weekend.
ME: Nah, just Latino lesson (i told her i can teach her some moves when we were dancing in club) since there were not right conditions for that. BTW the friend of mine says hi (she said she knows my friend) but she doesn't know who you are... hope you aren't some kind of stalker

That was on Thursday she didn't write back so i wrote her on Sunday.

ME: Hey just wanted you to have a great end of the week by saying hi... so HI
HER: Thanks alot, now i will have for sure!!! hope you have too
ME: No problem but if you feel like you want to repay.. you can buy me a dinner. ... i always have
HER: Ok, so whenever i will need to have a great day i will buy you for sure.
ME: Point of repay is to make happy other person not yourself so i am free on Wednesday
Well we did chat for a while but it end up in nowhere and she said she is busy this week... i kinda don't know if she lost her interest or what i will give it one more try if she make another excuse i see she is not interested and move on.

The other girl i went on a date she seemed a bit nervous at first but the date went well i didn't go for a k-close since i didn't know how to escalate since were were sitting on a same side of the table and all that came to my mind was just to touch her should while i was talking about something or touch her arm when she said something funny (so mostly light kino). We spoke for like 3 hours had lots of fun alot of weird silent moments but i made fun of them so it was good but at least we spoke about sex and other stuff who likes what and so on. Then i drove her home. Didn't k-close since i felt like i didn't built enough sexual comfort.

2 days later i texted her... and we spoke and arranged a second date (she is coming to my city she lives like hour of ride by car) its her birthday and she said she doesnt feel like celebrating but i said its gonna be just a fine night no big celebration that all she has to do is come and i will arrange rest. (i try to play as dominant with her since she said her last boyfriend was a really sensitive guy and when she broke up with him he even started to cry ) i neged her and said something like i am sorry for that poor guy and that she only used him.... but since then i try to be as much dominant as possible and never ask her just tell her what to do....
my plan: is to take her to a club have a wine and take her to my place so we can watch titanic (she said she didnt see it yet and always wanted to watch it with somebody)

so my Goals for next week
1.figure out how to smoothly get her from a club to my place without her freaking out.
2. At least k-close her (make out) or even f-close
3. text the other chick and try to set a date
4. try to integrate PUA into my daily conversations


HOPE THIS ISNT TOO LONG ... i will try to keep it shorter for next time just wanted the first post to be precise

Big discovery!!!! Today i find out that girl i go for second date with is bisexual... so i will defenetly try to get her since there is big chance of threesome


Question: Are bisexual girl diferent in bad than hetero or its the same???

So here are the news.

First 3 hours of the date were great i DHV myself, pushed and pull, then i mentioned we should go my place and see a movie she said she never saw before and wanted to. On the way to cab i teased her a bit and she gave me some IOIs i thought everything is going smooth. We took a cab and got to my place and here where the troubles started. I just couldn't pull the trigger. I just got block into my head and i couldn't do it. We did cuddle for a while but that was it i just knew i fucked up. Then even worse thing happened. It was like 3 am when i mentioned that she should sleep at my place since she didn't have a bus to get home. When i said that she froze like if i killed somebody. Next 20 min she didn't say a thing and when i asked her she said its all ok. After those 20 min i finally got out of her that she didn't know she is going to stay here for a night and that her mom doesn't know she wont sleep at home. I was like wtf? She expected me to drive her home from the beginning. Normally i wouldn't mind but we were drinking whole night (had couple glasses of wine) so i couldn't drive and when i told her she should at least mention that at beginning she looked at me as if it was my fault. I knew the night is over so i just told her to wait like an hour so i can drive and take her home. As i expected she didn't say a word on the way home (like 45 min drive). I drove her home she said thank you and left. (when somebody would have told me that it is going to end like this at beginning of the night i would just laugh in his face but now i see everything is possible )

I was warned that she is too young to expect adult behavior from her but she seemed different.
Conclusion: I am about to freeze this one since i gave too much into this and i am not willing to give more.
I need to push my limits much further and not be afraid of pulling the trigger when the opportunity pops up.



Update: just recieved text from her
HER: I feel terrible about how it ended up yesterday... i felt great... and finally i saw Titanic only the end didn't go well

Today something really interesting happened to me.
I kinda tried to punish my roommate for some stuff he did by not talking to him. Then we went to mall and while i was walking my mind was focused on not talking to my friend and then ... its hard to explain... but it felt like the other part of my brain just started to see everything clearer. While first part was focused on ignoring my friend the second part was free to do things that are natural to me.
let me explain a bit... I was walking down the mall and the this chick was passing me by... normally i would try to hold eye contact and stuff like that but i would always feel a bit awkward but nothing i cant handle but this time since my brain was focused on something different i just looked into her eyes and i didn't feel any awkwardness or anxiety. It felt great i gave her a little smile and she smiled back and i really liked that feeling when my head wasn't messing with me. I am usually over-thinking everything and that is mostly the reason why i fail when it comes to girls i over think the situation and the opportunity just flies away. I need to figure out how to trick my mind and stop thinking to much and just act natural once i achieve that i am sure i can achieve greatness since i am funny guy and really good with talking to girls and creating sexual tension but every-time i over-think the situation and it creates a fear inside me that i just dont know hot to handle yet.

If you guys know about any book or something where can i read about how to keep my mind more relaxed and just let the presence flow it would help me alot. Thx

Jafa