I have rejection anxiety, and also anxiety about disappointing the other person, as if there is some weird cosmic energy out there that I shouldn't "waste." It's perfectionism and because of it I haven't opened a girl or really left my house much.. more than a few times.

I have success from online dating, but I want a lot more social success. A lot more. A tremendous amount more. At least for now... Let's call it the social success plan of 2013

Now that I've properly humbled myself, and shown my disgusting perfectionism, even spiritualism, I can move on to actually doing this.

Who am I going to open first? And what am I going to say?

Because of the whole "I don't want to disappoint them" thing, I have to make sure that even if I fail in my mid game, that they still have a decent opinion of me more often than not, because of my initial game.

Now I really have no idea how to make the first time less awkward, except for maybe waiting until I sort of naturally accidentally open a girl. Ironically Michael Jackson's Beat It song is saying over and over "Don't think twice" at this very moment, lmao... I suppose that is applicable.

Actually here's an easy way to do it. I dress myself up till I look great, and I open up a girl that is a point lower than me. Problem solved.

Damn, writing this down was a great idea. I'm glad these forums are here.

Only girl I talked to today, was older but cute. Unfortunately our waiter, and I was there with my parents (lmao).

On top of that, she was saying how cute I was. So I mean, obviously not an approach. But it's still noteworthy because...

-When I got ready to hit on her I had a couple like, lightning flashes go through my body and I pictured myself as a wolf, almost angry like she was mine, to devour.

I asked her how old she was, she said 15. I said "so a couple more years..."

My mom of course interrupted saying how she's married and what am I doing bla bla.

Hopefully I can hit on a girl without my parents being there, her being much older, and her commenting on my cuteness.

I already know that the approach is the easy part. It's the mid game that is the real stuff. The closing isn't even that important unless I want immediate satisfaction. Enough inner game just extends it out and eventually they develop feelings and want more. I know that's not rational for some situations, but my point is...

I need post approach game.

Large group bar scene fears

I don't like cutting people off in conversation, it seems rude. It's not hard, especially if I'm willing to put a hand on their shoulder (they'll stop talking almost immediately), but it seems rude.

If people value me more, when I intake breath then they look at me expectantly, unless they are an overtalker, at which point, calling them out for it in some way is good. Politely though.

I'm not comfortable with the way my voice sounds when I yell

I'm not comfortable with big movements that show excitement, like for example walking into the bar and yelling wooo! or something. I don't have much experience doing this.

The fear is humiliation, or being seen as inferior.

I also am not comfortable with my smile. If the person is above me or I am looking down, my smile doesn't seem good, unless it's only a half smile. But giving only a half smile I think gives people the impression that I am not having fun. So I need to figure this out.
Solutions to practice:

A) Practice big excited movements on video
B) Figure out how to half smile while looking fun, and figure out which angles I can full smile
C) Brainstorm on how to talk to people next to me if I'm isolated for too long
D) Practice different kinds of 2 person dancing, swing for example
E) Look at what I look like singing mimick rock in on video (people seem to do this a lot)

So this hot blonde, about a 9 is hangin at my place a lil bit ago with my roommate and my roommates fiance.

I think people that could be attracted to eachother sort of avoid each other at first and play it cool. That happens all the time I'm fairly certain. This happens unless one of them takes the initiative and is decisive in a greeting and takes the lead.

But I felt a bit awkward. I went out and got myself a glass of wine and my movements were very smooth and deliberate, she opened to me.

Backing up a bit... there is some weird dynamic between women that are hot shit and guys that are standing around sort of "waiting"

But honestly, to not do that, you either have to have a SHIT load of material, have a dance floor to transition to.

Actually no I'm full of shit. All you need to be THE man is to create several KICK ASS moments.

Create orgies where everyone is involved and everyone will love you.

Have the balls.

Walk out with the perfect attire, and a confident smile, and tell them what we are going to do.

If they don't like, say something witty, tell them how disappointed I MOTHERFUCKIN AM FOR BEIN A CRAZY (wait what?)

Hey that hurt my feelings. I need a lot of positive love and if you don't do what I say this instant I might feel bad about myself for three days. You woulnd't want that would you?

I don't give a fuck, the only thing that needs to happen is that those bitches DO WHAT I SAY!!!!

Lol.