First the field report. If I was drunk I would consider this a fools mate, but I saw perfectly every step of this particular really easy process. It's a bit negative from my feelings.

I was leaning (kind of sitting actually) against the huge DJ stage of a small club, two friends in front of me doing a triangle. Other two, a couple, at my right, slightly away. A woman "approaches us". She build the look that she was going to leave her almost empty drink on the stage to enter us. First she talks to my friend at my front-left, offering him a drink. I think WTF? And give him a "go" look. Then she says something to him about his septum and at this point I'm just not sure if he just doesn't pick it up or couldn't be bothered (we were all pretty exhausted at some random point in the morning). So she comes.

She goes between them 2 to my side to leave the drink while I put my hands forward, slowly and non-threatening, with a smile in my face and at both sides of her face. A clear sign of, "lend me your glasses" (small test). She gives me her non-verbal approval by staying still, looking down and smiling while looking straight in my eyes. I pick them up and she says, "you won't see right, they are dirty and actually graduated". Small shit test? Not sure (nor important, I actually wanted to try them), I ignore the comment so far and try them out. I realize that I see better with them than without them. Fuck.

Put them out and in again. By now I have a strong hold of the frame and her complete attention, also I'm calm and non-reactive. This looks really good for me. I give them back to her and ask her how much she had to see approx how much I need. 2 something (fuck). Whatever, I explain to her how I'm wearing contact lenses, which I think instantaneously puts me above all these people just messing around with her glasses without any idea. She tells me she cannot wear lenses but my friends talk to me so I answer them. After talking to them (20/30 secs approx), I go back to her. Ask why and she answers, dry eyes. She is ready to be kissed. It was a lame conversation, she was looking for someone and I could see it and use it to my advantadge. I was all the time moving my body slightly (half-dancing). I don't want to kiss her yet, it's too soon, she's too easy, but I know I cannot do it later and IMO she was kind of hot. So I take her hands up and put them on my shoulders. I take her hips, look her into her eyes and kiss her. She moves a bit her face out so I kiss her mouth on the side, but comes back looking for my lips. I'm still sitting and she's still standing.

I keep kissing her, a bit too much passionless, so I put my hand in her hair, caressing hard her back head and kiss her harder, starting to bite her. We switch places and keep kissing her. I ask her name at some point and she tolds me. Also that she has to go back soon (she actually looked like leaving the first time she entered us) and I punish her with a neg ("yeah like, how old are you?" "18"). After a while, she tells me she has to leave and I say bye. It still feels a bit like an excuse. I know almost ANYTHING I'd say would make her stay 5 or 10 minutes more, I just cannot be bothered. She leaves. Laughs with my friends. Everything looks good.

But I start to wonder, what's the point? I didn't feel any good kissing this woman. I felt exactly as making a fools-mate to the 10th different person. Last month has been my most "prolific" month in my life. I laid 3 women and kissed other 3. But I don't feel like winning at all. I'm falling for one specific woman (one of the ones I kissed), and I realize I even have my automatic mechanisms to boycott my attempts with this one. The dreaded one-itis, which I know exists, but I start to wonder why is it so dreaded? What's wrong with falling for someone? I start to understand some "nasty" things that no one (for what I'm aware of) says around here.

One-itis is more for the "problematic" minds (no offense), though there's a gray area of indetermination. If you start to stop going out because you see her on the clubs, stare at her facebook pictures for hours and have seen them all and if I ask you about X picture of her you remember it at the moment while she's mostly non-aware of you, then you have one-itis. You don't have anyone so you build for yourself that you don't want anyone but her. On the other side, if you can make out with a non-ugly woman every night you want or a cute one every few nights you go out, you know what she thinks about the boundaries of the Universe from a conversation you had one night at the sea-side under a huge orange full moon and you would rather prefer her to be there with you tonight than this other woman you are kissing, then I don't think you (or me for this case) have one-itis. You just prefer her over most other women.

On the other side, I'm in a open LTR with a cute woman right now (she's with her bf for a week but after that she'll come back to me). So I'm not sure what I'll work out. Until I started falling for this woman I decided to stop playing with different women for one night and start trying MLTR but now I don't even know what I want anymore. This forum is great when you need specific in-field advice, but what about when you are confused about what you actually want? If you are not sure if you want to keep playing this game anymore or not? Anyone in a similar situation?

If I ignored this woman I like, I think I'm highly likely to start falling for some other not too far again. Or not really, unfortunately not many w̶o̶m̶e̶n̶ people are able for this kind of in-dept thinking (;

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I'm not English so I might make minor mistakes and make some sentences sound a little weird.