I am sitting here currently on the fence about posting my journal online. As i sit in this chair my mind is swirling around like an angry bees nest. I am filled with doubts and questions like "will anyone actually read this?" and "is the internet really where you want to post all of your thoughts, emotions and endeavors into game?" But since I'm already here posting i'm sure its quiet obvious i am attempting to overcome these fears. Ehhh you only live once that thats the motto n---- YOLO

Sep 11th 2012

I woke up this morning like I always do you know...feeling like P.Diddy. It is one of my goals to get a 3.8 so I dedicate myself to waking up early in order to study and learn. This particular morning I was reading a D.Deangelo article about "what women really want" which as far as I'm concerned varies from woman to woman. The post was basically telling you that women don't want a nice guy :O shocker! and to use cocky funny. (big ass sales pitch) So I go to class and decide to try it out. It definitely works.
During lunch I saw a group of girls looking for a table to sit at and I invite them over. The only thing is the ugliest girl at the table continues to talk leaving me annoyed as fuck because i cant talk to my target. As i'm listening to this girl talk my targets friend comes up and I begin to try to flirt with her too. This all ends abysmally with no close and I'm left with no close at all. I did hug them goodbye though...but that ain't shit. During my marketing class the professor spoke about products having a "competitive edge". I must discover what my competitive edge is in pick-up. Why should a woman choose me over another man?

Wins: approach, cocky funny, a little kino, improved smiling

Improvements: controlling the set, slower voice, connecting with people better

Discoveries: Everyone likes a shit talker but if you talk to much shit then you will be hated. I would like for my competitive edge to be that i can connect with people better than others. I should greet everyone with a smile

Random side thought: What is a man? what makes a male turn into a real man?

Questions for PUAs: does flirting with as many girls as possible in the same set lower your value. I was thinking that the vibe was wrong because i looked thirsty, desperate etc...

Sep 13th
Today i woke up excited for life! I started seriously thinking about what type of man i want to be. I decided that I will now unlearn all stupid typical AMOG behavior, it doesn't attract women. Men seem to base their masculinity on whether they are, tougher, bigger, stronger, or physically imposing than other men. .
Displays of insecurity such as:
-walking into a room with a mean mug
-searching the room for potential threats
-trying to make your masculinity more masculine than other masculine men
I mean seriously this is stupid! We are all trying to get the most out of life but we are soooo insecure that we feel like we have to try to be more manly than other men.
James Bond, Balthier(ff12), Denzel Washington, Will Smith, George Clooney do you think these smooth operators walk into a room trying to prove they are the most manly? No! A smooth man walks into a room with the mentality that he owns the room. He doesn't have to prove he's the alpha male because he knows it. I'm through trying to out-alpha other men.

That being said, I chose to be smooth. Today I chose to walk around with a charismatic grin on my face. I also tried to talk slow and relaxed to disarm the people around me and it REALLLY WORKED. The moment i stepped out the car grinning I noticed that women seemed to be more receptive to me walking by. The number of looks i got improved and i even got the occasional passing "hi". I felt very good. So I had to ride the good waves. I introduced myself to a two set with a handshake, introduction and the disarming charismatic smile. They were very receptive but sadly no close.
Later a girl in my class sat next to me and we began to banter.
her "I've eaten pigeon before"
me "god bless girl your too country for me"
etc etc DQ's and teasing
We continue to make small talk which can be painful when you first meet someone. I have learned that at all costs you DON'T EJECT! Through those little small talk moments if you listen and pay attention you can find out valuable tidbits about her.
The conversation continues
her " Being a housewife really scares me, I don't want to be serious, I want a career and a legacy"
me *put my arms around her* "I think we are going to get along very well, girl come here"
she was laughing and eating that shit up like a drunk bum at a soup kitchen. Until literally 30 seconds later she see some guy she knows and gives him a huge hug.
I just begin talking to other people. I think my jealousy was tangible.The air was saturated with it, you coulda cut it with a butter knife.
What I should have done was turn my back to her and pay attention to other people but i waited like a dog for a moment. I think I learned my lesson.

Wins: approach, charismatic smile, voice control, kino

Improvements : dealing with jealousy, displaying alpha body language, close

Discoveries : Slow, sexy speech and smiling disarm people around you. When it puts them at ease they are more likely to connect with you. Displays of masculinity are animalistic and stupid.

Question of the day: where do i learn basic NLP

9/13/12
Today was a veryyy boring and lame day for the most part but I am reflecting and analyzing every moment so I can find ways to improve. The only way to be better is to be introspective right? During the day I generally tried to walk around and keep a grin on my face. At one point I passed an AMOG and caught him mugging me, the dude was looking at me like a was a ballchinean! I guess I intimidated him but i'm very past that childish behavior (as off yesterday whooooo long time).

At lunch I was conversing with a friend of mine when i saw a gorgeous blonde that I know. So i un-afc'd myself and invited her over.
We flirted back and forth and I encouraged more people to join the table until I had a group of ten. She got up to go buy something and when she came back her seat was *gasp* jacked!!! So being the chivalrous guy I am I offered her the chair I was sitting in. When I returned to the table with another chair for myself, the only thing this outta-pocket hoe had to say was:
"umm you let my seat get jacked"
me- *jaw dropped* "What? girl i just gave you my chair and all you have to say is that" "nu-uh you gotta go" *big smile*
I put my hands on her shoulders and gently but firmly made her stand up
I then flipped the second chair over that Iwas going to sit in and sat down in the chair that she no longer deserved. Now, the little AFC on my shoulder is whispering at a thousand mph "ohhh nooo what are you doing! shes gonna think your rude! you should have just apologized!" and you know what I almost did ,but I looked at her face and she was smiling, literally EATING. THIS. SHIT. UP..(envision that fat guy at the buffet that takes "all you can eat" a little too seriously) I then, with a smile, forced her to apologize to me before i allowed her to sit at MY table again. yeahh that AFC on you shoulder ...fuck him!


after all that unfortunately... no...close... I left lunch numberless

Wins: Kino,Smiling, Teasing/flirting

Improvements:
close: I think i need to start asking for the day 2 before I ask for the #. Ex hey you work out too we should work out together...okay whats your number
body language: I need to work on leaning back in my chair and rocking on my back heel
voice: practice more
fluff:screening for qualities (credit to chief)

discoveries: game doesn't just save you. It saves the women you use it on from all of their societal, mental and emotional barriers that the world and those with weak game have put on them.

also be a STEVE not a STEW

Weekend Review *

This weekend went pretty FUCKING hard.
Saturday I woke up with my usual pre-game ceremonies. When I wake up from my "beauty sleep", I focus on feeling lithe, pretty, and gay naaa jk. Sorry to disappoint you homo-thugs. BUT I do always tell myself "today is gonna be a good day". Due to the principles of auto suggestion, whatever you tell yourself will come into fruition. Basically your subconscious thoughts determine your reality.

Friday
The day started out extremely shitty. I mean like MOVIE SHITTY. I stayed up late studying for this math test. I even dragged myself out of bed that morning to go to her pre-test review. BUT I didn't finish the test on time and automatically missed like 5 of the problems. Then I walk out into the parking lot and walk to where I parked my car. but ... NO CAR IS THERE!!! I rub my eyes to make sure I'm not fucking imagining this. yup... Ive been towed. At that point my wallet starts crying because we both know he's about lose some weight! I take a moment to "create my own reality" and become optimistic. So I decide to text an HB

Me- Hows my lil walking billboard doing?
her- good, i've had a busy week :/ you?
me- I'm amazing, i know its hard being my sidekick
her: ha ha etc blah fucking blah
.... I'm cleaning
me: (trying a role reversal) wow your just too lame for me, lets just be freinds
her: i am not lame ha ha i have to study
me: okay i like smart girls maybe we can be more than friends... if your lucky
her: i think you'd be the lucky one
me: don't start our first fight lol
her: sorry i say that because i prefer to be single right now
me: lets just be friends cuz i'm gay
her: i cant tell if your joking or sarcastic but I do want to be friends

*lets go into my mind as i read this text message* all you can hear is the screeching of tires and the crashing of planes and groaning of a large boat hitting an iceberg! I'm NOT playing this friend zone shit

me: your sexy and i want to find out if i we have a connection. We'll never work we want different things. I have enough friends sorry, goodbye

question of the day: did I do the right thing?

Anyways, later on that night I went to the club with a friend of mine. We ended up leaving with some of our coworkers who were there. We all got into my car and went to their place and that's when things started heating up .
I started telling them truisms and let me tell you something....bitches love truisms. This led to me getting close to one of them and I began escalating. Hand on shoulder? check! next, touch the legs? Check! next, touch the face and triangular stare? check! I found a way to get them to turn off the lights. My friend and I begin making out with out two coworkers of opposite sides of the SAME bed.

*lets go into my mind as I make out with her.*
be stormy! be stormy! be stormy!... okay... relax... "be in the moment". So I start trying to feel the sexual tension and vibe of the moment.
next, be Di Carlo! be Di Carlo! be Di Carlo!... Escalate!

I go from just kissing to grabbing her ass, grabbing her tits, kissing her neck, sucking her tits, play with the pussy on the outside of her panties and finally I try to finger her... her hand grabs mine, LMR! * back into my head"okay, this is normal."* So I grab her ass and try to finger her from the back, no resistance! but FUCK my arms aren't long enough...why wasn't i born 6'3! so i try to go to the front again ...LMR FML! I give up she doesn't want to fuck. I just continue making out with her and she eventually pretends to fall asleep because she doesn't want to make out again. I weakly just lay there and try to fall asleep...not to be a bitch but its been a long day and I just want to go home.
(

Today was a big learning day for me. I really need to improve my game. I want to be good at this. I want to connect with beautiful women. It dominates my mind all the time. I want it bad!

wins: just being freindly, and storytelling

improvements
1) dont neg so much. Its okay to tease but today i had a beautiful girl that was gonna sit with me at lunch and I really fucked it up by over teasing. she ended up really taking me seriously and left

2)text messages are ment to convey feeling and to make her laugh but are always second to a good ole fashion phone call

3)you have to fucking kino. part of the connection must be formed through physical touch

4)one of the most important skills of a pua is learning to read when a women is attracted to him and responding appropriately to her nonverbal communication
signs i've begun to notice:
a)she kinos you
b)she keeps consistent eye contact with you
c)she teases you
d)she takes an interest in your personal life
e)as you talk to her she always smiles


5) if you cant approach during the day your doing yourself a serious disservice because everyday you will always see a pretty girl

6) it would be great if I added some NLP to my game


Question of the day: how the hell do you isolate properly?

sep 19 2012

Another big lesson today. I had a nice conversation a very good friend of mine whose a natural. I also approached a girl at lunch but our conversation was so boring. I have to be "the exception to the rule" so i'm just gonna outline what i learned today

1) you have to be congruent. He told me that in person I come off as a cool, intelligent, funny guy who women can have a conversation with but in text its a whole different story. He said i was trying to hard to be cocky-funny and an asshole and it wasnt in my personality. I'm seriously thinking of dropping negs from my game its just not working well. He literally said the use of negs is like this "your pointing your finger out at a woman say "AHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"" in the most childish and taunting manner and then saying... okay now please like me bitch" Girls really dont like jerks, expecially if your not naturally an asshole and your just trying to hard. GO FIGURE!

2) Screening for attractive qualities will make small talk much much muchhh more effective because if you just go into the ole "where do you work", "whats your major" etc etc its really just making you the same as every other guy that has approached her with the same. lame, game. there has to be an exchange of what each other is looking for


3) My friend whose a natural described game as this big circular wheel that balances chasing and attracting. He said that women in general LOVE TO BE CHASED BUT if you chase too much you will come off as needy, desperate and like every other loser. Sometimes you have to make it known to a woman that you want her AKA direct game and other times you have to learn how to be ambiguous aka indirect game.

4) he also said never ever confirm any interest or lack there of. The other day i told a girl "lets just be friends" because i thought i was doing a role reversal and it was going to create attraction. In reality it defined our relationship in her mind and I was no longer ambiguous or mysterious. You cant confirm anything with her

5)I was thinking what makes me more special than any other guy and how can i demonstrate this. Now his big thing is "putting a relationship in her mind". He basically tells her what a real man is but in reality he's just describing himself.

6)You have to up play your strengths and downplay your weaknesses. Never say anything negative about yourself in front of a woman that being said i have to outline my strong points
-smart, funny, freindly, confident, charming, hard working, caring

wins: analytical mind and approaching

improvements: screening, dont be an asshole, congruency, pretty much everything

Your journal is turning out to look pretty great. It's well-structured and it is clear that you're making good progress.
Correction: The connection must PRIMARILY be formed through physical touch. Kino escalation is absolutely THE most important part of seduction. That being said, learning NLP might give you a small boost but it's really not worth it just for the purposes of pickup.

Don't forget the compliance ladder. Looking forward to seeing you improve.

@Chief thanks bro i'll have to keep that in mind
9/24
Pretty much the hottest week of my PUA life statisticly. 4 #closes in 3 days. *celebratory moment "LETTTTSSSSSSSS GOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"* I realized that I have to start back from scratch and relearn all my PUA techniques. What i have been doing hasnt been working so why not just relearn everything right.
The best advice i have recieved in PUA has been this "If you want to change your results you must change youself, your world changes from the inside out"
You can strike out with a woman before you even say anything to her, that being said this weeks target has been body language. An alpha exhibits these behaviors
1) chin up
2) chest out/back straight
3) take up space
4) when sitting they sit back in their chair
5) they seem to touch thier nuts often??? lol i just keep seeing it NO HOMO
6) they swing their arms when walking
7) seem to grin and smile often (when walking display a naive grin)
make eye contact with people
9) relaxed breathing

I have been doing this and the statistic really is right 70% of all communication is non verbal!

Also i have been reading a book called Seduction, it says that tonality is also important so talking in a deeper voice communicates testosterone and in a slow and relaxed DEEP voice you can captivate your audience

now to the #closes

#1 HB-7
This girl is really high energy but she gets annoying as FUCKKKK. She bitch tests too much. I mean from the word go she is off and on. She flirts with me by pushing my face, hitting me playfully, and she always lets her leg touch mine when we are sitting next to her. But her vocal signals are completly off putting. I really think shes trying to neg me. well be talking and she'll say "are you talking to me" or "OMG shut up" she even went as far as to scream "dont touch me in a crowded college lunch room". she and I both know she likes me so idk why she has to be so uncouth. She thinks shes the shit at least thats the frame she projects. I personally think the higher a person views themselves the more they try to qualify the people around them. I kept my state strong and started ignoring her tests. Worked like a charm!I work at a shoe store and I made her close me by saying "Whenever you want me to use my discount for your brother let me know" and walked away. she yelled after me "wait i dont have your number" shes kinda annoying and doesnt meet my qualites so I dont care about her much

#2 hb-7
She is this girl in my class that has been showing attractions signals. Such as leaning in, smiling, lauging, teasing me etc. So I just began talking to her about her ex and her life. I basically provided a quality that i could tell she needed which is optimism. Shes in my small group so she says "omg i dont have your number! gave it to her. I figure a good seduction is one where the girl closes the PUA

#3 hb-7.5
I walked into the computer lab and there is this cute hispanic girl sitting there. So i casually say "hey how are you doing?" she replies fine. I lay my stuff down and immediately start checking her complaince. I ask her if she can watch my stuff while I go to the bathroom. She agrees and we echange names. I smile at her, she smiles back....*the seed has been planted*. I come back and for like 5 minutes neither one of us say much. In the back of my head i'm like *wowww this is not pick up...this is just lame*. Then I hear her slam the mouse down in frustration.
me- you mad over there
her- yeah i cant get it to print
look guys oppertunity doesnt knock twice
I immediatly start trying to help her then i begin to fluff
first small questions like whats your major etc.
I make her guess mine, I joke about being a male stripper to break the monotany of small talk. Then i begin to flirt with her making up all sorts of bull crap about my life to the normal small talk questions. Then we begin to talk about her life. First i started real light like siblings and then i got deeper and deeper and DEEPER!!!! she actually started telling me about her controlling boyfriend. She also begins to tell me about her highschool life, her ex, her best freind dying. *pimp voice* DAMNN BITCH IF I WANTED HER A SOB STORY I WOULD JUST WATCH A LIFETIME MOVIE. She also admits that she cant be without someone like a freind or BF and that her parents baby her *its a sign shes clingy*. It actually began to be a turn off. Look if you want someone to talk all you have to do is LISTEN. just be quiet and people will just talk and talk. She tells me she is very commited to her boyfreind. then she asks me if i'm a phsyology major ha ha. I mean she seriously thought i was a pschologist hmm... guess i got too deep. She gets up to leave. I say "we should continue talking your cool" she gives me that confused look. "whats your number". She agrees but only after i tell her i completely respect her boyfreind. very clunky # close...

#4 hb-7
Girl in my class I talk too. we take a test that was hard. she talks about studying I tell her "we should study together" #close.

These advancements in my game come after
1)improved body language
2)voice and visualizations excercises (seriously if you picture yourself doing it, it will happen)
3) I STOPPED JACKING OFFFF *car crashes* *explosion noise* It really is true if you stop jacking off you become hornier and it makes you approach more women. I have probably approached 8 women in 3 days which is alot for me. Just make sure you do it every two weeks because after two weeks i had a wet dream. Nothing is more demoralizing than waking up with cum in your sheets and no woman next to you....

wins: approach, #closes, confidence , body language, attitude

Improvements:
Flakes: these women are begginging to turn out as flakes. I think I am coming off as too friendly and not sexual enough. They might view me in a non sexual manner maybe my game is wrong idk i need to SFT better.

Question of the day: what causes flaking?

also for anyone whose looking for a little motivation and doesnt understand why their game isnt evolving look at this...its why i stopped jacking off
1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsSC2vx7zFQ
2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HpFroMCKiuM
3) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Uxun0BF90M

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTFnmsCnr6g this is the full "how bad do you want it" speech with out the football player, definately worth watching, EXTREMEMLY INSPIRATIONAL , i can say...it changed my life!

9/24
The streak CONTINUES. 6 phone numbers in one week!!! I got two more numbers today!!! nothing too big it was a pretty boring day but i now KNOW i'm making progress. I'm gonna be a PUA inch by inch if it kills me. I have always wanted this, its the only skill I have wanted to posses for as long as I can remember.

#closes
I was sitting at lunch chilling in a big group of freinds. There are these two girls from my freshman year in college who it seemed like wouldnt even give me the time of day. A Brunette hb8 and a latina HB9. I pretty much had given up on them. The brunette dates a freind of mine and the latina was the first girl I EVER APPROACHED my freshman year of college. I fucked it up pretty bad and came across as an AFC/lameass. Last year she wouldnt even say hi to me as we passed in a crowded hallway. Shes pretty much the definition of TWATTY...

(twatty: a member of the female race who will show you attention for a moment but really doesnt care about you and will otherwise ignore you if she has the chance AKA for a second she might flirt or throw the pussy at you BUT she is coquettish and doesnt really like you)

... in the back of my head i was thinking "man last year i couldnt get a hello from either one of these girls and now since i have uped my game and became the center of attention we are all talking" "should i flirt with Latina?!?" "..naa she wont returnt the attention she just wants the validation" "BOYYY if i could just get that number!!!"
Brunettes boyfreind was coming up this week and since hes a freind of mine I wanted to see him.
me-"whats you boyfreinds phone number ?"
brunette-"i got you, ohh wait i dont have your number"
lol i guess she wants my number so i give my phone to her and she puts the number in
latina- "Do you still have my number Great?"
nowww this girl KNOWS i never had her number, there is no way she would have ever given it to me
me- "naaa i dont here you go" *i give her my phone* *she puts in her number*
I mean i really had to try to hold my smile because my limiting belief was just broken in half. But a phone number is nothing! i got into the game to connect with people but this is a WIN for me

Wins: social circle game, # close

Improvements:
I need to increase the SFT and the KINO but my next goal is to GET DAY 2's, I have to set up more plans to do something

my game is finally starting to go somewhere after a whole year of stagnation FINALLYYY WHOOOOOO

9/28
Today was one of those days when i wasnt feeling alpha i was shit tested by women and men
It kinda hurt my state why? Because on an emotional lvl i am still needy for atttention. I shouldnt be a pua cant care about what people think. On the upside i made some calls to women,so thats kthats an improvent

Wins: approach , phone game
Improvements: state control

Yo, I just caught up with your journal, and it looks like it's going well, I've noticed that you're having some problem with being shit tested, and I'd say try not to sweat about passing the shit tests, if you're going to be C&F then your mentality should be "why should I be interested in HER?" not "Why should she be interested in me?", one thing I do for the sake of congruency is to meditate like 20 minutes a day or so, as to really internalize the mentality I'm going for. To sum it up, let your mentality reflect how you're acting.

Second thing, about understanding people better, I'd recommend reading the book "What every BODY is saying" by Joe Navarro, and then going out, sitting down for a while and just reading people's body language, classifying their minute mannerisms, and getting used to defining idiosyncratic behavior, and all that other jazz that's important. Understanding body language can help deciding whether you should approach indirect or direct, based off whether they're preening when they see you, what the next step to do after opening a set based off how open their body language is, so on and so forth.

Last thing, when learning new things in PUA, to get a better game it's best not to load yourself with a bunch of material, but rather to take one chunk of information at a time, practicing it, and incorporating it into your game, that way in set you can focus on the moment, rather than what you're going to do next it comes naturally. The Roman emperor Habrian said it best, "Brick by Brick my citizens, brick by brick." Ah Bientot friend and good luck man!

Your right maybe i have been inundating myself with information. I'm trying to dive in not get my feet wet ha ha. I guess my next goal should be to work on Kino/ complaince ladder. Since my body language improvement I have been realizing that most of the communication is nonverbal. It has also helped me in my past weeks.

9/30 I made one approach today
This weeks goal is complaince ladder/ kino
I this redhead walks into the study room. I am sitting right next to the door and she startles me when she opens it. She smiles says hey and picks a computer. The room is not very big and I ask her to "watch my stuff". She complys and when i comeback i introduce myself. Small talk occurs but with no C/F it becomes boring I eject. Gotta make em laugh lesson learned

Sometimes, all you need is to make it clear that you like them/are interested in them.