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PostPosted: Thu Aug 16, 2012 6:45 pm 
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Hi Champs :)



20 girls from today 16th august - 31. dec.



About me:

I live in Denmark, north of Europe. 23 yo.
My mother was seperated from her 2 husbands while I was living with her. She HATED them more than anything else.
She had extreme low feeling of selfworth, but was too proud to admit it, so instead - she wanted me and my brothers to feel guilty about her miserable life. She treated us so bad that my body literally would shake when she was angry, because I was so scared. I never fought back because I had so much respect, and when I defended myself, she just went more crazy. She took all rights to see me and my brothers from my father, and the second father was a pussy, so I never had a father to learn from. And she pushed ALL family members away from us. She just hated everybody.
It even went so extreme that I considered suicide between the age 14-16, JUST so she maybe would cry and show me a little love.
It lasted until I was 20 and became more independend. Because the source of pleasing her ego (me), now was on the way out of her life, I received tons of EVIL text messages...

- All of this made me a VERY insecure hardcase with women.



Well, I was lucky to have some incredible good looks, so I lost my virginity at age 17, had sex with about 10 girls and only like 14 times in all, until I was 20.

At age 20 I read the first dating-book "Double your dating" by David DeAngelo (and severl self development- and female psychology-books followed)
I managed to get my first girlfriend - the best experience I've had so far.
She was just my type and everything was literally PERFECT - from love to sex and everything in between.

Well 1,5 year passed, and I became bored.. I still wanted to have sex with more women. I became more and more bored and restless and... beta!
You can guess what happened next...
I broke up, but missed her too much so I wanted her back and started chasing... boom! She ended it. (August 2011)

I was back in miserable land. Suicide was in my head.. but after a couple of months I started dating girls. For the next 5 months I managed to have sex with only 3 girls. Two prostituted and one 7.5 girl. So lame.

The last of those 5 months I started to feel really good - became friends with dating coaches and traveled in Asia for 3 months with them. When we were in Bangkok, I managed to lay 30 hot girls. Some of them inzaaanely hot (it's easy in Bangkok). A good experience.

I got back to Denmark and felt SO GOOD. My ex noticed and jumped on me - I got drunk, talked to girls, and crashed her place at night - and fucked her. Full on EGO.

See, I wasn't concious about this - but I was in a downward spiral.

Fucked my ex for 3 months and then she talked about getting back together.. my ego was still ruling. Then she told me one night that she had sex with another guy.. I became jealous and then acted... BETA AGAIN. (3 weeks ago)
Suddenly I felt like I wanted her to be my girlfriend again. 1,5 weeks of beta-behaviour - attraction destroyed! And I was miserable during that beta-period. JUST LIKE when we broke up in 2011.

I'm good at talking to women now, but it's like my mind hasn't got used to it yet, so I don't approach most girls - especially not in the daytime. I'm going to get this handled now.

I also want a specific goal - lay 20 girls from now on and for the rest of 2012 (I'm young, so I want sex with many. A little bit of ego yeah, but also to get this part of my life HANDLED and UNDERSTOOD!) I know 20 girls isn't THAT many, but if you consider the quality I'm only interested in......... and I don't care about negative comments to this goal.

I've now officially been drunk approximately for 320 of the last 365 nights. I need to put an end to that as well.



CAN'T WAIT for my ex to come back and beg at my feet, just to get a load on her face and be shoved off.. even though I probably won't care by that time..


I will use everyday as best as I can and be totally honest with you and myself to become good with women and the best man I can be.



Thank you


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