A little about myself: 38, 6'3" of the Caucasian Persuasion, very handsome by what a lot of women tell me, although I have trouble believing this due to my low self esteem.
I make 100k a year. I'm in decent shape but not ripped, trying to get there, work out three times a week and cardio in between. I dress well, better than a lot of people.

I have crippling introversion and social anxiety which completely negates any natural advantage I've had in my life, making me the ultimate AFC on this board I think.

I am recently separated after a ten year relationship in which I did everything for a sick woman and isolated myself even further from the world.

I haven't even watched TV in years...I haven't had time for my own interests between constant trips to the hospital & doctors for my wife and my demanding job so personality

Personality wise I feel flat as a pancake and have trouble talking to anyone longer than 20 seconds.

Sadly the only interests I did have were reading, video games, and pussy. I feel pretty unwholesome about this..have been trying to develop some other interests.

My ex played video games with me so I've given those up as well since we split. I did pick up an appreciation for music which was another weird thing about me...music just never interested me enough to bother with before but now it helps me with my turmoil over my breakup and I'm learning to appreciate it for its own sake.

I have not read any of the published PUA material but I've been watching a few vids and reading a lot on this forum etc.

Boring self analysis over. Here are the field reports. Brace yourself but at least they will be hilariously bad. I'm not going to bother to date them just number them in the

order that they occured:

1. Extremely large and upscale mall. Hired gun HB9 blonde. I'm very messed up over my ex-wife still and can't avoid talking about her. I have a couple of gift cards for J.Crew in my wallet for returns from my wife's merchandise, seeing them bothered me so I asked the blonde if she liked that store (it was right there) she said no and I handed her $250 in gift cards anyway as my opener. We got to talking because these particular hired guns are aggressive as hell and I kept telling her no I wouldn't buy anything. I talked to her a bit about phone numbers and such but she states she's from Israel and doesn't have any kind of local contact info which seems like utter bullshit. She seemed to be dousing me with IOIs but it's probably just the sales tactics. This was it for my first 'day' because I wasn't really studying PUA at that point.

2. I came back another day and talked to this same blond. This time I was more upbeat, can't remember what all I said (I'm catching up on reports, they will get more detailed

I promise ) but her sales pressure was greatly lessened on me and my attraction was greater to her I felt. This time I took her Israeli number anyway, even though it was pointless I wanted to see how far I could take it and it was a DHV for me because I can call international numbers through my work line and even get a translator so I used that to DHV her.

3. A doctor in this same upscale mall. Since I am emotionally immature, I am more comfortable hitting on younger women so this one was above my usual age bracket. I asked her directions to the Microsoft store. She said something about being in a hurry and I just said "here I'll walk with you", touched her on her back and we started walking. I couldn't get her to slow down really so I just matched her pace and kept talking about pointless junk trying to babble over the intimidation factor of a HB9 doctor. I DHV'd her a little with my line of work and having a high level of responsibility and did she ever get out for any fun? I said something about I bet it's the same that I used to do...just drinks after work.

I couldn't generate any attraction because I couldn't figure out how to get her to stop and look at me. We actually walked by the Microsoft store which she pointed out, and I said "well actually that was just an excuse to talk to you" and kept walking with her. At that point I felt I had a little but she was still briskly pacing towards the elevators..luckily this mall is huge. I probably should have ejected long ago but fuck it.

I fucked up and of course talked about my separation which she took note of and I tried to remedy that I got caught in bullshit earlier with the directions by saying "Hey I'll never deceive you about real stuff like this at least." Which is true in my case. She seemed a little warmer after this but I think I fucked that up by my next major comment "What really turns me on is a girl with a job" (I still can't believe I said this to a doctor, lol) It's just something I'd been thinking since my ex-wife was so needy about everything in her life..she could not work for instance.. and off my mouth went. I did ask for her number on the way "Too quick" she said and right before she got on the elevator I got her email for FB.

3. HB8 brunette working door security for Apple store. I talked some fluff with her about various cell phones and had a little kino with her. Tried for her number but she said she had a boyfriend and the manager came up with some (likely BS) that she needed to do in the back. I actually felt a little rapport with this girl which is rare for me.

On a subsequent day, I decided to try sunglasses as an experiment. I usually wear a distinctive hat (go figure) so I did take them off and put them on the hat to speak to women. I think they made me look too intimidating and weird to be wearing them indoors but it did relax me somewhat to be able to look around in stealth mode as it were. I think if I were more confident I could make them work but as it stands they're detrimental.

4. HB9 blonde selling female only hair products, complete with barber chairs. My opener was looking at an empty seat and asking her if this seat was taken? She was ultra frosty right away and said yes. I said "By who?" "By my manager" She pointed over in a vague direction and I saw someone over there so I just looked at her disdainfully and bailed.

5. Shutout from an HB10 older blonde...tried to engage her with asking for directions but she just threw me a couple of glances from over her shoulder and kept going. I need to work on three seconds approach from the front but there's a lot of back and forth in this mall...walking against traffic helps but I still don't have any 'traffic stops' I'm confident enough to pull off.

6. A very nice set of interactions with an HB8 Chinese girl hired gun. They hand these little soaps out that look like rock candy crystals as part of their sales pitch. I grabbed it on the way by, said thanks and pantomimed eating it as she said 'NO WAIT' from behind me, then of course I lurched to the side and faked choking a little before handing it back to her with a grin. In fact at this point I was looking for some damn mints and I told her there aren't any damn mints in this mall (I had just come from the candy store)...she dug some out of her drawer and couldn't get the container open which I did for her, it had a strange mechanism to open. Yay for small DHVs. She was very energetic and curious and we played guess my age which she began guessing at 25 which I just scoffed...figuring she was bullshitting trying to sell me stuff, and told her so.

She said she wasn't and turned to jump on three people that looked like they might buy something. I waited for about 10 seconds too long probably and then just left.

7. I returned to the site in (1) and there were two HB8s there. One all but jumped on me saying "That's him!" that's the guy who gave xxxx the gift cards! I love that store and blah blah blah. The other followed the lead of the first. I kept telling these two I wasn't going to buy something and I did control the frame for quite a while but they were all over me and the one was flirting with mble asking me if I had kids, about the seperation and part of their pitch is to get you into a chair and she was damn well grinding my crotch while the other one was giving me the wire scalp massage tool. It's as close to legalized prostitution as I've ever experienced in a mall. To my shame I violated PUA, sold my dignity for $160 and received some facial mud crap and two FB contacts that nothing came of. I am but a weak man.

8. I went back by the Chinese girl in (6) and she flagged me down and began asking me a lot of stuff without trying to sell me anything. When I picked up control of the frame and asked her for her number she said she had a boyfriend but I felt she was disappointed that she did. I had a lot of kino as well here. She wrote her name on a card for me and made sure I took it. Probably 90% sales but I think 10% I'd like to fuck this guy.

9. An alternative looking ..emo..HB7. A watch store and I open with fluff about watches. I really fucked this one up by grasping for stuff to say and going to my age difference...obviously I should not even bring this up. I compounded it by pretending I didn't know what dubstep was to keep her talking...I kind of get it but it just seems like techno to me really...see my music comments above...and then I vaguely remembered I had some Skrillex in my phone and had some idea of showing that to her but it came out more of "which of these is dubstep lol" I actually have a female FWB and I tried to say hey I'd like to introduce you to this other girl I know...so can I get your FB..she wasn't having it and I ejected.

I live out in the boonies so travelling to where anything actually happens in the city is an hour and a half for me. I also work saturday nights. Things I need to change to improve my social life.

10. Out at a decent bar..large one with a live band and a bit of a club SPAM. I opened on HB7 waitress with hey nice necklace (she has this giant skull on a chain)..do you have a tattoo to match which she whipped around, whipped her hair up to show me on her neck and transitioned with (again, deadly habit) my separation bullshit and talked her into being my girlfriend for tonight which she seemed to get a kick out of. She promises me her number at the end of the evening. Which she did deliver on but it felt kind of pressureful in the end..she was pretty busy.

I was heavily discouraged that night for random reasons, some related to my ex-wife, some related to friends, it was mixed male/female sets everywhere which I have a hard time talking to and I'm there alone feeling like a major creeper.

11. A middle aged HB8 teacher sitting by herself...I thought. I asked her if the seat next to her was taken and she said no so I sat down and started fluff about the band and what they were playing...neither of us knew..she asked what I did which is an easy DHV for me although I should attach some story to it. We exchanged names and then her husband appeared, I introduced myself to him and offered him my chair, he took another one and they started talking so I left.

12. A crazily amazonian (in proportions..TALL which I love) and lovely black HB9 asks me what race I am, I just kept rolling my eyes a bit saying..'come on now' (I can't see anyone mistaking me for other than Whitey McWhite) and she said 'no really some people get offended if they are mistaken for this or that race etc'. We exchanged names and hers is an obvious stripper name. Here is where I used what I think of as my anti-pua powers and said you know I have a friend whose parents wanted to name her a similar name which is xxxxx. (I really did want to know if she was a stripper) "I don't know how to relate to girls with these names other than start handing them twenties" I have no idea how she took this really..I'm bad at the body language but she did ask for my number anyway and after a bit more fluff returned to her seat with her female friends.

13. HB8 hostess in a restaurant the next day. I was texting my "girlfriend for the night" in (10) with the following:

Hey there! Sorry I had to go before breaking up with you properly last night so: I'm breaking up with you. We'll always have Paris N shit. -Hatter

I showed this text to the girl in (13) and I said hey I want to get your opinion on something...do you think this is mean? She babbled a bit and I pushed send where she could see and went back to my lunch...came back a bit later and explained about how she was my temporary girlfriend I met in a club last night and now I was in the market for a new one. I exchanged names with her and her name didn't match her tag which I pointed out. Then I said you have 20 minutes to think of gifts..new car..whatever and went back to eating. The manager came out and had some words with me about younger girls working for them and he'd appreciate if I kept my comments to myself (I should have asked this girl's age as I don't like going below 21 at all..but I'm not really serious about any of these it's mainly to practice breaking my introversion about 1000x more than it is sexual) I just said ok, ok..and let it go.

(10) responded to the text with Haha...well thank you for at least doing so. I also called her and got cut off but she did return the call to which I asked her some fluff about what she was doing today and if she knew anything about the girl from (12) which she didn't.

I got the farthest with the girl from (10) but she's also the one I have been least attracted to out of the whole list so far.

I've been watching some vid about the buyer's mentality vs. the seller and I think I really can put this concept to use in my next rounds. Or maybe I need a massive amount of therapy! Comments appreciated!