Ok I seem to have done this a lot where I make a journal but then I never return. Well this time it's different and let me explain. Hopefully you'll look at this sometime and be encouraged to do do something yourself if you haven't, or follow my story if you're already good or on your way.

1. Summer time - I'm only taking one summer class which will be easy as fuck, and I'm starting to get real bored staying at home(something that wasn't true in the past)
2. I've started going clubbing - before I hadn't even taken the first steps. Now I realize what I have to do and am willing to do whatever necessary.

Hope you keep up with me I plan on going to a club/bar at least 3 times a week and updating.

So first, here's a bit on me pickupwise:
--22 years old, virgin, never even had a gf(due to me being scared and not trying, nothing that has to do with looks)
--Can dance somewhat
--Usually get a lot of compliments on how I dress
--Just started going to clubs/bars

PU Goals for 2012(I've got a lot of my other non-pu goal shit handled, and I feel it's time to focus on this area of my life hardcore)
--Get comfortable going clubbing solo and alone - This is probably the one I need to work on the most, coupled with the one directly under this one. Up until last night I've only been to a club fucked up and with friends. They were fun as fuck, but tonight I realized I still have a lot of insecurities to work on. I'm just happy I have the knowledge and mindset to want to change this.
--Dance when dancefloor is empty/few people - This is another one I have trouble with. I'm only good dancing when the floor is packed, because I feel people aren't going to be watching me dance. I know I dance better than most I've seen at clubs so far, but there's always that negative voice in the back of my head. I need to change this.
--Get in state whenever/always be in state - I like to get to a club before it gets poppin, but last night I felt it so hard to start dancing because I was in the lazy state for so long where I was just standing around doing nothing. Drinking sure helps this, but I need to learn to do it sober.
--Dance with girls - I'm a pretty good solo dancer, but so far I haven't danced with any girls. The first few times we went to clubs I didn't want to put any pressure on myself and just get comfortable with the SPAM. I feel I'm at the point where clubbing isn't a new experience anymore, so I need to step it up.
--Dress down - I wasn't trying to brag when I said I get a lot of compliments on the way I dress. However I feel it has become a major crutch, and I rely on it too much. From now on, I'm going to attract women by dressing very simple and rely more on learning pickup. Once a girl has proven herself to me she can enjoy my style.
--Masturbate once a week maximum - I think this one is very important. When I quit doing this I become more aggressive and I quit thinking so much. I feel one of my problems was I had too much free time and that's when I start masturbating. Now that I'm starting to go out, I won't have that problem(I hope).
--Lose weight - I'm actually about average, but I do have some fat I'd like to get rid of. Up until a few weeks ago I was drinking heavily(almost every night) for about 6 months plus, so I gained some extra pounds. My main goal is to get ripped and I think dancing every night will definitely help.

5/25/12 Friday

Okay so the week in recap since I last posted I've been busy almost every day which is unusual for me, but it's a good leap and I'm hoping to keep it up at least for the summertime.

Thursday - Hung out with a couple friends at the bar. Just good to immerse in the SPAM.
Friday - Went to a baseball game just cause my friend had free tickets. I just wanted to do something different.
Saturday - Was invited to a barbeque so I went to it. The people were older and had kids in their teens, so it wasn't a huge ass party but I had fun. In the end I'm glad I got out of the house.
Sunday - Went to a Rammstein concert. I never listen to heavy metal but my friend got the tickets for free. It was a cool experience.
Monday - Saw The Dictator with a few friends. Had a good time.
Tuesday - First day I didn't do anything
Wednesday - Went to a club just cause they play dubstep. There wasn't many people at all but I got super fucked up. I remember dancing with a girl and some other people for prolly 30 seconds by the DJ cause there was nobody on the dance floor. I also complimented the DJs on their stuff alot even though they were backups. Truth is I did like their shit alot; I'm also trying to get to know some new people and I've been thinking of trying the DJ thing myself. Just as long as I expand my social circle.
Thursday - Saw midnight showing of Chernobyl Diaries with some friends. It was okay but I'm glad I went.

At this point I feel that I need to start going out by myself if I want to seriously get good at PU. Whenever I go with my friends I get way fucked up and I need my head to be clear while doing this. Also, the guy that I usually go clubbing with is good looking but has a super AFC mindset. He doesn't always seem to enjoy himself at these places, and I've made it a rule to enjoy myself at all times no matter what I'm doing.

As for now, I'm not putting too much pressure on myself with PU. I'm just glad to get out of the house and start experiencing new stuff.

5/27/12 Sunday
Friday - got drunk at home, passed out, then decided to go out later to a club. I honestly felt like shit but went anyways, and when I got there nobody was even in it(I wanted to see how many people went on a Friday night) so I went back home
Saturday - Was going to go check out the same club because they had a DJ from a local radio station there. Shit was packed and as I was searching for parking a cop pulled me over and gave me a $165 ticket for not stopping at a stoplight(I stopped at the crosswalk of a red light going to make a turn). After that I instead went home.
Sunday - Worked all day, made $100 and put that towards my spending money I dipped into to pay for the ticket. I won't be doing anything or monday, but every other day this week I should be going out so I'll update at the end.