| This ones real interesting. Things that I felt were cool, was putting my arm aroun
d her the entire time pretty much and she sort of looked comfortable...Not too sure. THe main thing was
that she left like 15 mins in! Yea I know, apparently her stepdad got lost. Felt really bad for her, sk
eptical at the moment though. She seemed really sad/on the verge of tears, or maybe shes a good actor a
nd found me holding her like that real inappropriate, not too sure. I do know for sure that I must of k
illed a ton of attraction saying things like il carry you and general supplication, fuck wish I could r
ember some of the stuff haha. Well the other things that I felt cool haha were definetly when we first
met, I did some good shit ( Or I think I did haha) Pretty much gave her a hug then smelt her, yea I was
attempting to get past physical awkwardness straight away. I asked her whats that smell? Ended up being
a 164$ bottle of perfume and I say who you trying to impress. (Its not much, but a victorys a victory)
Then when I put my arm around her at first, she got real nervous, started stuttering and stuff (after
she sort of looked on her shoulder like sorta "whats that hes putting there?") then I procceeded to att
empt to make it comfortable by saying "whoa are you nervous? You should smile, smiles look good on you.
" Almost straight away she broke into a smile and started on this story about how she was on TV (shit t
est?? I pretty much ignored it sort of, was like ah thats nice/or cool cant remember) and she says she
looks disgusting on tv and she hates her face and stuff...now keep in mind this is the head girl of my
old highschool (We happened to be in highschool by the way, is that a bad location for a meet? ) So she
definetly looks good, but that day she really wasn't looking as good as I remember her haha She did how
ever have a lot of makeup on the eyes, she waited for me, when I was pretty late. But her clothes defin
etly not much effort put in, her bag was nice, not too sure how accesorized and her hair was definelty
just normal. The 164$ smell as well haha. So I wasn't too sure how to take all of it, mostly cuz it se
emed like she really wanted to see me, but I may have dissapointed her in person( Not being much of a m
an etc.) Another reason Im skeptical is because we reached a spot in school where her friends used to h
ang out, then she decided to text her friend shes there, sort of broke the physical contact while we we
re there and we seperated for a bit. Next thing you know she gets a call, and the news breaks out. I do
n't know, sounded like legit phonecall, but Im reeeeeaaallllyyy not too sure (Man am I going to feel li
ke a dick if her step dad really is lost haha ) then shes like "I have to go" and Im like are you serio
us, dunno if I should of said that. (really caught me off gaurd) Things to note after, she did let me p
ut my arm around her again( Well I sort of just did and she didn't say anything/act different) Then tow
ards a back entrance in school, shes like Im sorta/sorry Im pretty much ditching you(Cant remember if s
he said sorry/sorta, thought I'd mention it cause if she was trying to politely excuse herself, she wou
ldnt draw attention to that? Dunno) I took it as a shit test not too sure if it was and almost laughed.
(chuckle with smile I guess, if that helps to describe) Then I fucked up after that for sure, she said
she needs to hurry real fast and get out of there, so I was like il carry you and just in general very
supplicating. I was caught in her step dad being lost, we hugged/said goodbye and I said that was a gr
eat catch up and imeadiately after felt bad, I was thinking about myself blah blah supplicating crap..
Then I found I texted her on the bus while I was heading home :"Hey listen :]roses are red, violets ar
e blue, your dad is fine, so b cool. I know its cheezy but laugh K:]" (The flowers bit was cause when w
e were going out of school, I was distracting her by talking about random crap, tried her friends firs
t noooo she didnt seem interested, then flowers told her about daffodils and stuff..she ate it up talke
d heaps, smiled etc haha Also I figured that you know its a poem so she might take it two ways/or be un
sure) So what I ended up concluding is that theres a bunch of ways this could have gone: 1st way - she
really did have a family emergency and had to go
2nd way : I must of killed attraction before she made the call, that would only seem logical, I just ca
nt see it happening that way......there was so little time and Im usually damn good at getting girls to
magnetize so it seems random, I probably fucked up without knowing
3rd way: 2nd way applys here too, I fucked up terribly with the attraction and or comfort yada yada in
the 2nd way and made it worse after the call
She hasn't texted since. That means something haha
Thing is I didn't really go into pick up mode, wasn't planning ahead or anything, no routines jack shit
I was pretty much just being myself, except understanding what I was doing in terms of pick up so I may
have fucked up several times without really knowing, comments much appreciated!! _________________ Live. Learn. Love. 
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