Introduction
So lets start. Name is Metalhey im 21 years of age, nick name iv had for years. Eludes me of how i got it. I wouldnt say im new to Pickup but iv known about for almost a year, after reading The Game , like many other people here. It really opend my eyes to this....i guess whole other world.
I'm aweful with women. Like a threeheaded toad could get more pussy than me. not to say im a virgin , i was in a LTR for 2 years. Even before than i still sucked with women.

I have turned my life around within the last year. i use to be a big drinker, getting to the point of almost needing AA. But i took it upon myslef to get sober(almost a year sobriety baby) I started workingout and got in shape , lost the acne and beer gut. Cut the long hair for a more better look(not so homeless) and bought a bunch of new clothes which are nice. i have really been working on my inner game this past year and have noticed a big boost in my confidence and hell even girls are eyeing me and sometimes flirt with me.
This is great and all but...i have no outer game....

SO! i have decided to take it upon myself to keep a journal of my Journey.
I wont be doing night game cause i cant stand club or bars anymore. Ill be more doing Day Game. Working my way to Direct Game.

Areas That Need Work

-Approaching: Like most AFC i would consider myself in having extreame AA. Need to work on this. I need to man up and make that first approach. Make approaching apart of who i am. Thats the real Goal.

-Speaking Clearly I tend to mumble alot when i talk. I need to learn to talk more slowly and enunciate. Maybe record myself and see where i have trouble and alos try to practice tounge twisters everyday.

This is a self Journey , not to be better with women or to bang as many chicks as i can but to be the best version of me i can.

I tend to be working alot with my new job but i will try to keep this up to date as best i can.

Weekend

So i went out this weekend to do some christmas shopping, and thought i would practice some pickup. I went out mentally to have fun.
Sadly i couldnt drive to the city(i live in a small town) due to the roads being bad and closed so i headed to the closest Wal*mart.

I walked around for a bit and spoted a HB8 with a basket full of groceries, she was very cute. So i started to approach, my head went blank , heart raced and pussedout and turned down the other ile.
every encounter i did ended up like this. after 3 hours of this i decided to go home.

I decided to write down what made me not approach these women, what some people would call Phycological Blocks.
-Im afraid she might reject me
-She might laugh in my face
-i mumble and she might ask me to repeat myself and ill feel embarrassed
-She might slap me
-She will just walk away
These sound pretty lame and not sure why i care, usually i dont give a crap but when it comes to approaching women i just cant seam to.