Basically, I'm starting off from scratch. I'm 18 years old, with little experience with women at all. I'm still holding firmly on to my V-card, I've never been in an actual relationship, and my first kiss was about a week ago. AFTER I already started reading up on this stuff. So I guess that's a sign of progress at least. There is room for huge improvement and I'm nowhere where I want to be yet. All too often I'll see a cute girl and don't approach or even worse I'm with a friend and they point out HBs I didn't even NOTICE. I spend too much time stuck in my own head. I'm completely introverted for the most part until I'm around my close friends. In these situations I'm the funny guy, even sometimes the crazy guy. I gotta constantly balance these two sides of my personality.


Here are my goals:
Look/feel more confident
Get into better shape over the next few months
Meet Women in my everyday dealings
Be more extroverted in everyday situations w/out being the crazy, overboard guy.
Go out at least twice a week to sarge with no other plans/intentions than this. I'm gonna go for 5 #closes each time.
Distance myself from AFC behavior in general

Also, I have a long history of starting things and never finishing them so I need to get away from that.

Ok, so some points I've been improving on...

Posture: Instead of slouching and looking at the ground I've adopted a more firm, alpha posture.

Voice: In the past I've had trouble with being a mumbler. Now I've been developing more bass in my voice, trying to stay away from non alpha speech patterns like "um." and sounding more commanding in general.


When my head's up, my back's solid and my voice can be heard I not only look more confident, I actually feel it. Look alpha, think alpha, BE ALPHA.

The only problem is keeping it up. It's not exactly a habit to think that way yet, so even though it feels good I find myself more often than not slipping back into old habits.

Field work:
I thought I totally broke my approach anxiety. I started talking to random women about anything, just to get used to initiating conversation with strangers. While I found it was easy and natural to talk to them, when I approach with the intention of gaming its a totally different story. If I go with the three second rule it's not so bad, but thanks to a big crash n burn my first time sarging with a buddy, I'm a bit discouraged. I will post about this separately soon.

Re-initiated contact with someone met through mutual friends with cocky funny text and had a decent day 2. Posted about this but I'm not allowed links yet. I'll edit this to add links later.

Went on a blind double date out of spontaneity. It was fun and my new posture and voice made me feel like a king. Her attraction was pretty clear, she initiated kino and always looked up like she wanted me to do more. She is defiantly attracted, it's just up to me now to hold that attraction. Next time we meet up I plan on slowly escalating the kino further and attempting to anchor some of her good feelings to my touch. I'll post about this date and further encounters.

Keep it coming!