I'm not usually one to write out what I'm feeling, or even say what I really think. But I think that I need to learn to just be comfortable with myself, and admit how I really felt. I'm not sure If this is the right section to be writing this, but it is an experience I had today, not more than an hour ago actually.

I had just gotten out of class, not particularly in the best of moods, been a little stressed out lately. I headed over to a spot that some people I know sometimes hang out. I ran into one of my friends, and talked a little bit, just small talk, nothing significant. Someone came up and said hi to him and I introduced myself as well, then I introduced myself to another person, which was ok, didn't seem to be any real interest from me or the random girl i introduced myself to.
Here is where the feeling came in though, I suddenly found myself talking to nobody, my friend had joned a circle of people talking, and I seemed to just be standing there. It's not often I'm at a lack of words, though this time it was more of a lack of anything, didn't know what to say, what to do. It felt as though I barely existed, didn't matter at all. It was a terrible feeling. I think that I've gotten over this kind of thing as i grown a lot socially, and usually seem to do ok. (This doesn't include romantic/sexual, that's a whole different issue that I'm working on)

That feeling was just terrible, perhaps it was because I didn't really know anybody there to talk to, but that doesn't usually stop me, maybe it was because everyone was already in a group, leaving me feeling stranded like an island. I just felt uncomfortable, just pure discomfort. And that really felt bad.

So to be honest, I don't know if I even have a question, I just felt like I needed to express what i was feeling, and that it made me feel terrible. I just want to be comfortable, with myself, and with others. I just want to learn to not stress out, and just enjoy the things I do, the experiences in my life. I know that's what I have to do. I just don't know how. I guess that's all, thanks for reading.

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ya i know that feeling. its like a consistant dlv hanging over you. just be cool about it. dont let it phase you. if i was in that situation id just kinda ease myself on into the group. if it looked like i was gonna have to go out of my way to get in that circle of people then id just go find some other people to talk to. and just keep your cool the whole time. stay confident.