So here's my story.. I've always been somewhat insecure about my skills with women.. and likely quite insecure about myself in this regard.. I have never picked up a woman in a nightclub or bar, and can't say that I've ever picked up a woman, except for my first girlfriend at 18.. to whom I lost my virginity to. The majority of the time, the internet has been my source of dates and relationships.

However, consider this.. I've been with at least 50 women in my lifetime.. have dated some spectacularly beautiful women, been engaged twice and in love at least three times.. and had some awesome, mind blowing sex with most of them. I have been told on occasion that I'm the best they ever had sexually.. and I'm naturally skilled at this since I find the study of sexuality and sexual techniques interesting.

Nonetheless, that nagging insecurity still exists.. that pickup in not part of my skillset, and it is something I've decided to get handled. For the past few years, I've put it on the back burner because other things have gotten in the way like career and life in general.. but, as of today I've decided to make it one of my priorities, hence I'm writing this journal.

After having purchased "The Stylelife Challenge" book years ago, and watched it gather dust on my shelf, I decided to embark upon this program. I think the first step in obtaining the MLTR lifestyle that I desire is completing the missions each day, and building my skillset as I go. The challenge is supposed to be 30 days, but I will take however long it takes to complete the missions it asks for. I look forward to constructive criticism from you all. Cheers!

This one's called "evaluate yourself".. and poses three questions.. I'll post the questions and answer them below.

Write one or two sentences describing how you believe other people currently perceive you:

Hmm.. Within my family and relatives, I'm considered the black sheep because I refuse to get married and become a wage slave.. amongst my friends, most of whom are married, I think they somewhat envy my single status, however assume I lead a somewhat empty life.. which is partially correct.

Write one or two sentences describing how you'd like to be perceived by others:

Well, I don't tend to care what other people think of me.. but I do wish them to see me having multiple long term relationships.. a hedonistic lifestyle. This is what I wish for myself.

List three of your behaviors or characteristics you would like to change:

I want to be in amazing physical shape and health
I want to be in total control of my work ethic
I want to have total self control

List three new behaviors you would like to adopt

I want to be lethally charismatic
I don't want to take rejection personally
I want to be able to approach without too much anxiety