Hey! So I've been posting a lot around here but haven't posted field or lay reports. I'll admit that I'm kind of a keyboard jockey, posting without enough experience to back it up.

In my defense, I've been working hard on improving myself and it's been working. I recently turned 18, and its hard to get out to events until this age, so I'll be doing a lot more cold approach night game soon. Since I learned about PU I've been working on my inner game and social circles. I read The Power of Now on a recommendation from this site, and it has changed the direction my life was headed. I feel most confident when I'm in the now (which I firmly believe is the same as the RSD being "in state") and I've been consistently working to keep myself in it as much as possible.

I'm a senior in high school, and I should explain my history in it. Freshman year I was king of the losers. I had come to a high school that also offered elementary and middle school, so the ones who had been there longest had the most social proof. Rather than try to earn it, I was friends with the easiest people to befriend. I was social and energetic, and usually had a girl I was hooking up with. Sophomore year I lost much of my school circle (the whole situation was dramatic and childish) so I moved on to dating a girl from an out-of-school rowing club for about 15 months. I had oneitis for her through my junior year. During both sophomore and junior years, I worked hard on ceramic art, especially on a pottery wheel. I expect to follow this path for my career.

This summer I decided to work on my social skills and found this forum. Posting on it has become a sort of reminder to me, that I am still working on this aspect of my life, and I can't give up this time. I want my senior year to be preparation for a socially strong college experience. Every day I go to school now, I'm excited to be in the now and build a connection to my peers. I've been working harder on assignments, been more active athletically and in charity, and generally feel better about myself. I'm not a "popular" kid at school yet, but I'm working myself out of a rut that I worked myself into.

Most importantly I'm hopeful, but I don't expect anything. I focus myself into the present moment and it works really well. Weed (which used to be a "fun crutch," anything is fun while high) has become a way for me to feel my body more powerfully and anchor myself in the now. I see a really bright future ahead of me, and this forum has helped me achieve that.

I may or may not post field reports in this thread later, but thank you to anyone who read this post!