I guess latey I have barely seen girls at all, supposed to be hardout doing something! I am though, got an interview with A Uni for this year, girls are not even half as important.

I saw one, it was basically one shot, one kill! LOL. I went up to her after walking down a busy road and saw her for a bit and just told her: "Hey this probably is going to be like real creepy but I was practically stalking you for three blocks, I started to think about you a lot more than I probably should admit(something along those lines) and here I am."

She has big boobies, I point it out. She gives me some shit about age, I move past very well! We fluff all the norm, sexual bits etc. She offers to give me her number, she's basically a green light for sex. This could easily have been a lay report....lol

But I don't have any credit on my phone, a part of me doesn't want to continue the interaction lol. Too much effort, will the sex be really worth it??

This also makes me think, people talk about this apocalypse opener, basically stating "you wana fuck" in a very short period of time. I do this almost every time I go up to a girl lol. Im very flashy, humorous and direct, but almost always still seem to able to find normal place(fluff talk)

Come to think of it aswell I have on numerous occasions gotten girls to that place, where they want you, but are looking for you to make that final push. I feel I am a tease LOL. I get girls off all impressed by my charm and sex appeal, easy prospect of great sex. I then just walk off.

I need to take more risks in that sense, keep pushing for sex and moving things forward along those lines lol. 2013 Is going to be great and productive!! Girls are a sideline hobby, but time to improve once more! This time in the education department.

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Girls are fun, this is a pick up forum. But ever since I got laid last, I really haven't cared too much about finishing off lay report no 2...3 etc

I have goals for the next few years and I think it's also time for 2012 to be celebrated I did good in some places, ALOT of places (made some gains with the bod, improved a million times over socially, sexually, improved my drawing ability[understood more on anatomy], developed a solid positive mindset, Had some amazing times, learned more about life)

Now for 2013!

I also got accepted into the Uni after the interview, don't want to cross my fingers to say it's going to be an amazing experience. But I know it will be good! This is a very solid opportunity to a degree and a field that I enjoy!!

Im excited for this year

Goals:
-To see this year to the best of my ability
Just being happy and improving aspects of my life all round!
-To have balance (focus+discipline-being able to hold a routine)
Getting up a certain time every morning, meeting all of my workouts, drawing everyday, meeting all deadlines and not fucking around
-Drawing(My passion) To improve a million times over in 2013 (2 drawings anatomy everyday)
-Keeping a social BALANCE - girls are only fun, nothing more. Making new friends, but keeping life in perspective work+happiness>drawing>workouts>socializing

This year is going to be sickkkkkkk!! Things I have learn't lately:

Happiness is a choice; There is always a bright side to any dark day-Being unhappy is the easy option!

Focus+discipline: Holds so much value in life. Being able to train your brain to endure I understand is incredibly important.

There is only so much time on this planet, there are things I want to do, Life is about living and enjoying; Im ready to get this road rolling..I feel like one day I will enjoy all and life will become a pleasurable, blissful experience in every moment and experience no matter how bad or good with how do I say; a certainty. That's the ultimate goal

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Theres only so much time before Uni starts yet again, I am going to make the most of shit..

CEMENTING SOME PICKUP FOR TOMORROW (So I can't pussy out)

Lets do it, crazy balls to the walls, no giving two shits - LETS HAVE FUN!!! Taking risks is the objective, take risks all day!! Asking for sex; everything!!

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FEEELLLSS SO LONG AGO SINCE I FIRST DID A FULL DAY OF PICKUP......

And holy fuck. Man was it awesome, every girl I was with had potential!

First Girl(Blonde, quite attractive) basically made moves on me, sat next to me on the bus stop, we talked for ages, did everything in a usual interaction, sex talk, fluff, teasing, fun bits, everything lol(This is just on the way to the city)

At the city I started off with a dude haha. He was this huge bulky guy (NOT ME LOLLOL..Im also not gay lol) and I asked him about lifting, to see his opinion. True to my geniune interest, he told me sooo much and gave me some sweet valuable information. He also turned out to be an awesome dude, people are fucking awesome <3

There was this girl on the way up the main road in town just eating her sandwhich, there I come just going on a full out assault LOL. She loved it, gave me me props for doing what she said no guy has done, she did, however, bring up the boyfriend. This is were it gets fun, I continue anyway eventually stating I don't really care (The first girl had a bf and I did the same, god this shit is effective lol). She ate it up sooo good, then I told her lets just go out for a sandwhich sometime with this massive evil smirk on my face...Shes all like
yea I know your intentions then I ask her what they are..Then go on to ask oohh and what is the final activity as the result of those intentions(I love being bad) She realizes whats up and that Im a fun time for her. This is were she plays along, she says we can but only as friends. I then say sure(With a big smirk on my face) She then gives me her number(Im never going to call or text since we didn't have phones and I had to remember it, fuck that!! lol) we hug (friendly hug LOL )

The other was in a clothing shop and was a pretty well.... weak approach(Approach really doesn't matter but it set the tone and I would of had to dig myself of that, she did not seem worth it) she ended up after me in the bookstore that followed...The irony lol where Im hitting on the chick there and Im basically like "|its tradition to hit on the girls that work at that counter" The other chick comes, the other chick thinks it's a dare. I was just left lol, couldn't be stuffed

Then these other two German chicks, oh. damn. We were kissing in like 2 mins, broad daylight and I was kissing them both. This could of easily been a threeway LOL. It still could but like most girls I cannot be fucked to follow up (Like Biggie "If they aint chasin, Im replacin") My opener here was strong as fuck, I just blatantly said you guys are hot as fuck this all ensued, they let me do with them as I wanted. This was an easily lay, I gave them my number but I don't think I'll reply even if they do text.

Then the Korean who was leaving that day at midnight...I could write a book on this interaction LOL! This is the closest I have come to a same day lay as PUAS call it. To paint a picture it she referred to me as the dirty memories (In a good way LOL)

(Interaction lasted about 2-4 hours)

I met her at the park, she had a movie that she had to go to, I was smooth. I took her to a coffee where we did everything LOL. I was touching her everywhere, she was very receptive, we made out. The only thing is asian girls are very hard to read... (I'll come back to this after) Everything was an open book, we discussed sooooo much lol. I texted her friend after I SHOWED HER MY DICK IN THE COFFEE SHOP lmao. That was awesome, funny shit!! She was enjoying it, she didn't like her coffee but fed me some of it and I gave her some of my frappe. We then went to the park, were we found a quite spot and my hands were all over her, it was out of the public eye...But since I had no good solid logistics my goal was to fuck her ninja style in the park LOL. I told her several times over in her ear of how I was going to rip all her clothing off etc(VERY sexual) and there was the part were I had her leg over mine and was stroking towards her pussy and then actually stroking her pussy....She moaned and her body did that jolting thing that girls do when you can tell they enjoy it!

But to no avail every time I did something sexual she was like "Im going movies" etc...This chick was hot, with heels and shit lol. But I could tell she was just saying that(Coming back to the Asian unreadable expression deal, what the hell) I explained it to her I have a hard time reading her emotions, she told me it's not polite for Korean girls to show some expressions. Now she did return the touch smiled, moaned, her actions were saying one thing...Then her expression and how she would go quiet for a few seconds or push my hand away lol. We pratically looked like we had been going out for years, we were so comfortable with each other. Now the sex talk was graphic, we talked about cumming on her face, what she would like etc...She was smiling and going with it. God it was great, not to mention she missed her movie to spend that time with me. But after many attempts with stroking her pussy, teasing her nipples, I couldn't do it anymore! I was like I did my best, I stayed in for the whole run and pushed like a fucking champ.

She gave a Korean penny for me to remember her...Real sweed(that and a sweet goodbye smooch)

All in all my ego is in a terrible place, I was being cocky with a lot of these girls and they would validate me(Your handsome, amazing, I've never met a guy like you etc...)

I have a few things I could work on, but ultimately it's all practice thats needed and I most definetly took risks the ENTIRE time lol. Infact "taking risks is more like low risk"~Simple Pickup, so true!

Besides keeping my ego in check, Im fucking amazing LOL(joookkkeeess) But seriously I think Im moving towards becoming a master now. But as usually, girls are only my fun and today was incredible!

FUCKING LOVE PICKUP

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I feel proud of who I've become so far.

I know I will achieve a lot more in the future and there aren't any short cuts in life. Something in me feels alive, like theres a spark that won't go out, that can't be touched by anything or anyone. I constantly feel invigorated.

Girls...Have become exactly as I meant them to be - fun. I did what most guys didn't or were afraid to do. I have consistently done it and will probably do it my whole life. In University where I am now well I have to admit girls are easier and in more of their prime. These years are going to be fun as shit(Work still comes first) hehe.

I am more of a man then I would of imagined when I was in highschool. I feel everyday I get closer to my goals and Im only going respect myself even more as i achieve my goals. I will make my dad proud, he will be happy to see his son become a strong successful man.

University is the focus, all my efforts to make these years add value to my life forever. I will never lose my spark. I feel death (as dramatic as that sounds) is easier compared to fighting for it.

With that being said, now on to business.

This journal's purpose has been completed, Im not on the same journey anymore, much has changed. I view life differently.

I will save this one's, keep it some place safe. I has many amazing memories that I will keep forever.

I will make a new one, which has two things:

1) Goals, Focus (Lifestyle - social improvement and understanding - Keeping direction and improvement up in my life)

2)Girls - Just good dirty balls to the walls old fun. If Im fucking 2 at a time, I'll post it here. (Same if Im fucking 1 lol). Theres still room to improve here too.

This journal is for fun, something only of positivity and awesomeness of me being me and improvement in the areas above.

As always I love life, love who I am and who Im going to become.

It's good to be me

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