| Field Report Saturday 21th May 2011:
Ok sorry for areas which don’t make sense or grammatical errors, I’ve had a busy week and am very tired as I write this…
In the last Field report I mentioned how I feared a lack of progress in my learning and ability, this fear came to a head early on in my night with Jackal. Perhaps I need to relax more and enjoy the process. Either way based on my ability and performance or lack thereof with Jackal, I would never have guessed that major obstacles would come falling down later on in the night. I need to re-engage a fun dynamic to my time with Jackal. I’ve been focusing so much on training, training, training and searching for the next stage of enlightenment that my progress has been hindered. I need to make a chief definite rule. A rule that what I do with Jackal and what I am learning is purely for fun, pickup needs to return to being a hobby, not a desperate competition with myself. I also need to give myself more credit where credit is due since lately I have been considering a failed number close as a failure. It is not a failure it is a learning experience. I am finding that I am only basing my success on the amount of numbers I pull out, when in fact there are other variables and targets which are being met.
My body language is much better, my kino is much better, and I can hold conversations, frankly the only thing holding me back is my lack of concentration in set which leads me to forget to add DHV stories and to forget that certain personal characteristics need to be demonstrated to create attraction. I am beginning to go in without a solid plan, and this process begins a vicious circle which leads me to start asking where am I going wrong? Can I still do this? Where is my mojo? I need to stick to the plans and have fun executing them.
To the night at hand…in essence this was not a good night, due to my recent low feeling I came to the night feeling that this was a do or die session when clearly it is not; there will be other sessions, I can learn for as long as I like, there is no exam date! I need to relax more. With this negative framework in my mind I should have known that I would have a bad night lest I change my thoughts. My karma was being sabotaged by my own worst enemy; my AFC self who raised his ugly head! Either way, with this gnawing in the back of my mind I decided I would soldier on since I would not be alone in my struggle. I know that I can always count on Jackal to give me the push I need and I hate to fail him. I also needed to compose myself and change my mood because I had a date to attend later at 11pm with Laura from last week (Field Report: Friday 13 May 2011). If I were to conquer my anxiety of moving for a kiss close I would need all the positive energy I could muster.
We approached many sets; I was starting to feel better by that time anyway. My head was clearing and although I´d not tasted a number close I had been involved in some good conversations with numerous sets. I was proud for example that in one three set of, I think the terminology is “hired guns”, I went for a number-close which gave me major respect from guys around me since these three girls were the untouchables of the location and only I had the balls to approach and ask for a number. Despite failing all three had bright smiles and told me they were going to be working at the front entrance of a night-club called Gatecrashers selling tickets, and that I should find them and they would let me and a friend in for free.
Anyway, whilst Jackal and I were training outside of a pub we began talking to an old guy who was a regular at the pub. He told us his old stories of life such as being sent to prison for violence as a member of a football firm. AS we were talking to him, one of the bar girls came out to smoke a cigarette. She was hot, she didn’t look too friendly, but she was hot. Either way she and this old guy, Roger began some friendly casual conversation. At this point Jackal prompted me by whispering in my ear to ask Roger for permission before number closing this girl who I´d not even spoken to.
“Hey Roger, do you mind if ask your friend a quick question?” I politely asked as I leaned back slightly.
“No, go ahead.”
“Hey, me and my friend are leaving in a second but give me your number and we can catch up some time.” I didn’t expect it to work, I´d not even spoken to the girl. I took a quick sip of my drink to look cool and composed.
“Ok.” She said without hesitation. I swear I nearly spat the water out of my mouth into her face. I couldn’t believe she said yes.
“Erm…” I wasn’t expecting to actually get my phone out…”Nice one, ok slap your number into my phone…” She added her number and I prank called her. After receiving my call she excused herself and went back inside to work. I turned to Jackal.
“OMG man that was the easiest number-close ever! I didn’t even talk to her.” I said with excitement.
“Yea, but I set up a lot of social proofing and DHVed in the background for you. But you need to go back in there and make her remember you, otherwise the number will flake. Tell her that you asked for her number because Roger seemed to like her.”
“Ok man” I said as I walked back inside still puzzled by the apparent magical success. As I pushed open the large wooden doors to the pub I could see my target working behind the bar.
“Hey again, I just had to say that you are actually quite cute, and if Roger likes you then you must be worth getting to know. That’s why I asked for your number.”
“Aww ok, that’s sweet, you have a good night now.” She smiled as she scurried off to the nearest customer to avoid complaint, she was very in demand; it was a busy Saturday night and the pub was densely patronised.
“Wow Jackal, wtf just happened?”
“Don’t worry I´ll explain…” As we walked on to our next venue Jackal explained in detail what he had done “behind the scenes” and how it had made my number close completely fail safe. LOL nice one man very shrewd.
As the night went on things didn’t really pick up, to be honest the situation actually went downhill, my mood and determination included. I just couldn’t seem to shake off an uneasy feeling bubbling underneath the surface. I wish I could say that I fought the good fight and turned this dire situation around but I can´t, that would be just plain lying. My only consolation was the fact that I was still approaching, and still asking for numbers. The only problem was that with this residual feeling inside me, my inner game was not so bullet proof tonight and I will admit that as the rejections started to pile up, they did begin to affect my emotional state. Emotionally I felt like a boxer who through exhaustion and desperation simply walks up to his opponent with his gloves down and awaits the inevitable beat-down whilst hoping that through some miracle he might pull a rabbit out of a hat. My rabbit would not come, not yet at least…Perhaps though, if I hoped desperately and persisted tenaciously enough I would conjure something special.
The final stages of the night were the hardest, we finished slightly early, but as we were walking down towards The Jam House Jackal asked me to approach a really hot blonde girl, I did this and got about twenty secondes of conversation in before she completely lost interest. I stank of AFC and didn’t bother asking for the number.
“Go and number close that set right now!” Jackal demanded.
“Omg man she´s all the way over there…”
“I don’t care, ask for her number!” Jackal repeated. I really felt totally uncomfortable and unconfident but in response to Jackal I started to follow…
“Faster! Run!” I heard, but with each step closer to this girl the more I felt like some kind of predator, I remember thinking that since it was dark and she was alone that I would look completely like a sexual deviant.
For the first time I completely froze, no matter how much Jackal tried to get me to follow I just couldn’t do it. I felt like an absolute failure. My ego felt like it had gone fifteen rounds with a heavy weight boxer. It was broken and I was exhausted.
To cut a long story short Jackal and I ended up saying our goodbyes, I could tell he was disappointed, I was too but I wasn’t going to show my white flag yet, I still had a date in a night club at 11pm. I really wanted to prove myself, if Jackal were not there to see it, I would at least use his techniques as penance for my failure thus far.
THE DATE:
My shoulders slouched and my chest shrank as I walked back to the centre of town to the location where I would soon meet Laura again. I had to change my state so in a final attempt to salvage some sort of positive mood I recited some NLP lines that Jackal had developed for me. To a certain extent it worked, but my mood was so low that nothing short of a miracle would be enough to raise me to my normal confident levels.
Laura had invited me out last weekend on the Sunday after I had met her via text message:
“Me n my friends are going to Vudu on Saturday, wanna come? Xx”
I had agreed, she was hot and I would not pass up a girl who had just given me such an IOI, or at least I thought I would not pass up such an offer but as events transpired I nearly did.
As I carried on walking down the street I looked at my watch, it was 10:55 I only had five minutes to put myself into the zone and turn on the juice. I was nearing the club as my phone vibrated. It was her!
“I don´t think we are coming now …”
WHAT?! How dare she? This was exactly the kick up the backside I needed! Like some kind of soldier who through training responds automatically to danger with calm, professional composure, I switched back into my Alpha male persona. This was out of order and I would not tolerate this! I called her.
“Hey!” I said with my strong alpha-man voice. “You need to make a decision right now, I will give you one more chance but I need an answer right now because I don’t have time to waste! Ok, either you come out, or I go straight home and you will never hear from me again.”
“I’m sorry but I was thinking about coming on my own though…” she said submissively, I had her where I wanted her, if I could maintain this authority Jackal talked about I can pull this off.
“Where are you?” I probed sternly
“About 20 mins from the centre, I am at a mate’s house.”
“Ok, if you decide to come, I will give you one more chance and I WILL wait for you ok, but I will only wait for one hour. Otherwise tell me right now that you are not coming and we will say our goodbyes…”
“No, no, I’ll come on my own, it’s ok…”
“Ok then, are you sure? I don’t have time to be messed around.”
“Yea, yea I’ll come…” she said apologetically.
“Ok I will see you in one hour, no later.” I made a point of emphasising “no later”.
So I waited, the phone call had really put me into state, like I have said before, I pride myself on being a man who thrives under pressure. She would come, I knew it. Confirmation of this came in a text shortly after…
“Me and my mates are on the way xxx” Good. I would see her soon.
After waiting in a nearby bar I finally got a text from her telling me that she and her friends were all inside the club so I made my way over. Automatically my posture raised, my back straightened and my shoulders swept back. She would see my at my finest! I would maintain the authoritative frame I had built and she would follow my rules. (OMG was this me? Who the hell is this Diamonds guy that Jackal has created?!)
I met her at the entrance after I paid. She had been waiting for me a few minutes. I smiled and walked over to her proudly looking into her eyes. Wow she was hot, but her beauty didn’t intimidate me.
“Well, glad you could make it after all.” I spoke calmly and slowly.
“Yea I´m sorry about that, I was always going to come alone anyway, you didn’t need to call…”
“Well I wanted to make sure, I´m a busy guy. Let´s put this behind us.” “Now…” I said as I transferred my voice back to its friendly self “…where are your friends? Introduce me?” I put my hand on her lower back and guided her forward prompting her to find her friends. She bought two friends with her that night which meant I was about the only guy there with three hot girls accompanying me.
“Where are your friends?” Laura asked.
“I didn’t bring them, I wanted you girls to myself.”
“OMG, you’re so bad!” She kinoed my arm.
Her friends were both really great, they were both friendly and possessed a grace and sexiness of their own. I felt like a PUA, and I was feeling the confidence. But I remembered, I was here to for fill an objective and I needed to get to work! The night was rolling on.
With a laissez faire attitude I went to work on charming my obstacles…Es wird etwas geschehen!
Jackal tells me time and again that as well as an alpha maleness I also have a gentlemanly manor about me that I should use to my advantage. This I did, I told stories and ran my personal routines of life stories I had recited to flip the attraction switches. Bruce Lee said that a good fight should look like a short play, with a beginning, middle and an end, whilst containing the very best plot twists and turns. He was right, but I learnt this night that the metaphor can be extended to pickup.
I ignored Laura a bit, I would make her wait for me, she should invest in me.
“Let´s all go and dance!” One of her friends shouted after we had all bought drinks. Only one, I would not get drunk.
We made our way to the dance floor and all four of us danced, it felt good to be in the centre of these girls, I could see the other girls as they looked my way thinking “who the hell is that guy?” At this point I decided to give Laura some attention, I took her hand and spun her a few times.
She leaned into me, “I´m a really bad dancer!” she shouted. I know what she wanted, I would giver her what she asked.
“No, you look great, don’t worry.” I rolled off and danced with her two friends.
One of her friends, the leader of the group pulled me off the dance floor back to a lounge area where the noise of music was not so loud. Laura´s other friend followed, but told Laura to stay on the dance floor. My spider senses were tingling…something was afoot.
“So, you’re here to meet Laura?” They both asked.
“Yea I am.” I responded.
“How did you meet her?”
“I met her last week at Wetherspoons, I asked for her number and here we are.”
“She never gives her number out…” The leader said. She and her friend leaned in close to me.
“You do realise she really fancies you right?! Because we don’t know what’s going on. She never gives her number; we seriously thought she was a lesbian or something!”
I had received IOIs from the start but I played dumb, “No I didn’t really notice, so she fancies me?”
“You fucking what?! Of course she does, she’s been talking about you all week! You’re fucking gorgeous, if she wasn’t my best friend I’d be after you right now! ”
“What? I had no idea. But how do I know you aren’t saying this for a laugh?” I played really dumb.
“Look, just get in there right now, she’s my best friend I want her to get a good guy! She fancies you, we’ve never heard of her giving out her number! We only came out because she was desperate to see you, we aren’t having a journey wasted because you are playing hard to get!” She began frustratingly shaking me like I was small child. She was being sincere.
“Now…” she said “Get on that dance floor and I want to see some tongue action!”
Ok, Jackal…err…I mean Stacey…
Well, surely I could not get any more confirmation than that. I was planning to work a bit more kino and start touching Laura´s body a bit more before actually going in for the kiss but fuck it; I decided to accelerate my pace.
I calmly walked over to where she was dancing and put my hands gently on her hips. I got into sync with her movements before turning her to face me. I remember her looking into my eyes expectantly; they were right, she really did like me, I could tell she wanted me to kiss her. As we swayed I felt myself slow down, she reciprocated in rapport. We carried on looking into each others eyes. I could hear a voice in my head which sounded an awful lot like Jackal. It was telling me to pull the trigger. I placed my finger on her forehead and slowly wiped her hair from her eyes before sliding my finger down her cheek until it was under her chin. The electricity was explosive as I lifted her chin and leaned in towards her lips. She closed her eyes, a good sign. Our lips touched briefly before I pulled away. Her mouth fell open and I went in again. This time it elevated into a French kiss and finally I felt a major barrier disappear.
Following about five minutes of standing on the dance floor kissing I pulled away and led her, hand in hand, off the dance floor back to her friends who had stood and watched the whole event.
“Next time don’t play hard to get!” Stacey the leader commanded jokingly before rewarding me with a kiss on the lips herself.
The night panned out brilliantly from there on in, we briefly kissed numerous times during the night but the last major kiss came as we said our goodbyes.
“Ok, it was great seeing you again Laura”
“Yea…” Make her remember you before you leave was one of Jackal’s pieces of advice before he left me.
“Give me a kiss…” I felt so confident. She complied.
“We have to do this more often, I’m free nearly every night, will you call me?” She begged.
“I´m am busy, but for you I´ll see what I can do ok.”
“Ok.”
“Well, I´ll see you next time, your ride is waiting…”
“Bye.”
Ah Jackal this was a team effort I couldn’t have done this without you man! Thanks for everything you taught me so far!!
I feel great and I am due to meet her again on Tuesday. OMG that’s tomorrow! Then I am meeting Alice on Thursday!
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