Lol yeah I've seen that. Vitaly is awesome. And thanks, I guess I have certainly become better since I started out ~19 days ago. I look forward to improving even more over the next 19.

Day 19
Today I went to the mall with the intention of approaching one girl directly, saying something like, "hello, you're beautiful and I wanted to meet you", and let it roll from there. I got there and pussied out so many times and ended up doing a resounding 0 approaches! Lol but I'm not even that sad about not approaching anyone, at least I got out there and tried, right?

Tomorrow my goal is to approach 1 girl directly!

Until tomorrow

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Day 19

Yay! We both <3 Vitaly! We have something incredibly awesome in common, don't we? Not only do we share a similar path with PUA mastery--we share similar interests on YouTube hahaha.

Okay, that above paragraph was a bit lame (forgive me for that), but I feel kind of "wacky" today, so let's do something new, shall we? (Do not read unless you're willing to accept this new option of being!) This new thing is:

What (best) does it look like as you successfully do everything right to approach ten women today and make her smile? (I know you're not doing ten--but its for preparation, not the actual exercise hah )

If you want to get this shit handled, download a copy of Audacity, record yourself asking this question (in an upward tonality!), select the audio you just recorded, then press "Shift + Space."

(the question playing on repeat for me right now is "How best do I give Positron the option to take control of his life in the best most effective way possible, so that he may become the VA/PUA Master who makes five relationships from five consecutive approaches now?" This question, though long, is easy to answer because of its specificity AND because the computer actually takes the legwork out of asking it a billion times)

Then, as you listen to this question play on repeat, write down everything that comes to mind. Get multiple colors, paper (big paper, if possible), and then sketch, write, mind map, outline, whatever--just get your thoughts from this question DOWN on paper.

Required Reading, Too: Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz, M.D., F.I.C.S. This explains the basis of the question, too, and can easily be downloaded in PDF format.

Once you do this and post your results, I will explain as quickly as I receive your update about why this works

Your Bro,

Aaron

P.S. As you read this, you may consider that you now become your ultimate self!

It looks like me approaching women and telling them that they're gorgeous and beautiful and that I'd like to meet them. We're both smiling and I flirt with them and ask for their number and maybe they say yes and maybe they say no but I've still made a gorgeous girl smile which is an awesome thing.

Day 20

Today was the same as yesterday. I went to the mall, walked around, pussied out of approaching a bunch of times and left. At least I showed up and tried. Tomorrow my goal is to approach 1 girl.

Until tomorrow

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Day 20 Observations
Well, this tells me a lot about the way you think haha! I'm happy you wrote that down.
I hope you're still punching those zeroes into your Excel sheet! Today will still be a success if you: 1) Punch in those numbers and observe your charts (observing changes the observed, remember?), and 2) Still do the objective observations of your day

I'm still excited that you post! I'm here to support you unconditionally.

Your bro

Aaron

Thanks, Aaron. Your support means a lot to me, seriously.

Day 21
So today I had the goal of approaching one girl. I looked really sharp today so that boosted my confidence and I went to the mall. Right when I walked in I saw this seriously gorgeous girl looking at shoes and I was SO close to approaching her but my fight or flight instincts were reacting like crazy and I just couldn't. So I kept walking. I did an entire loop of the mall, and I mean in this in all sincerity....not one hot girl. Of course, there were a few hot girls walking with guys or other girls, but I'm not prepared for that quite yet. Time was on my side today so I even did another loop around the mall and saw one more girl and I pussied out of approaching her lol. As I was leaving I was thinking, "damn, I was actually so ready to do it today but there were practically no girls to talk to". I leave the mall and there in the parking lot, walking towards the mall entrance, was a babe! By herself; perfect situation. So I did it!!!!

I walked up and said, "excuse me? Hi, you're just absolutely gorgeous and I had to come meet you".She was quiet at first and then gave a short laugh after I said that and we introduced ourselves. I'm taking (hoping) that laugh to mean that she can't believe I actually said that (in a good way). We made small talk for like 3 minutes or something and, Jesus Christ, I was nervous. She said that she's a secretary and I told her, "you're a hot secretary". I don't remember how she responded but after the initial conversation died I just said, "yeah, so, it was nice meeting you," touched her on the shoulder and left.

Things I did well:
- Finally approached a girl directly! No bullshit.
- Made good eye contact.

Things I need to improve:
- Need to get better at conversing with people.
- Make better eye contact.
- I need to not immediately jump to a new conversation topic when the conversation dies. When the conversation dies I can just look at her in the eye and not say anything, which shows that I'm not nervous, while I take my time in thinking of something to say, if she doesn't try to re-start the conversation.

So today I did well! It took me three days, but I finally approached a girl. I'm not happy with how the conversation went, but conversing wasn't today's goal. Looking back, I should have asked for the number anyway, but no big deal.

My minimum goal for tomorrow is 1 girl, target: 3, outrageous: 10.

Until tomorrow!

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Day 21 Observations

I am so pumped! You're back on the roll, man! Seriously, that first "fight-or-flight" response was to "prime the pump" for you next successful approach! (Note: I'm now going to say "screened" instead of "approach" per the wisdom of 50+% of the PUA's in the community).

You screened her! You screened her! You screened her!

You are outstanding, man. You're doing something that few will ever do, and you now progress more than many ever willl! I'm freaking proud of you, man!
I appreciate your appreciation, seriously
Hahaha I LOVE these situations! And I LOVE that you did it!
Good start!
Awesome, man! Maybe you might want to choose just to speak out EVERYTHING that's on your mind the next time you interact with her (like, "I feel a bit excited--"which, by the way, is what nervousness actually is ).
Besides the actual content of these two lists... I'm happy that you're doing these lists! It's one of the most freeings things you'll ever do, because EVERY interaction is fun and valuable (because you always learn a lesson if you do this!)
I am so freaking happy right now! You are building yourself into the perfect master Pickup Artist (or, as Mystery and I call it, "Venusian Artist"), and I'm incredibly excited for your consistent growth! This is an incredible sight to witness, and I look forward to what you bring to the table next

Also, would you like an idea? I'm willing to go all in with you for this, as well. Here's the idea:

The people who have created the most in this world have expressed an incredible attachment and love for "accountability" or "leverage" or "public commitment." So, in order to be great, perhaps it might be an awesome idea to model them?

The thing, though, is that it might not be easy to do this right now... because you've never done it before, right? So, I was thinking, "How can we make setting accountability for Positron easier?" And here's what I came up with:

I want to use http://www.StickK.com, a world-renowned accountability site where you can choose to just make a commitment (or, preferably, put money on the line) for ANY habit or task you wish to change. Once up there, you need to check in every week and tell the website (or have a referee tell the website) that you did or did not complete the task.

But, instead of you going alone into the kick-ass world of accountability, here's what we can do:

1. I would like to be your "referee" on the website (a single look through the website will explain all)
2. I want to put my own money ($40 on the line/week) on the line for this task, "Positron screens at least 1 woman every day from now until [two months from now] "
3. I want to do anything that you're doing WITH you

As an alternative option, we can do Rules of the Game together via StickK.com, but I leave that up to you (I've already done it haha).

Let me know what option you choose to do! Look forward to hearing your answer!

(Converse tomorrow? )

Your Homie,

Aaron Bell

I like your idea! But if you're my referee, how would you know whether or not I'm completing the tasks or not? I mean, I'm going to tell the truth of whether I actually do it or not, but how would you know that?

Thanks for everything Aaron! Btw, I still haven't received Rules of the Game...

Day 22
Today I went to the mall again with the goal of approaching 1 girl. Today I was even more nervous than yesterday. I did 2 walk arounds and talked to no one . Oh well, I'll approach one tomorrow for sure! And with Aaron's idea of StickK, I'm certain I'll start approaching girls more regularly!

Until tomorrow

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Day 22 Observations
I trust you Also, it would literally rot your soul if you would lie on here (I've seen it happen; especially with me when I was too afraid to express the truth at one point).
I appreciate the appreciation! And that is BS!! Haha--we need to get this shit started
Positron, I've already created a StickK commitment, so I NEED you to approach women today (or as soon as you get this) hahaha

I know the risk, but I'm totally excited to do this, because you're one of the most consistent motherfuckers I've ever seen! Every day you get out and go.

Just, whatever you do as these two weeks come, always, always, ALWAYS be honest. I would rather pay $40 than for you not to be honest with me, alright?

Also, I've done my part haha! Are you going to make your StickK commitment for yourself?

Look forward to seeing the results of this! I'm so pumped!

Your Bro,

Aaron

Yeah haha if I lied to all of my two readers about picking up girls that would literally serve no purpose lol. No, of course I won't lie, it would certainly rot my soul if I did lol.

Yep I'm going to make the commitment soon!

Day 23
I can't believe I'm on day 23. I read my posts from day one the other day and I am way more confident now than I was at the time. Still nothing great yet, I have A LOT left to learn, but I'm happy with my progress so far. I expect to see it double over this month.

Today I went to a different mall with the goal of approaching a girl. It was smaller so it didn't have many people, but I saw like two hot girls that I could have talked to but pussied out of. I left the mall feeling disappointed because I was actually prepared to do it after pussying out those few times.

So, I decided I'd drive to one more mall and get the job done. I did one walk around and saw pretty much no opportunities. Most hot girls I saw were with friends, one walked ahead of me out of this store but I didn't want to do an approach from behind yet. I saw one really really cute girl walk past me on the phone and we made eye contact for a good two seconds and then she looked away. I waited a second and looked back and she was looking at me again! From now on, if a girl even looks at me more than once, I'm taking it as a signal to approach. Even if she's on the phone, I can just say, 'hi' anyway and tell her to hang up the phone. If she's interested then she will.

So, after missing that opportunity I completed my walk around. I saw a few girls but after looking closely at them I kept getting these whirl of thoughts saying, "just do it" and on the other hand, "she's not that hot though. I only want to approach the really hot ones". And I still don't know if I didn't approach because I actually thought she wasn't hot enough or because I was getting the 'bitch butterflies'. Anyway, as I was heading towards the mall exit, I was thinking, if I see one more girl by herself I'm going to have to go for it, because there won't be any more so close to the exit. As I was thinking that, one emerged. Another perfect situation. With barely any hesitation, I approached.

Me: "Excuse me. You're really beautiful and I wanted to meet you."

Her eyes go wide in shock, not awe, and she stares at me.

Her: ...

Her: ...

Her: ...

Her: ...

Her: "Thank you..."

Me: "Oh, ok" and I left.

I got rejected bad there and I think I know why. I realized after I approached I was talking really quietly. Like really fucking quietly. I'm actually not even sure she fully heard me, she probably just heard "beautiful". I'm pretty sure this was why I got rejected, but oh, well. Don't care, it was good practice and I learned to speak up the hard (but good) way.

So, I completed my goal for today!

Things I did well:
- Approached.

Things I need to improve:
- Speak louder.
- Better eye contact.
- Think about what I say before I say it. Saying "oh, ok" sadly comes off as super needy and just stupid. It's not something I would ever say normally though, it was just 100% a nervous reaction that I had literally no control over saying. I need to be more calm and think more in these situations so as to minimize these reactions.
- Stop thinking about excuses as to why I don't care that I got rejected. On the drive home I kept thinking, "well, she's not even that hot anyway, so I don't care" or thinking up other excuses. No. I got rejected plain and simple, it doesn't make it any better or worse how she looked. I just got rejected because she didn't like me. If I speak louder I can lower the chances of these types of encounters occurring.

Until tomorrow

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Day 23 Observations'
Hahaha that's the most awesome conversation ever! This conversation is one of the gallons of cement that's used in your game haha--the more gallons you pour, the larger/stronger your foundation will be

Let me follow up with you more tomorrow--this shididdle's not easy when you first start out, so there might be something fun for you to try out in here in a bit

Your Bro

Aaron

P.S. You probably love yourself for actually getting yourself to speak with her, don't you?

Positroooon!! Haha keep it up, man! Always keep this in the back of your mind:

I am! Thanks, Aaron.

Day 24
So today I got a big haircut. I had long hair covering my face and today I got it all cut off. It makes me look cleaner, but I'm not used to seeing my face so blatantly lol.

After I got my haircut I went to the mall with the goal of approaching a girl. As I was walking, I don't think I saw one girl that I had an opportunity to pussy out of. Well, maybe one.

I was walking and this cute girl that worked at a tea shop said, "try some tea?" I figured fuck it, and walked over and the following conversation ensued:

"If I have some tea will you give me your phone number?"

"Haha, are you serious?"

"Yes."

"How old are you?"

"20." (I'm 19, I don't know why I said 20).

"But I have a boyfriend."

"Ohhhh, you all do. What's his name?"

"... Jason."

"Ah, you hesitated there. Oh well, you're cute, what was I supposed to do?"

"Haha, thank you. Do you work here?"

"Nope."

"But I've seen you here before."

"Have you? I doubt that. I had really long hair until like 2 seconds ago. I just got it all cut off."

"Oh. Well, it looks good."

"Thanks. Well, have a nice day."

After I walked away I realized I probably could have got her phone number if I would have just asked one more time! She was smiling the whole time and we were getting along really well. I should have just pulled out my phone and said, "so, what is it?" Lesson learned (again) if you remember the last encounter I had with an employee at the mall.

So I walked to the end of the mall and back and saw a cute girl working at a pretzel stand. So I walked up and said the same exact thing as last time, literally no hesitation. I looked at the menu, "can I have... your phone number?"

"Haha, no."

"Why not?"

"I have a boyfriend."

"What's his name?"

"Mike." Hardly any hesitation.

"Ok. Have a nice day."

I didn't really care if I got the number in either situations by the way, I'm just doing it to get used to approaching hot girls and saying what I want. So I think today went well.

All of this happened before noon though and I could have went to the beach all day and approached girls. But when I got home for some reason I was just really depressed. Sometimes I just feel down for no reason. But I lost all motivation to do literally anything. So I just stayed inside and watched pickup videos all day and started to re-read Models. A good thing is that I'm starting to get urges to go out and talk to women.

My goal for tomorrow is at least one girl.

Things I did well:
- Had a good conversation with one girl and asked another for her number. I'm getting better at being direct!
- Good eye contact.
- Good voice projection (didn't fall for yesterday's pitfall of quietness).

Things I need to improve:
- Be persistent. If she's still smiling, persist for the number and don't leave!!!

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P.S. It's been one month and one day since I stopped watching porn. Ever since I decided to stop I've had almost no temptation to even watch any! Of course I've wanted to a few times, but I've fought the urges and now it hardly even comes. I've also stopped masturbating regularly (used to do it ~5-6 times a week, sometimes more) and only do it once a week now. I think stopping completely is unhealthy, and, unless I'm getting laid on a weekly basis (hopefully soon), I need to get rid of this excess sperm. So I'm proud of myself for that.

More thoughts:

It's funny. I used to think I had it bad. I thought looking at porn and jacking off 5-6 times a week was bad. Whenever I occasionally jacked off twice in one day I felt even worse. Not because I'm religious or anything (I'm not, at all) just because I feel like a huge loser whenever I look at porn. I don't know if this has ever happened to you, but the few times it really hit me how much of a loser I felt like was when my computer screen would go dark and I could see my reflection. I could see my face looking at my screen and my hand rubbing my dick. It's so weird to see yourself jacking off. This was something that always made me feel like a loser.

But, then I found out that there are some guys that jack off 3 times a day EVERY DAY. Jesus christ, I can't even imagine living like that. I've jacked off three times in one day I think twice in my whole life. Three times, tops. And I was just really really bored and horny those days. So I realized I didn't have it that bad.

Until tomorrow

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Day 24 Observations

Fuuuuck yeahhhh, Pos! You are doing outstandingly! I'm so freaking excited for you (+2 girls today than yesterday!) PLEASE tell me you tracked this, because it's gotta feel good getting some "positive" numbers.

Seriously, you're creating a skill that will literally be with you for the rest of your life. Once you get this down (with a little bit of maintenance every now and then), you have it for freaking ever!

And you are obviously applying the fuck out of Models lol! Because the haircut as well as the masturbation tip are soooo two things that I applied myself from there!
Notes on the haircut: Helll yes! Though I'm not against the long hair (if you pull it off, you can be freaking awesome with it), I'm just very, very aware of the power of a nice haircut. I got a celebrity-style haircut one day down in Atlanta for a whopping $65 (inspired by Rules of the Game, not Models though ), and I felt FANTASTIC. I had literally spoke with and made out with one of the hottest girls I could see (at the time), and it felt freaking amazing! Awesome idea with the haircut!

And for the girl--you're progressing WAY more nicely than I was when I first started out! As soon as you experience the "opening in your emotional window," CRANK THAT SHIT AND GO--like you do here
One day you will walk through a blast furnace with the ultimate heat shield that 99% of other men will never have!! The first "really hot girl" I approached took a decent 10 hours of studying NLP and David DeAngelo for me to fully interact with her for the 30 seconds I did.

Now it's nbd deal to the max. I actually now feel more comfortable with beautiful women than I EVER will with "normal people."

And P.S. I'm nineteen, too! I used to do the "I'm 20/22/24 thing--but you really can just forget about the age thing haha. If you're attractive, you're attractive (and legal), age doesn't really matter if you really know what you're doing
You have a negative anchor! Collapse that shit IMMEDIATELY! Uhhh--I wish I could talk with you face-to-face because I could totally help clear that shit from you!!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Get some Tony Robbins in yo brain naaaooowww!

You're watching/reading some kickass material! You're reading/watching something that most (90+% ish) of men will never read!
Easy! I wouldn't bet $40 if I didn't KNOW you would do it
Women behave like waves (or turn signals). If you imagine a woman as a sine wave on a chart (with the horizontal axis being time and the vertical axis being mood or quality of responses toward you), you only need enough time to observe the whole array of her emotions

Which can be both bad in that you're BOUND to receive some kind of negative emotion from her, yet good because it's only a matter of time before you experience awesomesauce from her again
Notes on masturbation: Dude (TMI here lol), after doing kegal exercises for a while, I never, NEVER ejaculate anymore--so, if you're fucked as far as sperm goes, then I especially am fucked hahaha.

As far as feeling like a loser, my ex-friend wacked off 6 times a day--which is pretty fucking intense. he probably had zero sexual energy at the end of the day (though maybe he had more, because he "trained" himself, lol)

Also, I only JUST started to really apply Mark's suggestions on masturbation, and I've gotta say that it's fucking night and day--even with my old one week habit! His thoughts on cranking it out to girls you've already met PLUS the ten-minute-plus idea totally, totally transformed this personal activity forever for me.

Mark Manson's a genius in that he transforms the way we look at things... permanently. He's also a genius in letting me know that I CAN picture women in their underwear and giving me blowjobs as well as me fucking them senseless with some insanely positive reactions (I used to ONLY ask "What (best) is beautiful about her?..." not "What does her 'O face' look like as I fuck her stupid?")

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Overall, I'm very pleased with the results today! You're freaking outstanding, Positron, because you're the guy who always takes the next step. You're the evolving person I've always thought you were at Day 1 (you've made a lot, a LOT of progress here). You're the type of person, as I now see it, who does that one thing a day that scares you, who does whatever it takes to elevate yourself (and your game) to the next level.

You are one epic motherfucker in the making. You are all that is man because I witness more f***ing potential within you than I've seen out of 98+% of the people I will see i my every day life (hell if it's not a hundred percent of everyone else)

You've literally inspired me to up my own game, because I predict that you will exceed me and all of the "gurus" when your time comes--which is really fucking soon (I have my own number--and you might think it's "really short," but I have a hard time believing that your ultimate self shines through at any time that's not earlier than that).

Seriously, everything about you screams genius. I don't care what shit's going on in your head (like the negative anchor mentioned earlier), but the immediate minute that you resolve the silly little things like that (which CAN seem like big things in the moment... but they're really small things--they're ALWAYS small things--that can make a huge difference when eliminated).

I am 110% pride at the moment as I'm reading your post, because you're one of the most epic beasts that any human has ever created, and I'm really excited to see where this goes next.

Look forward to your next post, Pos, because this is gonna get real good, real fast!

Converse with you tomorrow, Bro.

Your Bro!

Aaron

Wow, that really means a lot to me. It's so awesome that you can see much good in me. It makes me really motivated. Thanks, Aaron.

Day 25

So today I didn't approach any girls. Not because I was too scared, but because I actually couldn't! I was (am) stuck at home all day because everyone else is gone and I have to stay with my dog who can't be left alone. So I literally can't leave or else my dog will eat a ton of shit, lol.

One thing though: I walked my dog twice today. The first time I saw nobody. The second time I walked past two kind of cute girls, but I was on the phone. Then I walked by another cute girl, definitely approachable, but SHE was on her phone and on the other side of the road. That is all.

Here is my chart thus far btw:



Until tomorrow

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Day 25 Observations

Noooooooooooo! I'll lose forty dollars, man!

Seriously--go approach a girl NOW! Pleeease!

$40 ;.; Don't make my bet not worth it!

Your Bro,

Aaron

P.S. I'm still here to support you unconditionally--no matter what happens after tonight.