11/12

Okay i swore i already posted this

Before hand: No meditation, no adderall today, no masturbating, the only thing was that I had like 2 or 3 beers and a shot of jack throughout the night

Also t his might have been one of the best and weirdest nights of my life

Show up to bar #1. Grab a drink, jump into a set of two girls. start talking about stuff...blah blah okay this was a a nice converation

went on started talking to this other girl or two...i remember one of them not being receptive claiming to have a girlfriend blah blah...they were just being frustrating

so i leave this venue jump over to the one next door

bar #2 right next door

i go in, go get another drink at the bar, i see this girl next to me, i tap her her head falls on my shoulder. we chat...she starts dancing up on my while i'm sitting on this chair. she calls me a baby and tha ti'm cute and whanot. eventually she's like buy me a shot and then we'll have sex and you can see my friend's left boob...

at this point i'm like huh wtf...i didn't buy her the drink and ignored her

I went up to this other girl, she blew me out telling me that i look 15 and kept walking away

I then went up to this group of girls said something for a minute because i was smoking, thew the cigarette out went back inside

i started talking to this other girl...i tapped her on the shoulder, brought her over we talked for a bit she introduces me to her boyfriend

another girl i started holding hadsn with and then i felt a wedding ring

this other girl told me she was married too....but it was stupid because she had no wedding ring on, i called her out on it couldn't hear what she was saying

I then start to leave...i say some joke to one girl because she was walking up the street alone and guys were just shouting at her and i thought it was hilarious

anyway these people in front of me say they are gonig to this dorm where i live next to

i get on the cab with them...they were 3 girls

we go to get food


WEIRD as fuck experience getting food...just the weirdest fucking thing ever in the world..i don't even want to talk about it

The girl was with 2 people much older visiting her

i probably could've gotten with the girl who was my year if she didn't just eat 3 baconaters...i was just grossed out..i'm wondering how she's in shape if...yuck

anyway she and one of the older girls get split up from me and the other older girl, i walk her back to where she was staying

but this was some weird and messed up stuff right here...

12/2
okay really fucked up...now with the cold approaches

approached this one, not much talking just us looking at one antoher and smiling and giggling really flirty vibe going on despite the lack of communication..lasted for a while then friend comes in saying she has aboy friend and literaly 2 seconds later i was inthe same situation with the friend...random flirty vibe without much talking.when i gave her a hug she was like "where you trying to kiss me" i'm like if i were trying to kiss you i already would've with that smile on my face we talked for a bit and whatnot she told me she has a boyfriend and introduced me to him...didn't really care i felt bad for her because her boyfriend was wearing an american eagle sweater...what is he like 8 years old? a little while later she comes up to me to talk to me i kind of ust ignore her a bit umm i approached some mroe but nothing really substanial

i did have some converatioj with 4 other girls.
wierd i dnt get why so mamny girls think i'm hitting on them when i talk to them


ther were other girls here and there but nothing really serious beyond some random bante

the only other girl ill include was some girl i was talkng to some cheerleader when she was in college and under 5 foot okay tht as enough to mkae fun of her we spoke for a pretty good time but then she was likei have to go f ind austin....umm okay

the adderoll, i know two guys who use it and they are not actively dating. imho, adderoll is a crutch, and it's better to learn to control your anxiety focus rather than use it.

meditating - thats good. keep it up. there is probably group meditation on your campus. search online, contact the student center for other group activities on campus too and go.

stop going to bars. you are in college. why get blown out by chicks at bars? you are just reinforcing negative beliefs and all that unnecessary venue related rejection might reduce your confidence in the future. sign up for dance classes and go to all the clubs at your college. yes. be the awkward stranger. but go. dress up. and go to clubs and meetings at dance classes at your college and smile and say hi how are you to strangers.

and you are not a nerd - you are a young man who is new at dating women and your intellect will help you and set you apart from other guys.

okay it's been a while since I've gone out...i'm in nashville for the semester doing a bit of research in some science stuff

1/13

I approached like a mother fucker...i needed to build some social momentum

I went to this one place...i pushed this one girl to her limits and finally got out of my head after a ridiculous blowout

started talking to a bunch of people after that

left the place went to a bar where friends of mine were at.

Had fun there...got two makeouts and had another girl add me on facebook...but i've been shittested like crazy tonight

i had trouble hooking today...about 3 of them did so

1/14

went to another venue...i hate clubs...so i hit one up lol...okay i just sat at the bar and talke dup girls that came near me...approache dlike 8 of them...of course i was riduclously in my head...so afterthat I dedicded to just go for it nad get ridiculously blown out by this one girl...I'm trying to return back to my calibration...okay it was a crap ngiht

anyway

onwards with my challenge

1/16

working my way now

I go to two of my more typical bars

Okay I didn't really approach at all in the first one, i had 2 halfassed approaches one was some attempted situational thing that failed, and another was a striaght blowout

i was talking to guy frinds of mine and had like 3 beers

head over to this other bar, only drank water there

i approached a little bit more there but it was after a while...I had like 3 sets or so hook. I was hugging this one girl and stuff but she was a mess...shoes missing, had two phones in her hand? lol and stuff like that

okay i realized one thing

I get to the venue too damn late

i should get there earlier it's nevessary

1/18

continues the 30 day challenege

i can't even recall anything to tonight..i didn't even drink either

i had a ton of conversations...here and there they did stall

but i went well....i didn't escalate physically enough...i figured out how to fix myself...i'm more attuned to what Alexander from RSD teaches and not this whole physical grabbing blah blah that goes on


literally by the end of the night though...all my openers let's leave and have sex right now


regardless i had sex with some hooters girl..


anyway

strange night...i decided to go to the bar before my usual 12:30/1 AM thing, went out at 10 AM stayed til 3...fuck this..iu'm not doing that ever again....sooo fucking long

1/20

god damnit...i almost made it tooo

first place...was closed wtf...went to another place...first approach, the girl says no i'm not interested and her friend, she literally pushes me and keeps walking as she pushes me like 20 feet away....i can't enough of this, it's ridiculous

I got 1 handjob below the bar by the bartender at this one bar

I got a blowjob from this one girl

I chatted up these two girls from chicago

I was about to have sex with this one girl, but she was there with her friend who's birthday it was, she asked for my # and left...when we were about to leave

i went to weird people's bar...i apocalypse openered a few times...yep sober...failed everytime...i honestly don't think this shit works...albeit i used it on bartenders and shit moreso than people..a few girls just chuckled


went to my normal bar, tried to talk to the first girl, she's like fuck you to me more or less...i go talk to this other girl she opens up, but i can't say anything literally my mind is blank, i basicaly just ask her to come get food with me, she says she has to hear what everyone else is gonna do

at this point the bar is basically empty...i see a girl walking by, i open my hands to say hi...she basically hugs me. she says she's loooking for her friend, i join her. friend nowhere, she jumps in cab, i jump in cab...i'm at her dorm. and then i just leave without going for the fuck

damnit

Simply going to be on cold approach pick up from here on out

Went out 1/23 with some VFresh something dude on this website

he's new to this...he's normal, not fucked up with all this pick up nonsense, thankfully

we went out approached like crazy. it was a monday night...so hard to find much going on. but we definately talked up about 20-22 sets

He got the first one to hook with him...again the girls weren't the best looking

we went to some other bars and stuff

i don't remember much about the night to be honest

I got a lot of sets to hook at the last bar when the guy disappeared

anyway he calls we head out

it was a solid monday

i guess the issue is i don't move sets forward enough...wasn't on my adderall though and had trouble talking here and there

this Vfresh something guy's problem was he was just mean a lot of times. his playfulness comes off as rude a tad bit

1/27


Anyway I decided to text up random people on this lair

apparently people were at bar #1 like that.

Anyway I'm inside assuming the guys are there..they werent

I'm just chilling at the bar. I start talking to the dude next to me and the
bartender

Anyway I joke around with her on how poor i am and how I'm a crackhead or
something. I write my # on a napkin. Tell the toehr bartender girl, to give it to her


I get a text from the dude, his name is D or omsething. I head out find him. he
wants to go to bar #2 thats where other dudes were

I can't get in of the place. the bouncer then chases me down and kicks me out as
I try to sneak in

Fuck it i go by 2nd avenue and bitch to everyone about #2 being gay
as fuck. Some girl who works outside of some bar, i bitch at too. as i'm leaving she follows me down. tells me how bad she feels about me and asks if she can help and whatnot. i'm actually finding this somewhat amusing..but i say thank anyway but no

I start talking to some random bar #3 workers outside. Okay i'm committed to fucking
this one. Were' talking some random 80 year old dude comes in and asks to take a
picture with her..okay i take the picture. i start talking to some other dude
while this is happenign, when this picture thing was done. i had something
hilarious to tell her. and of course she disappeared. I talk to some other basicaly stripper employee. her friend was like "wow I like the approach" i'm like what the fuck are you talking about "the approach" i don't know any of this shit .i just said hi i'm ___.


so i sneak back into bar #1

i talk up some people

i then pass notes to bartender for the rest of the night...she get's a break at
araound 2 am to say the bar is closing...the place doesn't close for like
another hour or osmething though. i pull her to the bathroom and get a blowjob
from her.


I would've gone to fuck her but then i saw that she had tattoos going up her
side...gross

this girl shit tested me like a mother fucker...i just had the mindset that it was on regardless of what she was saying. i was just delusional

other stuff that happened tonight

like at bar #1, i wasn't fully spending time with her

I was like massaging some girl's ankle at one point...not sure what that was about. she thought i was some doctor in training, technicallys he was right. but yeah...she # closed me, she was old though

I started talking to some girl who basically parked up next to me and started dancing. we're talking she basically tells me her husband cheated on her and she's loooking for revenge and basically asks to have sex with her..i'm like no..find a girl and hook up...i'm not going to be part of some evil scheme of yours

i start talking to some dudes by the bar

I start talking to this one girl we're talking she starts shitting me for nor eason. i'm just not even noticing what she was saying. she basically introduces me to everyone and their mom...and the thing is i'm just oblivious to it because these people all love me as i'm talking to them...she comes back and starts telling me about her nipple piercings and her vagina piercings...okay i'm grossed out at this point. i'm too conservative for this shit

that's when i went back to the bartender who had tattoos which sucks for her becauase she didn't get my penis for that reason only