Hi there =)

Life
So far this week i've been recovering, but the past few weeks was pretty mediorce for me.

before moving i really didn't have any downtime to sleep, let alone relax and now i'm just starting to realize how important that is.

between looking for places, dealing with my friend who's really tough to deal with, not sleeping, 300 dollars taken away from my bank account, and a partial oneitis with that work girl (found out a bunch of random he say/she say bs), it all kind of hit me at once.

Long story short, it caused me to smoke weed, order pizza, and masturbate for like 2 or 3 days. That kinda made the little depression i had worse.

The good thing is yesterday i finally picked myself up and am starting to get it together again.

Yesterday i bought a bike, which now instead of it taking me an hour/hour and a half to get to work using the bus, it only takes me 20 minutes and i save money cuz i don't use the bus. I also dealt with everything with my bank account so i should be getting that 300 back real soon, and lastly got a clean ass taper fade haircut LOL.

If anything though, what i'm focusing on the most is my life outside of work. I personally feel as if i got too caught up with working and the drama that goes with it and invested it. I basically made work my life, and after realizing that i don't like that. Now after realizing it, i'm trying to only work 2 days a week at one job instead of 3/4 amd 5 at the other. I'm also gonna try to get a day off to try to go this huge tournament that hella people are flying to that happens to be in my area. Now that im kinda settled the demand for money isn't as potent as it once was.

Game
I was happy that i finally got off my ass and did something and because of that i approached a really cute girl with dyed red hair and asked her the time. First time i think i approached and i didn't really put any thought into it. I knew the time, but i only approached her because i thought she was cute. What was cool was i just went with my initial thought. It made me even more happy that i just approached. I thought afterwards i could've commented on the hair, but i'm okay with the results cuz i approached.

I'm not where i can go direct i feel, but idk i wanna keep on approaching just because the only way i can really get better at game is by approaching.

The thing im concerned with though, is i don't really want to approach anyone im not attracted to. It's cool as a means to warm up i guess or just to be friendly, but i mean i can't try to game a girl i'm not attracted to. I know some people say just like approach and open everyone, but idk man i'm not trying to fuck everyone either.

My game is ehh, i think im pretty shitty, but im improving. I made friends with this bus driver lady who's married with kids. I actually think she's cute LOOL, milf status i guess.

I'm starting to realize something though, i use to think if i didn't 3 second rule it i failed. I do think i should 3 sec rule it, but at the same time as long as that chick is still in my vicinity, im realizing i didn't fail LOL.

The whole situation with the work girl fucked my confidence up, but i'm oddly im still motivated. I think that situation showed me what i needed to work on (i never thought i'd say that with game LOL). Showed me also to not really fuck with co-workers, hell even people in the social circle The cool thing is i know im capable of getting a hot girl, i think my issue was my ego got caught in the way along with what others thought as well. I didn't like how people seemed invested in what i was doing, i felt like that situation framed me in a negative light with people, thats why my confidence is a little shot.

I felt like i was being watched, oddly i realized thats another fear i have, being watched. For some reason i tend to fold when being felt like im being watched, in anything. It makes me nervous, when people watch me do things i feel like they're expecting something from me (even though thats not the case). Sometimes even when they're just in the vicinity. I feel like im hiding something and that their presence will reveal my faults, so it scares me. Something i should try to work on lool

But yea thats pretty much it for the most part. Sarging with flackbait tomorrow, i have no fucking idea what to expect, but that's prolly a good thing. I just want to be more about action in my life. I've been talking alot and not acting on my life. That's why i haven't been posting lately, idk man, im just more eager to make shit happen instead of dwelling on it.

anyways, thanks for reading =)

That's the best state of mind : Acting and not thinking. Thinking will never get anyone laid

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yea definitely, it always pays off


Game

Well game wise things are definitely improving. On friday i sarged with flackbait and everest, cool ass dudes to btw. Its always hella rough for me at first because those dudes just go in guns blazing and im all timid and shit, but after awhile i warm up. Still don't hard in the paint like those guys though, they literally give no fucks, balls of steel.

I ended up going direct on about 3 girls that day (never done that before loool). The first was a girl in burger king, her rejection was really harsh, but it was actually kind of funny. I think it was so surprising to go through a worse case scenario and it actually wasn't that bad at all. Instead of thinking something was wrong with me as i thought i would, i more so thought she was just a psycho bitch.

2nd chick was a realllyyy hot cashier in the same building, told her she was cute and she said thank you and kinda walked off. I was confused so i just walked off to. I have a problem where i leave the set really early, mostly because im nervous, another is because i don't know where to take the transaction after i say what i felt like i needed to say, but im gonna work on it by just doing it more.

3rd chick was dumb fine, holy shit. I follow her into a store, had an idea and thought it would be hilarious regardless. So i wrote those little kid love notes on the napkin, the "will you go out with me?" "yes" "no" "maybe" . She laughs, says its really cute and shes flattered, but says she has a boyfriend. Then i say "its cool, you can have 2". She laughs says she has a bf again. Tbh she was actually the most receptive and the hottest to.

Afterwards i approached, but i didn't really go direct. Flackbait did something to boost my morale a little. He asked these 3 white ladies, all looks like moms in the late 30s early 40s. He asked them does he look attracive. One lady goes, yea he's cute, the other lady says, "nah i wouldn't go with cute, i'd go with hot." Then he tells them iim afraid to approach girls. Afterwards they tell me to go for it, and if she rejects me then shes just a bitch anyway LOL. Idk coming from women i found it more of a morale boost. From there we chilled for a little longer and called it a day.

Number Close/Date

The next day at work, there's a real cute girl that looks like she's with little sister, she was being smiling alot, we talked a little, i could've complimented her on her nails (i can't remember i do that shit to alot of girls). She would come back alot asking dumb questions to get my attention. Anyway i leave to clock in on my break on my break, i come back. My co-worker comes up to me, "dude, some chick just asked if you were single and how old you were" I immediately knew who he was talking about, from there i went looking for her to get her number. Long story short found her pulled her to the side got her number and went out with her the next day.

We hung out for about 2 hours, she's real funny, and has a good sense of humor, shes also blunt at times to and i like that alot. I had to go to work so we walk together to my job. Out of nowhere i just grab her hands and start holding them and raise them up then just look at her for no reason. She's start's smiling back and is like "what?" i look around and then i thought about the last time i tried to kiss a girl on the first date and i didn't go for it. We talked about meeting up, i suggested wednesday when she was off, but she suggested today so i was like alright fuck it.

We were suppose to meetup today, but she found out she had her nephews bday party to go to. She suggested tommorow, but i told her i had plans tuesday (was gonna sarge), i said wednesday, but now that i think on it thursday is better cuz i don't have anything planned for thursday. I found out i like this girl and i think she's cool, it just shocks me how much she's attracted. Idk i feel like she likes me alot, shes like really receptive, almost eager. I told myself i was gonna kiss her next time regardless.

Im gonna sarge tomorrow as a means to not invest too much in this like last time. Despite that i get along with this girl better and we don't work together. Part of me feels bad still wanting to hit on other girls cuz i like her, but idk dude. When i thought that way last time it didn't really get me anywhere.

For the most part though, life is going great. Everything is falling into place and im finally getting situated. Def gonna try to game other girls, at the same time idk dude, everytime i think about this chick i went out with, i wanna just throw her up against the wall and make out with her. We're suppose to go to this place that has a bunch of trampolines and possibly see ted, so that should be fun.

anyway, thanks to whoever read, any advice and criticisms are appreciated. If you know anything about being a champ and running away from a set please let me know. I also noticed its really rough for me to approach a group of girls direct.

Again thanks for taking the time to read this if so =)

hi there =)

just looking at this month and i guess things worked out for me better than usual

went on 2 dates and got 3 numbers.

I guess it's a start lol.

I went out last wendesday to pick up girls and got a number but she was 17 =(. Shockingly i did maybe about 7 or 8 direct approaches? Afterwards i thought it was the most easiest shit in the world. I had alot of fun and was relieved i that finally started putting myself out there.

Now that i've finally experienced what it is like, i have a better idea what to expect now when i approach. I also realized that it's by no means as big of a deal as i made it out to be.

Despite this i still have AA and its a bitch, it never really goes to be honest, but i can say when you have people pushing you to approach it's easier to handle it. When i'm alone i think about an approach i tend to panic hard and fold, that or i'll approach the girl look them in the eye and they aren't how i thought they look from a distance and just end up asking the time.

Also approaching is like anything else, to be sharp at it you have to keep doing it. An issue i have is i don't sarge enough, once a week ain't enough. Partially is because of work, but it's more so me being lazy and not wanting to get up and go sarge. I realized that i think about girls/game alot, possibly too much, and i get sad when i don't approachI

I looked back on this month i can say it was alright, it was better than june thats for sure. Although today i've been a chode at life since its my first day off in weeks. I just been eating pizza and masterbating to porn sadly all day. But i guess thats because i never really do it. I told myself after today though that i'm really gonna focus on my goals for the week. My biggest goal for this month is make out with a girl before september.

[Goals/b]

- Pick up girls 2-3 times this week
- Get 7 numbers this month
- Make-out with a girl this month
- Start working out again
- Eat healthy
- Build an abundance mentality
- Kill my neediness when i get somewhere with a girl

As for that girl i went on a date with, i called her last tuesday to see if she was free no answer, then i tried again thursday no answer. The phone rings to voicemail so i know her phone is still on so idk. I just thought it was super odd that she just stopped picking up the phone especially considering how attracted she seemed to be. Sometimes i get needy and think about calling again or looking for her, but that seems like too much. I just feel like if she really wants to she'll find me.

Also theres another chick i work with (the bathroom chick from hella long ago in this journal) she's tends to follow me when i keep my distance from her which is weird. Part of thought to make a move, but tbh id rather just leave it how it is. After dealing with the whole dating/working issue its not worth going thru again. That and i think if i try go somewhere with her, its more of a means of oneitis/scarcity mindset.

As always if you read, you're a beast, thank you =)

Game

Welp, my game hit a peak yesterday, got my first f-close ever lool.

It was with a really hot 27 y/o asian chick i approached direct at the mall. Got her number and went to her house the next night.

What i noticed about my game is the more i show im attracted to them, the more i hit on them, talk dirty to them, etc, that's the more likely i usually end up where i wanna be.

I made so many moves on this chick, like constantly, she kept being hesistant and acting like she didn't want to anything, but i just kept at it. I noticed when i stopped she would constantly put herself in a situation for me to touch her. Once she got horny it was wrap, we got naked she sucked my dick, and we fucked.

The sex was cool, it was really rough, we both couldn't come so we we're fucking really hard at one point. We went so hard that the condom broke, turned the lights on and she ripped the skin of my dick and there was blood. We had a little scare, stopped, but i really wanted to come so i tried to get her to fuck again. She wasn't for it, but instead of saying things, for no reason i started kissing her neck and grabbing her boobs (that turned her on like crazy) so then we started fucking again. We still couldn't come but eventually she did. ( that was the coolest shit ever to watch). I didn't come, i tried cuming on her, but for some reason nothing came out.

Afterwards we cuddled until i had to leave for work, which was awesome. The whole time she smelled amazing despite us fucking for so long.

It was a really cool experience, i wanna do it again so i can better at it. That and its easily the best way i've ever bonded with someone. I wish i could've came, but its all good, better that than cum to early i guess.

She's leaving for LA for 2 weeks so i can't see her, the blood thing scared her a lot, i kept calming her down telling her im clean and everything will be fine.

I think the coolest thing about this whole experience is that despite her being 5 years older than me. She tried to frame it like she's older than me and im the naive one and whatnot, called me immature multiple times. I think what i like is i just completely wasn't fazed by anything she threw at me and just broke her frame. By the end of the night she was acting like daddy's little girl. That was dope hell to me.

In the meantime, im gonna try to game some more, my goal is fuck another girl before this chick gets back.

It's weird man, abundance is finally starting to hit, im really starting to not give a fuck anymore about what these girls think and where i go with them, it's fucking awesome.

Life

The downside is when i focus on gaming i really start fucking up at work, and personally work is more important to me because that's how i eat. So my goal is to do better work

Goals
- Fuck another girl within 2/3 weeks
- Do better at work
- Start working out again

hey, its been awhile since i posted anything.

alot of it is because i go through phases where i feel like i don't have anything to say, but i guess i got the urge to now.

game-wise i'm way better with women than i've ever been, just from the sheer fact of approaching (which i've had alot of help in)

this post is mainly due to an insecurity i have.

It's kind of weird, but i have an insecurity of being known for picking up chicks. Idk man i just feel like people knowing that i go out to specifically daygame makes me look a certain kind of way and it's only getting worse because i'm insecure about it.

I'm starting to notice, just by approaching way more now, how different i am and i feel. Since pretty much no guys do it, at least the guys i know. It makes me feel as if i'm a weirdo for doing so (i know what i just typed sounds stupid as shit).

Honestly if im just honest from jump people won't care at all, but idk man im still afc as fuck and when i'm around my friends i feel bad because ill impose how hot a chick or some chick i approached. I feel like im trying to impose my lifestyle on them even though in my eyes it's just me expressing how i feel. By no means am i trying to be perceived as a player or bragging, i talk about my rejections alot to ensure that. It's just i feel like it weirds people out because direct is way different from your boring ass indirect way of getting with a girl.

It just sucks because as men, our society is so warped into holding in our desires on how we really feel about certain women, i still think like that a lot, which i why i like daygaming because it takes me away from all the insecure bs and i just enjoy myself (after i get rid of the dumbass AA).

i think people's opinions bother me because i don't wanna be treated differently based off of me daygaming, idk why i have a big fear of that.

Game wise im doing better

Got 4 numbers this last week

2 never responded

1 flaked

the last one is this super cute french/phillipino chick, which is actually the one im the most adamant about because she's the hottest and the most receptive. She's the only one i haven't hit up yet because i told her ill call her on saturday.

im learning alot though, how to approach anyway. I'm also learning whats best for me. I can tell where situations go based off of vibes, if the vibe is good i'll know. With the ones who didn't respond i couldn't tell. With the flake i knew the vibe wasn't there even though she was cool. This last one there was a vibe, lets just hope it stayed.

There's no loss though cuz i can always just daygame again.

A goal of mine, is to just approach the first girl i find attractive. My AA gets the best of me and it takes me awhile, but once it goes im alright.

It makes me sad if i don't approach a girl in awhile, i went today without approaching and i feel bad because it's just a missed opportunity.

Goals:
Approach more
Approach alone

thank you guys again for reading.

Dude,

I think your just doing this to yourself. I actually feel the opposite. You are the leader of men. Your friends dont have the balls to approach like you. When im with a group of friends at bars or clubs, my boys usually buy me drinks and give me props for being the only one with nuts to approach women. I always get high fives and just feel like the man. Even when I get shot down. I had all my drinks bought for me one night because I approached the hottest woman at the bar.

Try this mind set and bust on your friends if they mess with you when you approach. Dont let them brake your frame or just go solo if they make you feel that way. You dont need them...

Its been awhile since i posted here, mostly due to the fact of not having a stable comp around. That i get into phases where i just go idle for no reason.

Anyway, this month has been pretty stagnant for me. Less lows but also less highs, way more of a stagnant feel. I work alot less than i use to so im home more. It could be that or just summer being over idk. A big portion lately has involved the passing of my gradma, so this past week i haven't really done anything, besides be with my family. (took time off of work and everything). So i been kinda aloof, i feel like i haven't hit on a girl in forever (even though its prolly been like 2 weeks)

Since then i haven't gamed so i have 0 numbers this month. A bad thing is i've become reliant on the guys i wing with to game. So if they aren't free, i don't game, which in my opinion is a pretty bad idea. A lot of it fear of approaching a chick alone. Even though i've done the shit a before i still fucking have fear of that harsh rejection.

Another reason i haven't gamed is all those guys live across the bridge from where i live, which after awhile that shit gets old taking the train there and coming back. I could go to my local mall and game there, but 2 weird fears stop from doing that.

The first is like i mentioned earlier, going out to specifically approach girls by myself is rough for me. It scares me because i want to do it, but i don't know what the outcome will be like, so that's where the fear hits.

Another is being recognized by the workers there as the guy that daygames. The mall we usually go to is huge in downtown sf. My local mall is alot smaller, so after awhile it will be easier to be recognized. Why this is a fear of mine i really don't know, i do know that since i haven't gamed in awhile i'm starting to get back in my head alot more.

This month overall i been way less "go getum" than i was in August and i just been relaxing for the most the part. In august i had about 11 numbers and 1 lay. Which i guess isn't bad. I feel like its been a long time though since i had sex (been a month a half)

So i guess i gotta fix it, cuz its bothering me. That and i've been mad horny lately lool.

I decided not to watch porn for 3 months and not to masturbate for 1 month. Mainly cuz when i had sex with that girl the reason i didn't cum is because i wanked like the 3 times a few days before we had sex. So it fucked me up alot mentally when we had sex. I wasn't turned on during the initail fucking. What had turned me on was the foreplay. Kissing her neck and licking her tits is what got me really tunred on. What got me hard was when we started taking her clothes off. Idk the chase was the initial turn on, when i got it it was kinda like bleehhh.

so far im a week in, no porn or masturbation. It's super hard not to type up porn. Especially considering im on a computer. But ima be a G and not do conform.

That and ima really go hard on dieting and fitness. I told myself i wanna get to 5% bodyfat by november. (already 10%bf/170 pounds why not go for gold)

aside from that everything is chill. Im tired all the time though. So that sucks, idk why. Alot of people call me while im sleep cuz im always tired, i wanna see a doctor for it, but i don't have insurance.

overall though, i reaaaaaaaalllllllllyyyyy wanna have sex. Like im fiending for pussy right now looool.

Goals for the rest of the month.

- sex sex sex
- workout 10 days this month
- daygame this week
- get 2 numbers this month
- eat healthy