I've reached an unusual stage in my personal development. This post may sound too philosophical at best, and emo at worst, but I don't mean it like that. I'm just curious to know if this is a phenomenon that simply goes with self improvement, and if any guys here have ever experienced it.

I feel like I've learned "too much," as bizarre as it may sound.

I've read countless books, ranging from "Sperm Wars" to "The Art of Massage," along with all of the well-known PUA books. I've listened to days worth of seminar material and watched hours of video. All this in an attempt to become a higher-value, better-equipped and more well-rounded man. This has translated to an almost supernatural increase in my social skills, and I've had more than a few truly sublime moments in the field.

But at what cost? Because social interactions now make so much sense to me, I actually feel worse than ever when they go awry because I always feel that there was some piece of the social puzzle I must have forgotten about.

Because I spent two years studying facial expressions and body language hardcore, I often find myself feeling overwhelmed by the amount of information I get off of everybody on a purely nonverbal level. Sure, I can read a woman's interest level like I'm listening to her thoughts in surround sound, but imagine seeing every negative emotion and lie happening around you all the time.

Those are just a couple of examples.

I suppose, in a nutshell, it feels like I'm bursting at the seams with new pieces of knowledge and awesome skills, and they're always firing, but they're not part of who I am. They haven't become internalized in a healthy and natural way. In "Blueprint," Tyler talks about some people struggling because they are very suddenly endowed with extreme power, knowledge, or wealth that they weren't ready for. That could be the issue here.

What do you guys think? Anyone else ever been in my shoes and gotten through it?

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Sounds like your letting yourself focus on the negative too much.
I'd probably find someone to have social interactions with who would either be empathetic or sympathetic of your problem.
You should see the positive emotions of someone who relates.
You could probably find a girl who knows about this stuff and build a conspiracy theme when the two of you notice BL/ micro expressions in other people.
Seeing as most women are sensitive to that kind of thing anyway.

If your going to make a big deal out of something, let it be the good shit.
Maybe smoke a joint.

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