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Why don't you list the good things instead.
Clear your head of the pessimism and new slate, New haircut , new makeover, lift some weights, more new friends and see this as the 1st step to changing your life for the better.
Perhaps don't focus on the big long goal, focus on the incremental (however may tiny) steps and that will naturally lead to your goal.
I was depressed as fuck and the pick up marketing made me a believer. Then I realised It was bollocks but I was in too deep to give up. So glad i didn't
I have a new hair-cut. Went with an undercut. I've gotten a lot of compliments from friends and family on it. I researched my head shape and went with the best stylish cut I could find that played down the size of my head. I like it.
I do have to find a dressing style that suits me. Right now, I'm wearing Oakley shirts and hoodies that are just too big for me. So they don't really show off the athletic build that I have. I am back into the gym and researching the best work-out/diet plans to make the most of my 4 months of unemployment to get as many gains as possible.
I do have to make some new friends. Though I am planning on joining some classes, Yoga, Cooking, Dancing (developing a new skill that will help at clubs/weddings etc.), and maybe some Improv classes to help me make shit up on the spot during conversations, be natural and comfortable. A friend of mine (he was on BBCAN2, he's a total idiot but he makes a lot of friends) should be back in a week, so I plan on hitting up as many parties as I can with him so that I can network with people before he moves away.
As far as my lifestyle, I play hockey, I win championships when I play. I can shred on the drums. I've played live shows, I've recorded demos. I write poetry and short stories. I've been paid money before to be published in poetry anthologies. I am an articulate guy who can have deep philosophical conversations about anything. I'm open, I care about people, and I'm knowledgable about sports. I'm well read. I'm ambitious and when I set my mind to pretty much anything I can accomplish it.
I just always go back to.. Okay, all of this shit is impressive, and I'm the type of guy that girls talk about wanting but they never want 'me'. So I blame my looks. It could also be my lack of creating sexual tension, of doing push-pull, being too nice, and not escalating. I can build comfort and rapport with no issue but I end up being the guy who helps them with their boy problems rather than.. well, being their boy problems.