| I came in my first year in college, no game. Then, I read "the game", by Neil Strauss, and became interested. While practicing the skills I learned, I kept reading to acquire more. I read all about inner game, and I even read "How to Win Friends and Influence People". It was hitting every area my life, and I was dynamite.
Then, I started dating a girl. Not for long, but for 2-3 months I had sex on tap. It was just so easy. Then I broke up with her. That's when I first noticed a loss in game. It wasn't immediate, but I knew I wasn't as good as before.
Fast forward 8 months or so, my game is just gone. I don't approach, and I don't know why. Night game used to be my thing, but now I just feel repulsed by it. I'm in a bar, I can clearly approach, but I don't. It's an odd combination of disgust and fear. I tell myself it's because I don't want the "bar girls" anymore, but I don't think that's it. If it were, I'd be able to day game; but I can't, and never have. Maybe it's that I built up a reputation while I was on my game, but now I'm scared that my friends will judge me. If I fail, the reputation looks like a lie. If I succeed, I'll look sleazy. All the while, my reputation of being good with women is going down the drain
The odd thing is, I'm more confident in myself now in every other aspect of my life. I now make 3x more than my friends, and this is part time, when I decide to open my computer (web design is a hell of a business!). I haven't gotten out of shape, and I dress much better. Still, the spark isn't there anymore. The spark that doused out all fear, doused out approach anxiety, made me awesome, and got me where I am now, is gone.
When I do approach, I just feel disingenuous; like I'm lying trying to impersonate who I was before. I don't know what's going on, but it's a vicious cycle. When I don't try, it brings me down. When I do try, I feel gamey, and women can tell; I fail and it brings me down. I don't know what do to anymore. If you guys could give me some direction, point me to a book to read, or give me any advice it would be much appreciated!
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