Hey Guys,
This is the first time me posting here but I have heard and read a lot about the PUA community and it's lesson. I'm 17 going on 18 in a few months and I would like to change something in my Life. But I can't do it alone. I need help from people more wiser then me so I know where to start. First let me tell you guys alittle bit about me.

Growing up I wasn't always confident or felt the ability to do anything in this life. One thing I did find interesting was computers and technology, I don't know why I just did. I had something that I wanted to do, but half of the time I was doing it alone that it effect my social life as a kid. Not only the fact that I haven't had father to guide me and my mother was working on an all day job so I was just raised by a babysitter, which being with that babysitter caused a lot of childhood trauma.

Time went by and being a preteen I left with my mom to my home country Peru where I met my father, I thought life might be better now. I might actually have someone to teach me how to play soccer or fix a car.
But it turn out to just be hell, he was an alcoholic, used to abuse my mom physically and leave us with barely enough money to eat. Starting school was also bad as it isolated me to people, which was the cause of constant bullying. I actually thought of killing myself because I couldn't stand the inner and outer pain in my life. If it wasn't for one man that was more of a father to me that helped us, I don't think I would of been out of that hell.

We came back to the U.S. with a little better life because of that Money that man gave us. I never truly knew who that man was but one thing that was told to me was that he was my real father. For those 5 years that I did know him, he was more of a father then the one I had. Then I started high school, at the begging it was ruff but I slowly changed to have more confidence, more physically fit, heck even had a girlfriend for the first time in my life! Life was turning out to be good! But at the tip of it....it all crashed down...

My girlfriend broke up with me, money issues, failing in school and the man who cared for me like a father would died. I had deep depression for 2 years and went back to isolation. I just didn't care about life until one day I was drinking my pain away and it hit me. I can't end up this way, I won't end up this way! I made a choice that I knew it would be hard but I knew I just didn't want to end up this way! I found counseling which helped my depression, I went back to the gym and lost 30 pounds, now weighing 200 pounds, and I went back to school.

Now that's a short summary of my life. This is my last year as a senior in High School and I don't want it to be the same as it was in the past years. I want it to be the best year of my entire high school life. I want to change my life. But I need to know how. I need help. I never really had a mentor to teach me anything other then what I learn in school so I've been teaching myself how to do most stuff. This is something I want to learn. I am still the quiet one, the one who wants to be social but cant, the one who wants to maintain a relationship but becomes needy. I want to be a Leader. But I don't know how to start this path. I need help.

I know there isn't anything I could give you guys in return of equal value, but I'm asking from a Human Being who needs help to another Human Being to teach me how to do this. I just need to start with my inner game. I am so grateful for any help that is given to me