| Hey guys, I went out with a girl, pretty hot like a 10, looks Italian.
So I've been pursuing it with some non-overbearing persistence. She just recently last week told me she liked me but has had bad luck with guys and says she's a bit nervous.
She's been doing this whole "I'll text you thing" when I suggest we go hang out and ask what her schedule is like so we can plan it.
I did get fucking knocked off track and wussed out. I'm going to admit. Up to this point I didn't wuss out. It was actually an accumulation of outside circumstances that led to my wussing out.
I'm not the strongest guy yet and not really good with game yet, but I had got laid off, am down to literally no money, had a friend die, and then started back working at my old job, where I found they were shitting me on something but it was the only one I could get... So, I wussed out because of anger and I was under some stress and it all happened like in a moments time one morning.
So as that stuff was going through my mind, I also thought of this gal, and for some reason I text her saying some shit about how I think I've lost my chance with her. I told her I was just having a bad morning, that I knew most would consider that needy, but whatever. Then I told her I'd had bad luck with women too and that I'm shy, don't do small talk well, but when I'm engaged in an activity, I can open up more.
Yeah, I know it's pretty bad.
So she texts back and says "I understand but We're both just really busy people and I'm sorry that we're not going to know in 2 weeks if we're going to work out or not. I'm trying to juggle being a responsible adult and a college kid. It's not easy."
But then I told her that I did know what it's like because I grew up learning about this world on my own since I was 17 with no people to model after. Also I said that no, I wasn't expecting us to find out if we're going to work out in 2 weeks and I"m not going to push it.
And that's the way I'd really like to go about it, even though I know my emotions are high. I know that.
But I was reading the 13 Sneakiest Tricks of Women and I think I'm in the #4 Reverse Passion Play, where they will tell you how busy their life is, and it's just to test you to see if you can hold strong with the fact they have their feminine power, or just a bunch of crap and lies, or both.
I also started reading yesterday, How to Be the Jerk Women Love because if this situation doesn't work, then I REALLY got to get a handle on this and change my life around. I really do. I need to anyway and either way.
So I'm wandering if I'm too far down that path or if there's some way I can reverse it around and become the "jerk". Or get back to attraction or something.
Funny also how after I told her that the other day, I was at the coffee shop with my friend, where she works and I didn't say anything to her and she's like,
"Hey guess what! I quit my second job! (with a big smile).
And I'm acting cool and casual, and I say, "ok... well, I guess that's good".
Then she's like, yeah. I only got one more hour to go here and then I'm off!"
And I'm like, "nice, I'll let you come over where I work and dig some trenches. Know how to use a shovel?"
"yeah. the other day I was shoveling horse poo!"
I look at her weird and she's like, "for money"
Then my friend, who wanted me to meet him there to talk about his business, I walk to sit at the table with him and so I put my chair angled to where I'm not facing the girl, but my back to her for that whole rest of the hour.
So when she is leaving, she walks right by the table and out the door, without looking or saying a word, and yes during that hour I did look every other woman up and down that walked through that coffee shop while we were all talking, never glancing over her direction one time.
So I really don't know what I should do next, if it's time to move on or in some way reverse this whole Reverse Passion Play and get her to invest in me by becoming more of a jerk.
I just don't know how to go about it.
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