The first time I saw her was six years ago when I played and won some game of billiards smoothly with confidence, that's how it make her confess to me that she have a crush on me. I went along with it to give her what she want, we exchanged number and whatnot, I was inexperience with dating back then so in like a month she decided to fall for an assertive guy and they get married in like two months. We remain friends so I was like whatever, there's plenty of fishes out there and I have time to learn anyway.

Fast forward to 4 months ago, in the same room where I played pool, this time I was being casual, in the corner of my eye I see a young and cute girl getting eager about being the next one to play with me. After I won via foul, we did handshake and eyes contact, I didn't let go of her hand to test how much she is into me. She told me her name, for a moment I looked at her blankly, then signal that I can't hear. That got her to smile and want to show me that she know how to fingersign and repeat her name. She do good at this and when she stand in the distance while she set up a game, I took a good look at her... man, that's when she bewitched me! After the game is over, she sign to me that I'm a good shoot to compliment me, I almost look at her in the eyes but my rational brain scream at me to back off so I got anxious. I told her to cut it out. My reasons? I live in a different town at that time, I'm ready to leave soon and months of unemployment wore me out mentally. I feel terrible about it and I kinda want to see her again to explain my situation and make it up to her. I knew I would listen to my feeling and made her mine.

Now I move back in my hometown a few weeks ago and went to bars to reunion with my friends, I saw one of them I dated for a very short time, she told me that she divorced her husband eight months ago. I told her if I remember her name correctly and she gave me a proper one. A big-ass whoops. After last weekend is over, it strike me as odd that crush and friend turn out to be the same person. Same body, same eyes and hair color, and even same name. I wonder why the hell I wasn't aware of that? That's what I'm going to do this weekend, ask her if she is that same as person as girl that dazzled me. I'm sure there's 80% chance that they're not the same but if she indeed is, I can only imagine that I'll be embarrassed, loss at what to say. That'll almost put me on fence to go after her, depends on what will happen. Let's say you experience the same thing and decide to give it another try, what would you do and say?