* She lies A LOT , about EVERYTHING , even to her mom
BIG red flag to begin with. Never ever get hooked with these kind of girls ever again.
A long time after that, (about 3 months ago), i was using her computer for a college work, and when i openned the browser , her SPAM was logged in, and she was talking AGAIN with the same guy
Never okay, you can't rationalize this one. They had a sexbased relationship as you said it and if they don't have a kid together or some financial hook there is no reason having contact.
They've probably fucked each other during the time with you.
She also was deleting the conversation from time to time , because she knows i was obsessed and look at her phone frequently , because of the first time she talked to the dude and i saw it.
Sexting and maybe even hookups.
If she really had nothing to hide in the conversations with the guy, would she delete it? No!
When that happened, i asked her if she went out with someone in the time we were split, and she said no ( wich is a lie, because after some time her brother said by accident in a dinner that she went out that week and came back late) , Even she didn't want to tell me the truth, i told her about the girl i had sex in the week we were split, and she just replied "ok" and didn't get angry or anything, like she didn't care.
Or she does, but not on a deep level like it should be in a dedicated relationship. She is lying and being manipulative, and these behaviors have gotten you into a reactive and overpossesive wimp. She has you by the balls and she knows it.
all i feel when shes not around me is insecurity.
I was a very confident guy and never had problems with the girls i dated
Which is a better of reality?
Dude, I know it's though doing this. But you have to be fucking strong
. Reading through your text and it feels like you already know the answer to this. I get mad right now cuz I know she's very cute and supportive despite all the other shit. It's easy blaming yourself with these kinds of chicks, thinking it's you having a problem with the trust and that you need to work on that. Fuck that. She's lying to everybody.
Stop being blind, face the reality, dump her and start working on yourself again.