hey i made a few posts here but i didnt introduce myself
hi guys i have been reading material now for a year and a half. first of all i want to say that my life is shit right now. I have literally no friends. my phone never rings with people wanting to hangout with despite the fact that I am a very fun caring person. ever since moving down south from nyc I have been very depressed. i had one GF in my life for like 3 months. made out with like 8 girls and had sex twice, drunk hook ups. i am 21 now thank god which i can go out now. my high school life i spent it as a loner pretty much besides like having 2-3 friends which werent really friends because they were the only people thatt were able to talk to me.
before stumbling into the community, i dismissed his like every AFC saying this shit is for losers. But i was a loser and so i tried it out. turns out this forum is not for losers its for people trying to better themselves only to achieve higher goals wether it be bagging girls or getting a girlfriend. You guys are winners because your looking for ways to not only achieve goals but better yourselfs mentally and for some physically. FUCK the people who say this is stupid or that pick up is for losers. i know i sound very angry..lol im not
what i want tto improve is approach anxiety and i have read alot and read on this blog just abou everyday becuause there is always something new to learn. I want to be that guy that all the girls call, the guys that walks in with girls to the club, to not wake up bymyself and to have something to do on the weekends beside masturbating and playing guitar.
sometimes i go through depression phases when i try the game and it sucks so bad but i know i have to continue. so any hinters on what to do during these depression cycles i would gladly appreciate it

.sometimes i get really lonley im going to be a senior in college and the past 3 years have not been what it i expected i didnt lose my virginity untill last year in college. i hate going out bymyself (sarging) i only do it when im at least with a male friend. but i know i need to go sarging alone too. i think doing this is one of the hardest things to do. when i work out, i did it for muscles cus all the girls in the club were witth big muscular guys. now i do it for myself because if i look good ill feel good. fuck working out for girls. i do it for myelf
im a short guy but ive been told im cute. I play guitar can cook speak 4 languages fluently and am very street smart and well i can say book smart. But yet it doesnt seem to attract women to me neither men( not in a homosexual way). it seems like i cant even attrac friendships. i try not to stay negative bcuz sometimes it gives off a negative vibe. its hard not to say negative when my life well has been...dull. I want things to go my way for once in my life. for once in my life i want to postt somethting on face book like "today is a wonderful day" or "loving life right now" but i dont post anythting because well there isnt nothing going on....
But i know all that can change. I personally want to thank Mystery,DeAngeloe, gambler and Strauss for leading the way. if it werent for thier trial and errors and books, i honestly would of been to the point of becoming suicidal if i didnt come across this community. And for all of you guys here a future thank you for your tips insights and motivation. I dont care if i become a master pick up artist or sleep with a different woman every night ( even though it would be nice) I want a life i can look back on and only smile and say i have fun. I believe the first step starts here. so to all you on here CHEERS and HELLO!!!!
- Juice Man