Hey guys, I'm new to these forums, just trying to balance my ride on this unstable track we call life. I just turned 20 earlier this month and I am from Cleveland Ohio. Here's a little background of how I ended up here..haha sounds kinda like therapy group or something
Anyways long story short, high school was alright for me fooled around with girls then and there. I didn't really lack confidence but I also wasn't spewing it from my head either, everything was pretty steady. Then, college happened. I was away in unfamiliar territory and I almost hit it off with two girls during my fall term, but I guess I was doing something wrong then. Then winter break came around and I started talking to this girl who I actually used to go to high school with she also went to the same college I went to now. I didn't think much of it first, but after the first time we hung out I was into her then I guess it all went downhill. My AFC level was at an all time high, and I had symptoms of one-itis written on my forehead. I did everything wrong to the point where I never really made a move and then watched some asshole make every move on her and get to first base with her. I really don't know what happened after because I couldn't really stand that stuff. I was horrible, and I still kind of am. I stopped talking to her for a while and I was going through a really rough phase. I was angry at the world, envious of my friends, and looked at every women as a potential (insert derogatory word for women). My self esteem was down to the lowest of lows and I felt like the biggest failure ever for some time. Now I am better off I guess, I started talking to that girl, talked to her how I got hurt (just to get it off my chest). I recently read The Game, by Neil Strauss and that really reinvigerated my desire for change...so here I am, just trying to get back into it..haha long story short...I am in complete AFC mode right now and need to go through some drastic change...
Anyway's, it's a pleasure being here, hope to meet many of you in the future
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