man its been a long journey for me, i use to get on this site with my cellphone during breaks at work. Its like i would acquire as much knowledge as i could then store it for that "one day" i would use it on some unlucky hb. my story is pretty much the same as your's if not worse, yes...i fell in love, Yes i was that loser in high school that would feed off a hug i got 2 weeks ago, no confidence, overweight...yup a pretty much shitbag. Then one day i picked up "The game", i scammed threw it and wasn't really impressed, but when you hit rock bottom desperation gets the best of you. So cliche' but it Changed my Life!! Mystery and style i saw them as Gods that handed me these forbidden secrets to attracting girls. i did ALOT of mental masterbation for some months prepping myself up, but we all know now, that without actually applying it on the field its as worth less as youre N64. so i did, i went out to malls saying hi to people sometimes shying off, and NEVER MAKING EYE CONTACT. i would love talking to hired guns because they are meant to talk to you, but when it got awkward i would often bail and not return for months. i brought my friends into the world of PUA, but somewhere along the lines we all got poisoned by the power of being ALPHA, and pretty much we all got separated, this is no joke, it will change youre mind,thoughts, views on woman yourself and life. Its not just about women, at first it is, but then you see its not that impossible to actually talk to another human being who is as vulnerable as you are. I got some ok pick-ups nothing serious or permanent, i came up with lots of rejections!!!! LOTS AND LOTS!! girls who ive had good talks with actually shared a moment, but it all disappears just like that. i Learn and am still learning, i am very self consiouss about my looks, im at 215 pounds now, and even though i know that only affects me in club game, it kills me everytime so i am hitting the gym, doing the p90x program wich is fucking torture i will start going out sarging and track my progress, i would like to see where i get in a year from now
Take care brothers
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