Okay i first heard about pick up in a very busy bar at the beginning of august with a friend down from university; he said "ask who lies more; men or women", so i drunkenly went around asking that all night to BIG groups, lone wolves and the like. didnt get anywhere past the opener but i was fearless.

then after that night i got "rules to the game" which being a bit cocky i didnt really follow apart from reading the rules and routines/openers. now i realise that was silly of me.

Then that same friend of mine gave me The Mystery Method, this is where i got bad. Opening became harder as i couldnt even visualise open, 25degree angle, body rock, neg, falsedisqualifier, hook point.

then i could only open 1sets and 2 sets and only once or twice throughout the night and a lot more AA.

Friend went back to uni and i found here and ive been doing night game on weekends (friday and saturday) which has been hazardous as if i go out by myself; i cant open or be social and go hella INHEAD. If i go with friends i get nervous of them watching me and i feel that im with them and its hard to go around finding girls because of that.

Not that i havent opened since, i have. I even had some pretty good nights with women (My best night was at the beginning when i kiss closed a milf-teacher) usually with one of the 2 guys that are players that i know.

What im trying to say is, i think ive been on here and maybe KJing a bit and gotten stuck on internet since i got a laptop. I want to be honest and all. Although i have been gaming, its not as much as i think it should be. Mystery kinda scared me with "open within 3 minutes, 3 second rule, 12 approaches a night", so i set unrealistic goals that basically meant i wouldnt do shit.

Now for the passed week ive set realistic goals on a daily basis that i set each night compared to what i did the day just gone (so i dont just spend friday and saturday getting scared shitless approaching 2 women).


Here is my goals; newbie mission monday to friday (sometimes saturday)

start a conversation with a girl i find attractive once a day
start a conversation with a stranger to be friendly
Do one good deed a week
Do all the stuff on that inner game sticky with regards to Fin and Hobbit(mental post btw)
Read Stormy's sticky enough but not too much that i sit on a computer

I dont want to end up a KJ, not for your sake but for mine. I want women. I thought id come honest and let everyone know where im at, so when they see my posts they can judge it better.

oh a quick introduction. I had one girlfriend before this (i met through a friend, she cut me a lot of slack in getting her). I had opened before usually whilst drunk (i get VERY drunk) on the beach at night when lots of women come down whilst with my pimp friend whos just crazy (he pretty much did all the opening and talking) and got with the odd girl after going out every night.

I have a hard time being flirty with girls i just met and closing/escalating is a big problem, i couldnt/cant do it even when im sure a girl is interested in me. I think its self esteem issues as when a girl is interested in me, im nervous and scared to go over and move the interaction along for fear of not being liked (worth her time). I also cant make moves on people in my social circle (in any way linked) as i fear being rejected and everyone finding out and being "ohhhh Shah he never gets laid or girls!".

I spent up until getting a girlfriend everyday being scared that any new friends i made or even any conversation being focused or known that i hadnt had sex, had a girlfriend. To the point of my head feeling like its gonna explode when i felt the topic nearing. made me very cautious.

Long post and probably filled with nonsense, i feel relieved nontheless! maybe i journaled...

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