I'm almost 20 years old. I've slept with 3 decent looking girls and made out with and fingered one girl who is around 7+ with incredible body. The fact that I didn't have enough confidence to go all the way bothered me alot and was one of the reasons why I got into this pick up thing.

I started analyzing what was holding me back

My looks are not the problem. I'm over avrage looking, i got a good body (shredded and good abs), I keep my tan up and I'm most often the best dressed guy at the party.

So it had to be something with my inner game. I'm not this socially awkward guy at all but I'm naturally shy and few years ago I didn't mind at all, I was focusing on gettin high grades and doing things that I liked in my free time, I had few good friends but the success with girls was not there at all.

About 3 years ago I kissed a girl for the first time (real kiss not mommy kiss). At this point there was no going back. I had kissed this girl who I thought was really hot and I wanted to do this again. That's when I started tanning, hitting the gym hard and focusing on how I dressed up.

I started getting good resaults, I slept with 3 girls and kissed somewhere around 50-100 girls. I got more social and I'm much better keeping up conversation than I used to.

I think though my past is holding me back for example I used to play for the chess team in my school, everytime someone mention it for example at partys I feel like I'm socially back at square one. I have hard times recovering from that and getting in a good mood again to pick up girls. I try to convice myself that it's not an issue but it really is.

Also I wanna mention when I have drunk 2-3 beers I have no problem at all talking to girls and my game becomes so much better because my confidence sky rockets. When I'm sober my results are just not there, for example I've had a girl who knew me from another party throwing herself at me at a party and I could have easily slept with her but because I was sober nothing happened. This is really a problem for me bacause I look at myself as an athlete and I don't like to drink too often.

So guys if you have any advice i would really appreciate it