This must be the strangest post. I will appreciate insightful comments. I am 35, and I have always been crazy about 10s and 9s girls but never got one of them. I quit trying, never tried too hard anyway, and decided to accept myself and hope for the best.

Eight months ago I started assisting to a protestant church hoping to find God and hopefully a girl-wife for myself. The people who assist to that church are really poor, no cars, no concret houses, myself on the contrary have a car, and live in an expensive neighborhood, so there is a huge status-economic gap. I met this 18 year old girl, she was cute and approached me, I was hesitant to hit on her because our age difference, but since she started I continued. She is the daughter of the minister-pastor, very poor family.

She sent me a lot of sms that I loved to no end, she got all my attention, I kept every message, about 700 of them, printed on pages. We went to a date, it was a pretty naive date, partly because I am shy, and partly because I treated her with a lot of respect because our religion. We almost kissed but did not happen. When I took her home she gave me a quick lip-kiss.

I thought everything was going fine, that it was just matter of time for us to be in a full relation. Then she lost interest, she stopped chatting, she did not call, nothing. I tried to get her back with little results. I called her once on a while and asked her to be my girlfriend, she just answered not right now. I asked her if she had a boyfriend, she said no.

Things were stale. I stopped calling in an effort to not show myself supplicating. But I could not resist the urge and continue asking to be my girl. We spent 6 months doing that, we had 3 or 4 dates during that time, every date with a little kiss, nothing more.

Finally she decided to put an end to my misery and told me that we were not going to be together, but we could be friends. Two or three days later a friend told me that she had a boyfriend during all the time we were chatting and going out. I could not believe it!!! I was tricked by a girl half my age, christian daugther of a minister and poor to no end!!!

I was really upset, because I was fooled, the 700 sms implied for me that she was serious, she told me a lot of things that put a strong idea in me that we were going somewhere.

I stopped talking to her, just hi, hello, good bye, have a nice day, just the very basic of courtesy. She has been calling me, and chat (sms) but I don´t answer or just answer the strictly necessary. She dissapointed me to no end. I still have hope in her, by some miracle we could end together. I know I should drop that idea once for all.

So I decided to improve myself, I have a decent appearance, I consider myself a 7, but I have been very hard to change and challenge myself. Please advice. I can provide more detail if needed.

18 year old priest's daughter...

-You're 35, women like older men.
- She wanted you, but she had conflicted interest due to religious reasons
I used to be religious, but I have found my new religion here.


- I recommend not picking up Christians.

- You told us you have some money, nice house..... what do you do? What do you like doing? And maybe we can point you where to look.

-Also what do you want? A relationship? A wife? Want to get laid more?

Dondeluis, thanks for your reply.

Currently I work in a casino, I work in front of a computer basically 8 hrs a day. Fun activities, not much, I go to some friend house and talk about girls, work issues, movies, etc. Once on a while I go to the movies alone or with male friends.

I have never liked clubs, parties or high energy (noisy) places, I have been very serious, inward person all my life. I know this is a major reason that I don't get the girls I am attracted to. I would like to learn the day game, because I have better opinion of girls who are not addicted to clubs or wild parties.

Matters get worse because I have a 2 yr student loan that takes all my salary, so now I have very little money to spend with chicks, hopefully by improving my social skills I won't need money to be with nice looking girls.

I would like a girlfriend or wife, basically a long-term relationship.

Regarding the priest's daughter I decided not to think about her as a potential girlfriend because she demonstrated to me that she can cheat her boyfriend so she can do the same to me. I still think about her although.

I am going to give you a suggestion here. Work on "sentence variety". Almost every sentence you used started with I and same length. This makes the conversation boring.

If you add a little more variety to your sentences it will keep things fresh.

- Money will not matter if you have an attractive personality!

You work in a casino, I am assuming you will be ok someday. I am 21 years old, I know all about student loans! haha

I understand your point about my sentence structure, the thing is english is my second language, I have not fully mastered it, you must have noticed it.

Wow, you did a very good job then.

I had no idea.